Thursday, January 12, 2006

Season of Receiving!

Chinese New Year is just round the bend and it is another season of harvest. ;) For the benefit my American friends, Chinese New Year is time where the Chinese will visit each other's families. A pair of oranges will be presented to the host by the guests as a form of wishing the host good luck and prosperity. The married adults will also give red packets or what we, Chinese, call it, ANG BAO, to the non-marrieds in the family. This is the reason why I said that this i a season of harvest! Haha... we will be moving around from house to house to collect our LONG-AWAITING rewards! Haha... Just kidding! It is going to be a great time of gathering, where most of the family members will gather at one place to chat and to eat!

This year, it will, however, be a bit special. Our grandma's health is still not that good but we will still be celebrating this New Year with her. She will be at home and I believe that she will have a great time, despite her health. We will definitely make this a memorable one for her. We wanted to do it during Christmas but she was admitted to the hospital on the day when we wanted to celebrate for her. I believe that this time round, everything will go as plan. I am definitely looking forward to it.

I have been rather tied up lately with work. I have not been hitting the gym and running for a while. :( That's demoralizing because it is evident on my waist! This absence from gym and the running track is have adverse effects on my physique! Haha... man... if my dad's taxi has a flat tyre (not sure if this is the correct spelling for the rubber thingy that wraps around the metal wheel of a car), I would believe that I will be of much use! :) Haha...

I hate this state of me! I will certainly squeeze some time out the within the rest of the week and next to do some exercise. Oh! I registered for my company's aerobics kickboxing too! This will be my first aerobics class in my whole entire life! I am so excited! At last, I can throw some mean punches and get those kicks done without having to look stupid! :)

Be joyful always! Hopeful in ALL things! To have joy is not to seek for the source. Rather it is to delight in the whatever you are having NOW!

Season of Receiving!

Chinese New Year is just round the bend and it is another season of harvest. ;) For the benefit my American friends, Chinese New Year is time where the Chinese will visit each other's families. A pair of oranges will be presented to the host by the guests as a form of wishing the host good luck and prosperity. The married adults will also give red packets or what we, Chinese, call it, ANG BAO, to the non-marrieds in the family. This is the reason why I said that this i a season of harvest! Haha... we will be moving around from house to house to collect our LONG-AWAITING rewards! Haha... Just kidding! It is going to be a great time of gathering, where most of the family members will gather at one place to chat and to eat!

This year, it will, however, be a bit special. Our grandma's health is still not that good but we will still be celebrating this New Year with her. She will be at home and I believe that she will have a great time, despite her health. We will definitely make this a memorable one for her. We wanted to do it during Christmas but she was admitted to the hospital on the day when we wanted to celebrate for her. I believe that this time round, everything will go as plan. I am definitely looking forward to it.

I have been rather tied up lately with work. I have not been hitting the gym and running for a while. :( That's demoralizing because it is evident on my waist! This absence from gym and the running track is have adverse effects on my physique! Haha... man... if my dad's taxi has a flat tyre (not sure if this is the correct spelling for the rubber thingy that wraps around the metal wheel of a car), I would believe that I will be of much use! :) Haha...

I hate this state of me! I will certainly squeeze some time out the within the rest of the week and next to do some exercise. Oh! I registered for my company's aerobics kickboxing too! This will be my first aerobics class in my whole entire life! I am so excited! At last, I can throw some mean punches and get those kicks done without having to look stupid! :)

Be joyful always! Hopeful in ALL things! To have joy is not to seek for the source. Rather it is to delight in the whatever you are having NOW!

Thursday, January 05, 2006

Some reflections...

The first few days of the new year have been sweet! I even chanced upon my sister's blog. I never knew that she has one! I never even thought that she would start one! Ha! How wrong was I!? As I was reading her blog, I was deeply sadden to see how much she is suffering in her relationship. I posted some comments to encourage her and I really understand how she feels.

Like her, I guess we are both extremely emotional creatures. I understand that everyone has emotions. Ours, however, are abit more intense and hard to shake off. If it goes to the extreme, we will even become very insecure and negatives thoughts will eventually enter our minds. I have always wonder why I am so emotional... Why can't I be like some others, who do not have to go through these emotional turmoils. Some people tend to take things so easily. Yes, you may say that they are positive and all. I am too! =) In fact, I have been exercising that too! However, emotions are still there to bother me! I chose to ignore it but the thoughts kept barraging! I remained positive and tried to deflect them. In the end, the constant barraging will just overwhelm me.

I guess I should not be focusing on the fact that I am emotional. I should, instead, focus on how to deal or prevent these negative thoughts from getting near to me. I am still clueless. Whenever I am overwhelmed, I would turn to God. Apart from Him, I really do not know who to turn to. He never fails! Whenever I am defeated, He would take away the pain and at times, He would make me forget about why I became so emotional! Ha... There are even times when I tried to recall because I just want to wallow in my own misery and really have a good cry over it, but it was too hard... the memories just could not be found!

I am currently learning how to start leaning on God not only at the moment of defeat but at the moment of attack. He is my Shelter, my Refuge my Portion forever! I am hopeful, like always, that I will be strong. I hate myself for being so emotional but I do also accept me for who I am!

Negative emotions are killers! They can really bring you to places so dark that you cannot even find any hope. Nevertheless, there is hope! God is my hope and my source of strength. I have been through these emotional patches or dark valleys so many times that I have learnt how to look for Him and where to look for Him whenever I am in it. Never once had He failed to deliver me. It may not be immediately at times but I am always grateful that for the wretched man that I am, He always come true for me! Praise God!

I am definitely not looking forward to these emotional roller-coasters but if they do come, I will face them HEAD ON, with my shielf of faith and my sword of the Spirit!

Lord, I pray for strength when emotions hit me! I know that you, being the Almighty God, is able to bring me out of rugs and that Your love will fill me when I am in need of it! Lord, I also want to pray for my sister. Though, she has not really proclaim You her personal Savior, I prayed that, being the Merciful God, You will lift her up and refresh her soul. Enlighten her about Your love and Your everlasting desire to want us back in Your arms, happy. Thank you Lord for Your love and your strength!

Some reflections...

The first few days of the new year have been sweet! I even chanced upon my sister's blog. I never knew that she has one! I never even thought that she would start one! Ha! How wrong was I!? As I was reading her blog, I was deeply sadden to see how much she is suffering in her relationship. I posted some comments to encourage her and I really understand how she feels.

Like her, I guess we are both extremely emotional creatures. I understand that everyone has emotions. Ours, however, are abit more intense and hard to shake off. If it goes to the extreme, we will even become very insecure and negatives thoughts will eventually enter our minds. I have always wonder why I am so emotional... Why can't I be like some others, who do not have to go through these emotional turmoils. Some people tend to take things so easily. Yes, you may say that they are positive and all. I am too! =) In fact, I have been exercising that too! However, emotions are still there to bother me! I chose to ignore it but the thoughts kept barraging! I remained positive and tried to deflect them. In the end, the constant barraging will just overwhelm me.

I guess I should not be focusing on the fact that I am emotional. I should, instead, focus on how to deal or prevent these negative thoughts from getting near to me. I am still clueless. Whenever I am overwhelmed, I would turn to God. Apart from Him, I really do not know who to turn to. He never fails! Whenever I am defeated, He would take away the pain and at times, He would make me forget about why I became so emotional! Ha... There are even times when I tried to recall because I just want to wallow in my own misery and really have a good cry over it, but it was too hard... the memories just could not be found!

I am currently learning how to start leaning on God not only at the moment of defeat but at the moment of attack. He is my Shelter, my Refuge my Portion forever! I am hopeful, like always, that I will be strong. I hate myself for being so emotional but I do also accept me for who I am!

Negative emotions are killers! They can really bring you to places so dark that you cannot even find any hope. Nevertheless, there is hope! God is my hope and my source of strength. I have been through these emotional patches or dark valleys so many times that I have learnt how to look for Him and where to look for Him whenever I am in it. Never once had He failed to deliver me. It may not be immediately at times but I am always grateful that for the wretched man that I am, He always come true for me! Praise God!

I am definitely not looking forward to these emotional roller-coasters but if they do come, I will face them HEAD ON, with my shielf of faith and my sword of the Spirit!

Lord, I pray for strength when emotions hit me! I know that you, being the Almighty God, is able to bring me out of rugs and that Your love will fill me when I am in need of it! Lord, I also want to pray for my sister. Though, she has not really proclaim You her personal Savior, I prayed that, being the Merciful God, You will lift her up and refresh her soul. Enlighten her about Your love and Your everlasting desire to want us back in Your arms, happy. Thank you Lord for Your love and your strength!