Friday, January 28, 2005

My first P-O-E-M

Haha... the title is not wrong. Your eyes are not playing tricks on you! Indeed, Damian has stepped out in faith to publish his first POEM! Indeed, a first poem that I have wrote, with love and joy from the bottom of my heart. Haha.. it may seem very kiddish but that's the way it is. However, I will try to improve on my poem writing skills when there is time to spare. Please do give your comments if there are any in you... to comment or to critize me on how well my poem does. oopss... I am singing to the tune of the poem as I am writing this portion of text... with so much joy in me, I do not know where to spread. Hahaha... oopss.. I better stop... REMEMBER: This is my FIRST poem... ENJOY.



My God



Here I sit in front of a monitor,

With nothing much to do,

All my work has been completed,

So now I can turn to You.



When work was overwhelming,

Your grace was there with me,

And when I got stuck at a point,

There you show me Your face,

Giving me clear instructions,

For the work I needed to do.

How lovely and great You are,

My God, my Love, my All.



Oh! It is five fifty now

Ten minutes to knocking off

With so much unfinished work,

My hope for home just sank.



But once again, faithful is You,

Who came and rescue me.

Now, with the strength of God,

On wings of eagles I soar,

Nothing is too hard,

For You my God, is LORD!



Written by Damian Ng



NOTE: Written this in my office... haa... :) Not always this free... thus, decided to use my time to praise my God, my All! :)

My first P-O-E-M

Haha... the title is not wrong. Your eyes are not playing tricks on you! Indeed, Damian has stepped out in faith to publish his first POEM! Indeed, a first poem that I have wrote, with love and joy from the bottom of my heart. Haha.. it may seem very kiddish but that's the way it is. However, I will try to improve on my poem writing skills when there is time to spare. Please do give your comments if there are any in you... to comment or to critize me on how well my poem does. oopss... I am singing to the tune of the poem as I am writing this portion of text... with so much joy in me, I do not know where to spread. Hahaha... oopss.. I better stop... REMEMBER: This is my FIRST poem... ENJOY.

My God

Here I sit in front of a monitor,
With nothing much to do,
All my work has been completed,
So now I can turn to You.

When work was overwhelming,
Your grace was there with me,
And when I got stuck at a point,
There you show me Your face,
Giving me clear instructions,
For the work I needed to do.
How lovely and great You are,
My God, my Love, my All.

Oh! It is five fifty now
Ten minutes to knocking off
With so much unfinished work,
My hope for home just sank.

But once again, faithful is You,
Who came and rescue me.
Now, with the strength of God,
On wings of eagles I soar,
Nothing is too hard,
For You my God, is LORD!

Written by Damian Ng

NOTE: Written this in my office... haa... :) Not always this free... thus, decided to use my time to praise my God, my All! :)

Thursday, January 27, 2005

Employed :)

Alas, I have found a job... I am currently working at Anro Asia Pte Ltd, a reseller for IT softwares and products. My job title is IT Technical Support but I see it as Clerk cum IT Technical Support. Haha.. I have not really done any support yet and I am not really confident too. I have not really touch any programming or network stuff for years. However, I believe that I will be able to be the SALT and the LIGHT in this small office of 5 staffs! Pathetic rite? Hahaha... scary thing is that the people here do not really interact with one another... they do not communicate...



One reason why this is so, we are all flooded with emails to do up quotations for many different people/companies. On my first day, I was right infront of the PC from the moment I stepped into the office until it is time to go home! CRAZY! haha... okok.. i did exaggerate there... but apart from getting up from my seat to go to my boss' desk or to the toilet, I basically sat at the table the whole day... it really reminds me of my days in SAFTI, MI as a Finance Clerk... doing up quotations and stuff.... haha...



I really do believe that God has a purpose and reason for placing me here... I am not sure how long I will be here... but every single day when I am here, I am going to maximise my talents and I am going to SHINE for Him! :) His grace is good enough for me... His presence will be there to accompany me throughout the day... My LOVE and MY ALL!

Employed :)

Alas, I have found a job... I am currently working at Anro Asia Pte Ltd, a reseller for IT softwares and products. My job title is IT Technical Support but I see it as Clerk cum IT Technical Support. Haha.. I have not really done any support yet and I am not really confident too. I have not really touch any programming or network stuff for years. However, I believe that I will be able to be the SALT and the LIGHT in this small office of 5 staffs! Pathetic rite? Hahaha... scary thing is that the people here do not really interact with one another... they do not communicate...

One reason why this is so, we are all flooded with emails to do up quotations for many different people/companies. On my first day, I was right infront of the PC from the moment I stepped into the office until it is time to go home! CRAZY! haha... okok.. i did exaggerate there... but apart from getting up from my seat to go to my boss' desk or to the toilet, I basically sat at the table the whole day... it really reminds me of my days in SAFTI, MI as a Finance Clerk... doing up quotations and stuff.... haha...

I really do believe that God has a purpose and reason for placing me here... I am not sure how long I will be here... but every single day when I am here, I am going to maximise my talents and I am going to SHINE for Him! :) His grace is good enough for me... His presence will be there to accompany me throughout the day... My LOVE and MY ALL!

Tuesday, January 18, 2005

Nothing happens by chance...

Have you ever wonder why you are on this Earth? Have you ever wonder why there are so many things that we have to do to stay alive? Do you really believe that we existed because of an explosion? You question yourself when bad things to you. You question yourself when things are not going your way... but did you ever question yourself when things are falling into places; when everything seems so perfect?



We are indeed living in a world where we, by our own might, cannot really explain the existence of this world. There is a law of gravity but why must things fall down? Why is there a pull at the centre of this big green/blue roundie? Can science really prove everything? If science can do that, can science tells us which came first, the chicken or the egg? People are getting more and more ignorant nowadays. They do not really care about their lives and even their AFTERLIVES. Or is there really one?



Nowadays, people are living for the day! What must I (Once again, the BIG ALTER EGO, I) do if this fine day is my last? I am sure that in some points in your life, you have asked yourself that question. And I am very sure that as high as 90% of us will give a very typical answer, "I want to do something which I have always wanted to do!" Right? And that can be anything from beating someone you hated so much up to having some real-time fantasies with the all time charming and sexy girl in your school/work. How sad and crooked is that? Have we really got no futures after we die? Have you given that a clear thought? Once again, do you think that everything on this planet exists because we, humans, are CLEVER and INTELLIGENT? Then where did this intelligence come from? From our DNAs? Then where did this DNA comes from? It can go on and on... and I am very sure that the "smartest" scientist cannot even GIVE us a definite answer. That is why they use terms like "The Big Bang THEORIES!" They are only theories, nothing solid.



People choose to ignore the TRUTH and to rather fix their belief on THEORIES. I am not saying that all theories are false. We have to be INTELLIGENT here. Those that are evident in our lives must be true... for e.g., the Law of Gravity. So you will be asking me, "What is the truth then?" People always want the TRUTH. But how many are willing to follow the TRUTH and to run on the pavement of TRUTH? People are afterall people, selfish, self-centered and ignorant creatures; seeking only to please and accept everything that sounds GOOD to them.



Do you really know about you? Why you are here? Do you even know your reason and purpose in this planet? Are you able to ACCEPT the TRUTH? Let me rephrase... "Are you WILLING to ACCEPT the TRUTH?" The TRUTH is Jesus Christ who came 2000 years ago to die for our wickedness, OUR SINS! The TRUTH is that if you walk in RIGHTEOUSNESS, you will INHERIT His Kingdom. Is there a future after death? There is and the future is BRIGHTER than what you have now! Why cheat your soul by indulging in your pleasures? Are you so short-sighted to think that there is ONLY so much to life? If I were to choose what I want to do if today is the last day, I will probably kneel down and pray to God. I will ask Him what He wants me to do with the remaining time here on this planet.





3 But even if our gospel is veiled, it is veiled to those who are perishing,

4 whose minds the god of this age has blinded, who do not believe, lest the light of the gospel of the glory of Christ, who is the image of God, should shine on them.

2 Cor 4:3-4

Nothing happens by chance...

Have you ever wonder why you are on this Earth? Have you ever wonder why there are so many things that we have to do to stay alive? Do you really believe that we existed because of an explosion? You question yourself when bad things to you. You question yourself when things are not going your way... but did you ever question yourself when things are falling into places; when everything seems so perfect?

We are indeed living in a world where we, by our own might, cannot really explain the existence of this world. There is a law of gravity but why must things fall down? Why is there a pull at the centre of this big green/blue roundie? Can science really prove everything? If science can do that, can science tells us which came first, the chicken or the egg? People are getting more and more ignorant nowadays. They do not really care about their lives and even their AFTERLIVES. Or is there really one?

Nowadays, people are living for the day! What must I (Once again, the BIG ALTER EGO, I) do if this fine day is my last? I am sure that in some points in your life, you have asked yourself that question. And I am very sure that as high as 90% of us will give a very typical answer, "I want to do something which I have always wanted to do!" Right? And that can be anything from beating someone you hated so much up to having some real-time fantasies with the all time charming and sexy girl in your school/work. How sad and crooked is that? Have we really got no futures after we die? Have you given that a clear thought? Once again, do you think that everything on this planet exists because we, humans, are CLEVER and INTELLIGENT? Then where did this intelligence come from? From our DNAs? Then where did this DNA comes from? It can go on and on... and I am very sure that the "smartest" scientist cannot even GIVE us a definite answer. That is why they use terms like "The Big Bang THEORIES!" They are only theories, nothing solid.

People choose to ignore the TRUTH and to rather fix their belief on THEORIES. I am not saying that all theories are false. We have to be INTELLIGENT here. Those that are evident in our lives must be true... for e.g., the Law of Gravity. So you will be asking me, "What is the truth then?" People always want the TRUTH. But how many are willing to follow the TRUTH and to run on the pavement of TRUTH? People are afterall people, selfish, self-centered and ignorant creatures; seeking only to please and accept everything that sounds GOOD to them.

Do you really know about you? Why you are here? Do you even know your reason and purpose in this planet? Are you able to ACCEPT the TRUTH? Let me rephrase... "Are you WILLING to ACCEPT the TRUTH?" The TRUTH is Jesus Christ who came 2000 years ago to die for our wickedness, OUR SINS! The TRUTH is that if you walk in RIGHTEOUSNESS, you will INHERIT His Kingdom. Is there a future after death? There is and the future is BRIGHTER than what you have now! Why cheat your soul by indulging in your pleasures? Are you so short-sighted to think that there is ONLY so much to life? If I were to choose what I want to do if today is the last day, I will probably kneel down and pray to God. I will ask Him what He wants me to do with the remaining time here on this planet.


3 But even if our gospel is veiled, it is veiled to those who are perishing,
4 whose minds the god of this age has blinded, who do not believe, lest the light of the gospel of the glory of Christ, who is the image of God, should shine on them.
2 Cor 4:3-4

Thursday, January 13, 2005

Inspiring!

"If you nurture a relationship like a garden with the living water of Jesus, it will survive storms, heat, cold and dark to bear a lifetime of sustaining fruit."

Eric Fellman



I have been reading a few books on relationship lately and I have began to learn what true manhood is and how putting Jesus in the picture beautify the art piece. Although the books were written about boy-girl relationships, I was really inspired to be a God's man and not a men's man. I have to really thank the authors for giving me a whole new insight to Christian relationships.



I did have a fear about getting attached in church as I thought that there are too MANY procedures, etc. How wrong can I be? Those are not unnecessary procedures but they are actually helpful guiding posts. Relationships like our tongues hold the well of life and death. A correct and God-blessed relationship can bring love, peace and great joy to the couple whereas a wrong, quarrelsome couple only brings hurts, sorrows and death to their souls.



In a relationship, it is no longer about ME, I, MYSELF, the unholy trinity. When a relationship is concerned, it will always be giving and giving and more giving. How foolish is one who thinks that a relationship can actually give him/her love, security or even fun. How can someone trust a man (generic) totally? No man is perfect and man, even your close ones, may fail you in some ways. I am starting to learn and renew my mind... to always place my hope in Jesus Christ. He is the only TRUE SOURCE of joy, love and hope! This is indeed going to be a great year as I start to bring each and every focus back to Him. Every wrong focuses will be re-directed and every wrong mindset will be straightened out. It is not going to be easy but it will sure be one exciting journey.



Books I have read which really inspire me:

1. When God writes your Love Story by Eric and Leslie Ludy

2. I Kissed Dating GOODBYE by Joshua Harris

3. Boy Meets Girl by Joshua Harris

4. Every Young Man's Battle by Arteburn and Stoeker (Fantastic book!)



Books that I am currently reading:

1. not even a hint by Joshua Harris

2. I Kissed Dating GOODBYE (Re-reading... to re-inspire myself!)

3. Every man. God's man by Arteburn and Kenny Luck



They are really great books and it has not only helped me in areas of relationships but also encouraged me to live right for God. We only have this life and we have got to live it right. These authors are really great as they really share out from their hearts. I am very blessed to have picked up these books from the bookstores. I really hope that you will have a vision in your life. If you do not have one, why not start by telling yourself that you want to live right for your Saviour, the one who rescued you from the darkness! :) God bless!



Be Inspired, Live LIFE to the FULLEST!





FOOTPRINTS



One night a man had a dream.

He dreamed he was walking across the

beach with the Lord. Across the sky flashed

scenes from his life. For each scene he noticed

two sets of footprints in the sand, one

belonging to him, and the other to the Lord.



When the last scene of his life flashed before

him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand.

He noticed that many times along the path of

his life there was only one set of footprints. He

also noticed that it happened at the very lowest

and saddest times in his life.



This really bothered him and he questioned

the Lord about it. "Lord, You said that once I

decided to follow You, You'd walk with me all the

way. But I have noticed that during the most

troublesome times in my life, there is only one set

of footprints. I don't understand why, when I needed

You the most You would leave me."The Lord replied,

"My son, my precious child, I love you and would never

leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when

you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you."

Inspiring!

"If you nurture a relationship like a garden with the living water of Jesus, it will survive storms, heat, cold and dark to bear a lifetime of sustaining fruit."
Eric Fellman

I have been reading a few books on relationship lately and I have began to learn what true manhood is and how putting Jesus in the picture beautify the art piece. Although the books were written about boy-girl relationships, I was really inspired to be a God's man and not a men's man. I have to really thank the authors for giving me a whole new insight to Christian relationships.

I did have a fear about getting attached in church as I thought that there are too MANY procedures, etc. How wrong can I be? Those are not unnecessary procedures but they are actually helpful guiding posts. Relationships like our tongues hold the well of life and death. A correct and God-blessed relationship can bring love, peace and great joy to the couple whereas a wrong, quarrelsome couple only brings hurts, sorrows and death to their souls.

In a relationship, it is no longer about ME, I, MYSELF, the unholy trinity. When a relationship is concerned, it will always be giving and giving and more giving. How foolish is one who thinks that a relationship can actually give him/her love, security or even fun. How can someone trust a man (generic) totally? No man is perfect and man, even your close ones, may fail you in some ways. I am starting to learn and renew my mind... to always place my hope in Jesus Christ. He is the only TRUE SOURCE of joy, love and hope! This is indeed going to be a great year as I start to bring each and every focus back to Him. Every wrong focuses will be re-directed and every wrong mindset will be straightened out. It is not going to be easy but it will sure be one exciting journey.

Books I have read which really inspire me:
1. When God writes your Love Story by Eric and Leslie Ludy
2. I Kissed Dating GOODBYE by Joshua Harris
3. Boy Meets Girl by Joshua Harris
4. Every Young Man's Battle by Arteburn and Stoeker (Fantastic book!)

Books that I am currently reading:
1. not even a hint by Joshua Harris
2. I Kissed Dating GOODBYE (Re-reading... to re-inspire myself!)
3. Every man. God's man by Arteburn and Kenny Luck

They are really great books and it has not only helped me in areas of relationships but also encouraged me to live right for God. We only have this life and we have got to live it right. These authors are really great as they really share out from their hearts. I am very blessed to have picked up these books from the bookstores. I really hope that you will have a vision in your life. If you do not have one, why not start by telling yourself that you want to live right for your Saviour, the one who rescued you from the darkness! :) God bless!

Be Inspired, Live LIFE to the FULLEST!


FOOTPRINTS

One night a man had a dream.
He dreamed he was walking across the
beach with the Lord. Across the sky flashed
scenes from his life. For each scene he noticed
two sets of footprints in the sand, one
belonging to him, and the other to the Lord.

When the last scene of his life flashed before
him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand.
He noticed that many times along the path of
his life there was only one set of footprints. He
also noticed that it happened at the very lowest
and saddest times in his life.

This really bothered him and he questioned
the Lord about it. "Lord, You said that once I
decided to follow You, You'd walk with me all the
way. But I have noticed that during the most
troublesome times in my life, there is only one set
of footprints. I don't understand why, when I needed
You the most You would leave me."The Lord replied,
"My son, my precious child, I love you and would never
leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when
you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you."

Tuesday, January 11, 2005

Amazing love

Once again, it is another day of reflection after watching a "Fantabulous" movie! I watched this movie EARLIER this morning. I reached home at 3:30am this morning after meeting up with my drama members. We met up for a buffet dinner at Marina South. After which, a few of us, 7 to be exact went to Mr Bean to have a drink (not alcoholic drink but coffees and smoothies). We stayed there until 3am before deciding that it was too late as some of them have to work the next morning. We had a wonderful time especially towards the end of the whole session as we began to talk about our encounters with God. It was so interesting to learn about other people's experience... to see how God actually spoke to them and how He sent His angels to minister to them. Wow... it was just awesome! I felt so ministered because I too had a very real encounter with JESUS last year. :)



Okay, let me go back to the great movie. The movie is called "A Walk to Remember." The two leads are Shane West and Mandy. It was early in the morning and I thought I was watching the movie because I was too tired to get the sleep. Little did I know that I was in for a great treat! This was the second show that REALLY, REALLY touched and impacted me. The first one, if you have read my earlier post, was Spiderman 2.



I have always loved to watch romantic love stories, to see how the couple fall in love and live happily ever after. But “A Walk to Remember” is different from the rest. Let me give you a brief synopsis…



Jamie Sullivan (Mandy Moore) was studying in this high school where she met this egoistic, popular guy in school, Landon Carter (Shane West). Just to give you a brief background of the two characters. Jamie is a girl who came from a Christian family where her dad was a reverend in a local church in the town. Shane is a guy who thinks that he is the greatest because he is so popular in school. He is one who is really in a BAD company, people who make fun of others just to entertain themselves.



One fine day, Landon was punished for committing an offence and for hurting someone indirectly. He was told by the principle/discipline master that he has to carry out a few tasks, namely to help clean the school, tuition other kids and to act in the play. The first two were just normal chores until he found out that he had to be the male lead in the play. Incidentally, Jamie was also in the drama team and her role was to be a mysterious woman (I think that she was someone who practices witchcraft). As Landon was doing his first play, he asked Jamie for help, to help him run his lines as his friends from the BAD company were simply inadequate. Before Jamie actually promised to help Landon, she told him that he cannot fall in love with her. Jamie was a girl who did not dress very well in school, not because she did not know how to but she just do not want to pull all the attentions to her. Having said so, Landon obviously did not think that she was an attractive girl, so he immediately promised that he will not fall in love with her.



Days passed and slowly, as Landon interacted more with Jamie, he found out that she was just different from the rest of the other girls he knew before. On that day of the play, when everyone was in their full costumes, Landon saw the REAL Jamie, a beautiful and elegant lady who could sing so well. It was there and then that Landon really fell in love with her. Okay… Love blossoms… until one day, Jamie met with Landon and she looked really troubled. Landon began to ask her what was wrong. BAM… She told him that she has CANCER! Then to cut the long story short, Landon chose to love her until she dies and he even married the sick girl. Oh… and because Jamie had faith that Landon would make it to medical school, he finally went into one. Obviously, when he was with his BAD company, he was totally not interested with school and stuff.



I may not be very good at my synopsis but whatever it is, you have to watch the show yourself! It is one show that romantic love stories lovers cannot miss. I really CRIED when she announced that she was sick… It was so touching to learn that you have to be prepared to give up your love just so that he/she will not suffer with you. The both of them looked so right and there were like match made in heaven. I was so sad to know that this story will not really end in a way most love stories do. It will not be a happy ending with two people inside. However, when she said she was sick, I CRIED because no love in the world can be so CERTAIN, UNCHANGING and CONSTANT as God’s love for us. We can lose our loved ones or they can just leave us but God’s love is always there… rain or shine, when you are up or down…



"Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil; does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never fails. But whether there are prophecies, they will fail; whether there are tongues, they will cease; whether there is knowledge, it will vanish away. "
1 Cor 13:4-7



I tried putting myself in Landon’s shoes and I am not sure if I will be so selfless. I tried putting myself in Jamie’s shoes and I am not sure if I will be so strong to accept whatever life has to offer. Life is just so fragile and lives are so unpredictable. Lives can be created by a mistake or in a moment of folly and similarly, lives can be lost just as easily. I am beginning to learn more and more about God’s grace and love these past two weeks. I really thank God for opening up my eyes… to burst the bubble that I have always been living in… thinking that everything is just so beautiful… nothing will happen to me, to Singapore as we are so sheltered!



Sometimes, God allows us to feel the frailty of men so we’ll appreciate the STRENGTH of His LOVE.” Anonymous



Nonetheless, after knowing that things are so UNPREDICTABLE, I began to thank God more and praise Him more… to even want to have a closer walk with Him. I know that even as everything else fails, His love for me will never fail! Oh and one more thing which I learnt from the movie is that LOVE is a COMMITMENT. You love this person to the extent that you are willing to accept him/her for who she is. It is not based purely on emotions but it is really a conscious effort of choice. God chooses to love us no matter what we do and how much we do not want to love Him… UNCONDITIONAL LOVE! He is indeed AWESOME!

Amazing love

Once again, it is another day of reflection after watching a "Fantabulous" movie! I watched this movie EARLIER this morning. I reached home at 3:30am this morning after meeting up with my drama members. We met up for a buffet dinner at Marina South. After which, a few of us, 7 to be exact went to Mr Bean to have a drink (not alcoholic drink but coffees and smoothies). We stayed there until 3am before deciding that it was too late as some of them have to work the next morning. We had a wonderful time especially towards the end of the whole session as we began to talk about our encounters with God. It was so interesting to learn about other people's experience... to see how God actually spoke to them and how He sent His angels to minister to them. Wow... it was just awesome! I felt so ministered because I too had a very real encounter with JESUS last year. :)

Okay, let me go back to the great movie. The movie is called "A Walk to Remember." The two leads are Shane West and Mandy. It was early in the morning and I thought I was watching the movie because I was too tired to get the sleep. Little did I know that I was in for a great treat! This was the second show that REALLY, REALLY touched and impacted me. The first one, if you have read my earlier post, was Spiderman 2.

I have always loved to watch romantic love stories, to see how the couple fall in love and live happily ever after. But “A Walk to Remember” is different from the rest. Let me give you a brief synopsis…

Jamie Sullivan (Mandy Moore) was studying in this high school where she met this egoistic, popular guy in school, Landon Carter (Shane West). Just to give you a brief background of the two characters. Jamie is a girl who came from a Christian family where her dad was a reverend in a local church in the town. Shane is a guy who thinks that he is the greatest because he is so popular in school. He is one who is really in a BAD company, people who make fun of others just to entertain themselves.

One fine day, Landon was punished for committing an offence and for hurting someone indirectly. He was told by the principle/discipline master that he has to carry out a few tasks, namely to help clean the school, tuition other kids and to act in the play. The first two were just normal chores until he found out that he had to be the male lead in the play. Incidentally, Jamie was also in the drama team and her role was to be a mysterious woman (I think that she was someone who practices witchcraft). As Landon was doing his first play, he asked Jamie for help, to help him run his lines as his friends from the BAD company were simply inadequate. Before Jamie actually promised to help Landon, she told him that he cannot fall in love with her. Jamie was a girl who did not dress very well in school, not because she did not know how to but she just do not want to pull all the attentions to her. Having said so, Landon obviously did not think that she was an attractive girl, so he immediately promised that he will not fall in love with her.

Days passed and slowly, as Landon interacted more with Jamie, he found out that she was just different from the rest of the other girls he knew before. On that day of the play, when everyone was in their full costumes, Landon saw the REAL Jamie, a beautiful and elegant lady who could sing so well. It was there and then that Landon really fell in love with her. Okay… Love blossoms… until one day, Jamie met with Landon and she looked really troubled. Landon began to ask her what was wrong. BAM… She told him that she has CANCER! Then to cut the long story short, Landon chose to love her until she dies and he even married the sick girl. Oh… and because Jamie had faith that Landon would make it to medical school, he finally went into one. Obviously, when he was with his BAD company, he was totally not interested with school and stuff.

I may not be very good at my synopsis but whatever it is, you have to watch the show yourself! It is one show that romantic love stories lovers cannot miss. I really CRIED when she announced that she was sick… It was so touching to learn that you have to be prepared to give up your love just so that he/she will not suffer with you. The both of them looked so right and there were like match made in heaven. I was so sad to know that this story will not really end in a way most love stories do. It will not be a happy ending with two people inside. However, when she said she was sick, I CRIED because no love in the world can be so CERTAIN, UNCHANGING and CONSTANT as God’s love for us. We can lose our loved ones or they can just leave us but God’s love is always there… rain or shine, when you are up or down…

"Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil; does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never fails. But whether there are prophecies, they will fail; whether there are tongues, they will cease; whether there is knowledge, it will vanish away. "
1 Cor 13:4-7

I tried putting myself in Landon’s shoes and I am not sure if I will be so selfless. I tried putting myself in Jamie’s shoes and I am not sure if I will be so strong to accept whatever life has to offer. Life is just so fragile and lives are so unpredictable. Lives can be created by a mistake or in a moment of folly and similarly, lives can be lost just as easily. I am beginning to learn more and more about God’s grace and love these past two weeks. I really thank God for opening up my eyes… to burst the bubble that I have always been living in… thinking that everything is just so beautiful… nothing will happen to me, to Singapore as we are so sheltered!

Sometimes, God allows us to feel the frailty of men so we’ll appreciate the STRENGTH of His LOVE.” Anonymous

Nonetheless, after knowing that things are so UNPREDICTABLE, I began to thank God more and praise Him more… to even want to have a closer walk with Him. I know that even as everything else fails, His love for me will never fail! Oh and one more thing which I learnt from the movie is that LOVE is a COMMITMENT. You love this person to the extent that you are willing to accept him/her for who she is. It is not based purely on emotions but it is really a conscious effort of choice. God chooses to love us no matter what we do and how much we do not want to love Him… UNCONDITIONAL LOVE! He is indeed AWESOME!

Saturday, January 08, 2005

It is going to be a GREAT 2005!

Ever since I entered into 2005, my walk with God has been growing sweeter and sweeter. His presence and grace were just indescribable. They were so REAL and everyday single day since the 1st of Jan, I felt like I was riding on a cloud where everything seemed so beautiful.



In my previous post, I shared that 2004 has not really been a really fantastic year for me. However, towards the end of 2004, the last few days to be exact, the LORD encouraged me every single day and as I read more of the Word, He began to bring to light a verse He wanted me to hold on to in 2005. The rehma word that God showed me is "But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you." (Mat 6:33). I have seen this verse very often and I have claimed upon it before. However, in the past, when I claimed upon the verse, it was not with much conviction but nonetheless faith was involved. Now that God has personallyshown me this verse, whenever I claimed it, it felt so different. There was joy and confidence to lead a life that is totally separated to Him. In the past, I did not really have the confidence to really give my all for Jesus but it feels so different now. Everyday, I am just more happy and indeed the "joy of the LORD is my strength!"



There are so much things I want to do this year after not so good 2004. However, when the LORD began to speak, He who is the DIRECTOR of my life, I know that there are certain things which need to be put on hold first. Mysteriously, I did not feel disappointedt or angry that I have to once again shelf my plans. The LORD indeed has given me the grace and strength to handle the things which He has for me. His grace is just so REAL. I really hope I will continue to focus on Him and not let the cares of this world pull me away. For I can only find true love and comfort in Him! He is indeed my SOURCE of COMFORT, WISDOM, STRENGTH and GRACE!



After attending last night service, my word was confirmed by Rev Kong Hee! Wow... it was just amazing! For the past week, I was still having some doubts about whether or not this is indeed the word but when I sat through the preaching, the presence of God just fell upon me. BAM! That was when I knew that God really wanted to me focus on Him this year and if I put Him first, He will bless my finances, relationships and my health! Pst Kong did not shared from Mat 6:33 but what he shared was the importance of putting Jesus as our foundation and he encouraged us to commit our life to prayer, the church, Word of God and to the Holy Spirit! God really work in a POWERFUL and CUTE way eh? Throughout the week, a friend also shared that we should really put God first in our ministry and life this year. In fact, God wants to use TIME to mould us and to really build us up into GREATER people, people who are more CHRIST-LIKE. What an interesting year that is ahead of me and I am really excited about it. Praise God for His faithfulness and most of all... for His love and grace that He showered over my life. I have never had such a good start to my year in the 23 years of my existence here on earth. I know that this year, 2005, will be one exciting ride with Him. I can forsee pitfalls already but I know that His grace will bring my through. As I wait upon my Lord and Saviour, He will renew my strength and I will soar on wings like eagles; run and not be weary; walk and never faint! A great God!



I really want to urge you friends to start building a intimate relationship with Him. It is really a rewarding relationship. It is one that not only promises love and blessings but also a fulfillment to the void that is crying out from the inside of you. It may be hard at first but trust me, go with the Word of God and it will be so, so much easier. Prayer is a way we talk to God and the Word of God is usually how God speaks to us! :) Stay strong and let's be like Paul... running strong in our own race of faith! God bless you all!!





"True love isn't just expressed in passionately whispered words or an intimate kiss or an embrace; before two people are married, love is expressed in self-control, patience, even words left unsaid."



"The joy of intimacy is a reward of commitment."



I Kissed Dating GOODBYE, Joshua Harris

It is going to be a GREAT 2005!

Ever since I entered into 2005, my walk with God has been growing sweeter and sweeter. His presence and grace were just indescribable. They were so REAL and everyday single day since the 1st of Jan, I felt like I was riding on a cloud where everything seemed so beautiful.

In my previous post, I shared that 2004 has not really been a really fantastic year for me. However, towards the end of 2004, the last few days to be exact, the LORD encouraged me every single day and as I read more of the Word, He began to bring to light a verse He wanted me to hold on to in 2005. The rehma word that God showed me is "But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you." (Mat 6:33). I have seen this verse very often and I have claimed upon it before. However, in the past, when I claimed upon the verse, it was not with much conviction but nonetheless faith was involved. Now that God has personallyshown me this verse, whenever I claimed it, it felt so different. There was joy and confidence to lead a life that is totally separated to Him. In the past, I did not really have the confidence to really give my all for Jesus but it feels so different now. Everyday, I am just more happy and indeed the "joy of the LORD is my strength!"

There are so much things I want to do this year after not so good 2004. However, when the LORD began to speak, He who is the DIRECTOR of my life, I know that there are certain things which need to be put on hold first. Mysteriously, I did not feel disappointedt or angry that I have to once again shelf my plans. The LORD indeed has given me the grace and strength to handle the things which He has for me. His grace is just so REAL. I really hope I will continue to focus on Him and not let the cares of this world pull me away. For I can only find true love and comfort in Him! He is indeed my SOURCE of COMFORT, WISDOM, STRENGTH and GRACE!

After attending last night service, my word was confirmed by Rev Kong Hee! Wow... it was just amazing! For the past week, I was still having some doubts about whether or not this is indeed the word but when I sat through the preaching, the presence of God just fell upon me. BAM! That was when I knew that God really wanted to me focus on Him this year and if I put Him first, He will bless my finances, relationships and my health! Pst Kong did not shared from Mat 6:33 but what he shared was the importance of putting Jesus as our foundation and he encouraged us to commit our life to prayer, the church, Word of God and to the Holy Spirit! God really work in a POWERFUL and CUTE way eh? Throughout the week, a friend also shared that we should really put God first in our ministry and life this year. In fact, God wants to use TIME to mould us and to really build us up into GREATER people, people who are more CHRIST-LIKE. What an interesting year that is ahead of me and I am really excited about it. Praise God for His faithfulness and most of all... for His love and grace that He showered over my life. I have never had such a good start to my year in the 23 years of my existence here on earth. I know that this year, 2005, will be one exciting ride with Him. I can forsee pitfalls already but I know that His grace will bring my through. As I wait upon my Lord and Saviour, He will renew my strength and I will soar on wings like eagles; run and not be weary; walk and never faint! A great God!

I really want to urge you friends to start building a intimate relationship with Him. It is really a rewarding relationship. It is one that not only promises love and blessings but also a fulfillment to the void that is crying out from the inside of you. It may be hard at first but trust me, go with the Word of God and it will be so, so much easier. Prayer is a way we talk to God and the Word of God is usually how God speaks to us! :) Stay strong and let's be like Paul... running strong in our own race of faith! God bless you all!!


"True love isn't just expressed in passionately whispered words or an intimate kiss or an embrace; before two people are married, love is expressed in self-control, patience, even words left unsaid."

"The joy of intimacy is a reward of commitment."

I Kissed Dating GOODBYE, Joshua Harris