Today is the third time I am watching this touching and heart-warming movie, "A Walk to Remember" in the week. I must admit that it will always move me to tears... no matter how many times I have seen it... It is so good that this has kind of been an alternative medicine for my soul... when all things fail... when I am downcast or sad... I will indulge myself into this story... And whenever I do that... love becomes so tangible and real...
Some unforgettable scenes -
Landon reading off a book of quotes that Jamie gave to him when she was in the hospital:
"Love is always patient and kind.
It is never jealous.
Love is never boastful or conceited.
It is never rude or selfish,
it does not take offence, it is not resentful."
Jamie speaking to Landon after he read the quote above:
"Maybe God has a bigger plan for me than I have for myself..."
"... like this journey never ends"
"...like you're sent to me because I am sick, to help me through all these...."
(short pause, Jamie feeling Landon's hand that is on her face)
"... You're my angel!"
(Landon leaned forward to kiss Jamie)
Landon's thoughts as he was walking down a bridge, reminscing on what Jamie had done for him:
"Jamie saved my life. She taught me everything... about life, hope and a long journey ahead. I'll always miss her. But her love is like the wind. I can't see it but I can feel it."
One of the scenes that made me wept like a baby was when Landon, after knowing that his dad had paid for private home care for Jamie, went to look for his dad. He knocked... waiting for his dad to open the door. He has always hated his dad for leaving his family.
Then his dad opened the door... seeing Landon standing there, with his eyes welling up with tears. His dad moved forward and opened up his arms to hug him. Landon broke down the moment his dad embraced him in his arms.
This is love at its purest... from both parties. His dad helped Jamie, Landon's girlfriend, even when Landon was mean towards him... angry at him for leaving his mum and him. Landon, despite his hatred for his dad, thanked him from the bottom of his heart and he even broke down in front of him. This is love... this movie is filled with love, peace and joy, even when Jamie had to die.
I am searching for this pure love and I know that for me to have this kind of pure love, I have to act in the same way... It is movie like this that really touches and rekindled the pure love that is inside one's heart. How this love is so different from the love we experience daily in our love. Ah.... it is just so refreshing to my soul, even when I am just relating and writing this to you....
Wednesday, June 29, 2005
Wednesday, June 22, 2005
Only Faith?
I finished reading Da Vinci Code by Dan Brown yesterday and though it was a compelling book, which made me turn from one page to the next like a nicotine addict, I felt that it is one twisted book... with apparently one intention... that is to distort one's view on the Church. I am not really talking about the Catholic Church or any particular denominations but the Church in a whole. It really worries me when non-believers or those who do not check on the "truths" pick the book off the shelf and read it. In fact, a lot of people actually believe in what the book says even though it is known as a FICTION! How ironic! The Bible is not labelled as a FICTION but those who accept the Da Vinci Code cannot seem to accept the real truths that are in the Bible.
Dan Brown proclaimed on his website that he is a Christian but I really have doubts. A Christian should be one who glorifies Jesus and not bring controversies upon Him. In this book, he is selling the idea that Jesus was married to Mary Magdelene! On top of that, he made the Church look like a organisation that is so blinded that she has to lie, kill and destroy just to hold on to her belief and traditions. Anyway, he may have his views and I respect that. In any case, all is not lost! People may get curious as to if all that were said in the book are true. They may want to dig... searching for the proof on the views. However, I pray that in doing so, they will be brought before the Light, the real Truth. You never know! All things will work out well for those who love Him. I love Him and I pray that many people, in one way or another, will be led to the light!
While I was reading the book, a few things struck me. I realised that our mind is so powerful. We can really make something, which is false into something real. Everyone actions and thoughts can be justified by our minds if we really want to! It also made me realised another powerful truth! I can now say that Christianity is not totally based on FAITH! That's right... you heard me right! Faith is not really all there is in Christinity!
I was thinking one night, after reading that book. Is faith the only thing that made us believe that there is a God and that God is Jesus... Muslims have faith too! Buddists have faith but what differentiate mine with theirs?!?! There is only ONE thing! That thing, just like faith, cannot be bought, neither can it be shared just by a word of mouth! The other power ingredient that really bring us close to our God and allow us to trust in Him eventhough He is invisible is our ENCOUNTER(S)!
These encounters, especially the one that I have shared here in the past, really made me held onto Him during my darkest moments! I do not believe that before tasting a well cooked chicken, you can CONFIDENTLY say that it taste great! Why would someone first give up his/her life to Jesus if they cannot feel His tangible presence. Therefore, this feeling of His tangible presence is an ENCOUNTER too! That is why, no matter how people try to talk me out of my belief, or should I say relationship with Jesus, I will not budge! He is too real to be fake! How can I after touching my hand say that my hand is not there? It will such an irony!
Dear friends, I do really hope that you will hold on the encounter(s) you had with Jesus closely to your heart! When the times get tough, it will be your faith and these encounter(s) that will really keep you together! It is there and then that you know that He is too real for you to forsake or give up! You will never think that you are alone even if your mind tells you otherwise!
A short story.....
I was lost in a case... hungry and cold! I felt so lonely. Darkness encompassed me wherever I went... it just seemed like I am going to be swallowed by it if I do try to do something about it soon. I had no one to turn to. I was alone... with no guiding post, no light, no friends... NOTHING! What could I do.
Suddenly, something touched my hand. A voice followed. 'Son, hold on to me and I will lead you out of this cave.' I was shocked! Have I encountered a ghost? What can that be? However, I did not feel scare or uneasy. Instead, a rush of love and peace came upon my heart. I sensed that the 'thing' is not hostile. He/It was really trying to help me. I called out. 'Who are you? Why are you helping me?'
Silence crept in. Suddenly, a soothing, gentle familiar voice answered, 'I created you and you walked yourself straight into darkness.'
The voice cracked. He continued, 'I was searching for you and now, I have found you! I really love you! Will you let me help you get out from this darkness'
My heart melted... Someone in this world actually loved me to the extent that He is willling to come into my darkness to look for me! I was hesitant at first. However, due to the overwhelming love and peace, I decided to reach out for His hand. To my surprise, I felt His hands on mine the moment I started to reach out! We walked... I did not know Him. I have heard His voice, felt His hand. That's all! We continued walking. Darkness was still around. However, I knew that He is harmless and I continued to put my trust on Him. I had faith that He would indeed lead me out!
Twenty minutes passed... When things was getting no better and when my strength to hold on to His hand started to fade, He squeezed into my hands and gripped it even tighter. All of a sudden, something happened. I felt a sharp pain in my eyes... Gently, I lifted my head... THERE IT WAS... a light at the end of the tunnel! He was not lying! He is really leading me out of this darkness!
Now... three years after my incident in the cave, He is still by my guide. Everytime when He asked me to take His hand, I will obediently put mine on His and follow His leading. I will never forget the encounter I had with Him in the cave. It was there that I had the first and most beautiful encounter of His presence, no else or nothing in this world could give! My encounter made me know that He really love me and He is not a imagination! He is REAL. He led me out! He guided me; He helped me and held on to me tightly when I was weak!
Ps 119:173-176
"Let Your hand become my help,
For I have chosen Your precepts.
I long for Your salvation,
O LORD,And Your law is my delight.
Let my soul live, and it shall praise You;
And let Your judgments help me.
I have gone astray like a lost sheep;
Seek Your servant,
For I do not forget Your commandments."
Dan Brown proclaimed on his website that he is a Christian but I really have doubts. A Christian should be one who glorifies Jesus and not bring controversies upon Him. In this book, he is selling the idea that Jesus was married to Mary Magdelene! On top of that, he made the Church look like a organisation that is so blinded that she has to lie, kill and destroy just to hold on to her belief and traditions. Anyway, he may have his views and I respect that. In any case, all is not lost! People may get curious as to if all that were said in the book are true. They may want to dig... searching for the proof on the views. However, I pray that in doing so, they will be brought before the Light, the real Truth. You never know! All things will work out well for those who love Him. I love Him and I pray that many people, in one way or another, will be led to the light!
While I was reading the book, a few things struck me. I realised that our mind is so powerful. We can really make something, which is false into something real. Everyone actions and thoughts can be justified by our minds if we really want to! It also made me realised another powerful truth! I can now say that Christianity is not totally based on FAITH! That's right... you heard me right! Faith is not really all there is in Christinity!
I was thinking one night, after reading that book. Is faith the only thing that made us believe that there is a God and that God is Jesus... Muslims have faith too! Buddists have faith but what differentiate mine with theirs?!?! There is only ONE thing! That thing, just like faith, cannot be bought, neither can it be shared just by a word of mouth! The other power ingredient that really bring us close to our God and allow us to trust in Him eventhough He is invisible is our ENCOUNTER(S)!
These encounters, especially the one that I have shared here in the past, really made me held onto Him during my darkest moments! I do not believe that before tasting a well cooked chicken, you can CONFIDENTLY say that it taste great! Why would someone first give up his/her life to Jesus if they cannot feel His tangible presence. Therefore, this feeling of His tangible presence is an ENCOUNTER too! That is why, no matter how people try to talk me out of my belief, or should I say relationship with Jesus, I will not budge! He is too real to be fake! How can I after touching my hand say that my hand is not there? It will such an irony!
Dear friends, I do really hope that you will hold on the encounter(s) you had with Jesus closely to your heart! When the times get tough, it will be your faith and these encounter(s) that will really keep you together! It is there and then that you know that He is too real for you to forsake or give up! You will never think that you are alone even if your mind tells you otherwise!
A short story.....
I was lost in a case... hungry and cold! I felt so lonely. Darkness encompassed me wherever I went... it just seemed like I am going to be swallowed by it if I do try to do something about it soon. I had no one to turn to. I was alone... with no guiding post, no light, no friends... NOTHING! What could I do.
Suddenly, something touched my hand. A voice followed. 'Son, hold on to me and I will lead you out of this cave.' I was shocked! Have I encountered a ghost? What can that be? However, I did not feel scare or uneasy. Instead, a rush of love and peace came upon my heart. I sensed that the 'thing' is not hostile. He/It was really trying to help me. I called out. 'Who are you? Why are you helping me?'
Silence crept in. Suddenly, a soothing, gentle familiar voice answered, 'I created you and you walked yourself straight into darkness.'
The voice cracked. He continued, 'I was searching for you and now, I have found you! I really love you! Will you let me help you get out from this darkness'
My heart melted... Someone in this world actually loved me to the extent that He is willling to come into my darkness to look for me! I was hesitant at first. However, due to the overwhelming love and peace, I decided to reach out for His hand. To my surprise, I felt His hands on mine the moment I started to reach out! We walked... I did not know Him. I have heard His voice, felt His hand. That's all! We continued walking. Darkness was still around. However, I knew that He is harmless and I continued to put my trust on Him. I had faith that He would indeed lead me out!
Twenty minutes passed... When things was getting no better and when my strength to hold on to His hand started to fade, He squeezed into my hands and gripped it even tighter. All of a sudden, something happened. I felt a sharp pain in my eyes... Gently, I lifted my head... THERE IT WAS... a light at the end of the tunnel! He was not lying! He is really leading me out of this darkness!
Now... three years after my incident in the cave, He is still by my guide. Everytime when He asked me to take His hand, I will obediently put mine on His and follow His leading. I will never forget the encounter I had with Him in the cave. It was there that I had the first and most beautiful encounter of His presence, no else or nothing in this world could give! My encounter made me know that He really love me and He is not a imagination! He is REAL. He led me out! He guided me; He helped me and held on to me tightly when I was weak!
Ps 119:173-176
"Let Your hand become my help,
For I have chosen Your precepts.
I long for Your salvation,
O LORD,And Your law is my delight.
Let my soul live, and it shall praise You;
And let Your judgments help me.
I have gone astray like a lost sheep;
Seek Your servant,
For I do not forget Your commandments."
Only Faith?
I finished reading Da Vinci Code by Dan Brown yesterday and though it was a compelling book, which made me turn from one page to the next like a nicotine addict, I felt that it is one twisted book... with apparently one intention... that is to distort one's view on the Church. I am not really talking about the Catholic Church or any particular denominations but the Church in a whole. It really worries me when non-believers or those who do not check on the "truths" pick the book off the shelf and read it. In fact, a lot of people actually believe in what the book says even though it is known as a FICTION! How ironic! The Bible is not labelled as a FICTION but those who accept the Da Vinci Code cannot seem to accept the real truths that are in the Bible.
Dan Brown proclaimed on his website that he is a Christian but I really have doubts. A Christian should be one who glorifies Jesus and not bring controversies upon Him. In this book, he is selling the idea that Jesus was married to Mary Magdelene! On top of that, he made the Church look like a organisation that is so blinded that she has to lie, kill and destroy just to hold on to her belief and traditions. Anyway, he may have his views and I respect that. In any case, all is not lost! People may get curious as to if all that were said in the book are true. They may want to dig... searching for the proof on the views. However, I pray that in doing so, they will be brought before the Light, the real Truth. You never know! All things will work out well for those who love Him. I love Him and I pray that many people, in one way or another, will be led to the light!
While I was reading the book, a few things struck me. I realised that our mind is so powerful. We can really make something, which is false into something real. Everyone actions and thoughts can be justified by our minds if we really want to! It also made me realised another powerful truth! I can now say that Christianity is not totally based on FAITH! That's right... you heard me right! Faith is not really all there is in Christinity!
I was thinking one night, after reading that book. Is faith the only thing that made us believe that there is a God and that God is Jesus... Muslims have faith too! Buddists have faith but what differentiate mine with theirs?!?! There is only ONE thing! That thing, just like faith, cannot be bought, neither can it be shared just by a word of mouth! The other power ingredient that really bring us close to our God and allow us to trust in Him eventhough He is invisible is our ENCOUNTER(S)!
These encounters, especially the one that I have shared here in the past, really made me held onto Him during my darkest moments! I do not believe that before tasting a well cooked chicken, you can CONFIDENTLY say that it taste great! Why would someone first give up his/her life to Jesus if they cannot feel His tangible presence. Therefore, this feeling of His tangible presence is an ENCOUNTER too! That is why, no matter how people try to talk me out of my belief, or should I say relationship with Jesus, I will not budge! He is too real to be fake! How can I after touching my hand say that my hand is not there? It will such an irony!
Dear friends, I do really hope that you will hold on the encounter(s) you had with Jesus closely to your heart! When the times get tough, it will be your faith and these encounter(s) that will really keep you together! It is there and then that you know that He is too real for you to forsake or give up! You will never think that you are alone even if your mind tells you otherwise!
A short story.....
I was lost in a case... hungry and cold! I felt so lonely. Darkness encompassed me wherever I went... it just seemed like I am going to be swallowed by it if I do try to do something about it soon. I had no one to turn to. I was alone... with no guiding post, no light, no friends... NOTHING! What could I do.
Suddenly, something touched my hand. A voice followed. 'Son, hold on to me and I will lead you out of this cave.' I was shocked! Have I encountered a ghost? What can that be? However, I did not feel scare or uneasy. Instead, a rush of love and peace came upon my heart. I sensed that the 'thing' is not hostile. He/It was really trying to help me. I called out. 'Who are you? Why are you helping me?'
Silence crept in. Suddenly, a soothing, gentle familiar voice answered, 'I created you and you walked yourself straight into darkness.'
The voice cracked. He continued, 'I was searching for you and now, I have found you! I really love you! Will you let me help you get out from this darkness'
My heart melted... Someone in this world actually loved me to the extent that He is willling to come into my darkness to look for me! I was hesitant at first. However, due to the overwhelming love and peace, I decided to reach out for His hand. To my surprise, I felt His hands on mine the moment I started to reach out! We walked... I did not know Him. I have heard His voice, felt His hand. That's all! We continued walking. Darkness was still around. However, I knew that He is harmless and I continued to put my trust on Him. I had faith that He would indeed lead me out!
Twenty minutes passed... When things was getting no better and when my strength to hold on to His hand started to fade, He squeezed into my hands and gripped it even tighter. All of a sudden, something happened. I felt a sharp pain in my eyes... Gently, I lifted my head... THERE IT WAS... a light at the end of the tunnel! He was not lying! He is really leading me out of this darkness!
Now... three years after my incident in the cave, He is still by my guide. Everytime when He asked me to take His hand, I will obediently put mine on His and follow His leading. I will never forget the encounter I had with Him in the cave. It was there that I had the first and most beautiful encounter of His presence, no else or nothing in this world could give! My encounter made me know that He really love me and He is not a imagination! He is REAL. He led me out! He guided me; He helped me and held on to me tightly when I was weak!
Ps 119:173-176
"Let Your hand become my help,
For I have chosen Your precepts.
I long for Your salvation,
O LORD,And Your law is my delight.
Let my soul live, and it shall praise You;
And let Your judgments help me.
I have gone astray like a lost sheep;
Seek Your servant,
For I do not forget Your commandments."
Dan Brown proclaimed on his website that he is a Christian but I really have doubts. A Christian should be one who glorifies Jesus and not bring controversies upon Him. In this book, he is selling the idea that Jesus was married to Mary Magdelene! On top of that, he made the Church look like a organisation that is so blinded that she has to lie, kill and destroy just to hold on to her belief and traditions. Anyway, he may have his views and I respect that. In any case, all is not lost! People may get curious as to if all that were said in the book are true. They may want to dig... searching for the proof on the views. However, I pray that in doing so, they will be brought before the Light, the real Truth. You never know! All things will work out well for those who love Him. I love Him and I pray that many people, in one way or another, will be led to the light!
While I was reading the book, a few things struck me. I realised that our mind is so powerful. We can really make something, which is false into something real. Everyone actions and thoughts can be justified by our minds if we really want to! It also made me realised another powerful truth! I can now say that Christianity is not totally based on FAITH! That's right... you heard me right! Faith is not really all there is in Christinity!
I was thinking one night, after reading that book. Is faith the only thing that made us believe that there is a God and that God is Jesus... Muslims have faith too! Buddists have faith but what differentiate mine with theirs?!?! There is only ONE thing! That thing, just like faith, cannot be bought, neither can it be shared just by a word of mouth! The other power ingredient that really bring us close to our God and allow us to trust in Him eventhough He is invisible is our ENCOUNTER(S)!
These encounters, especially the one that I have shared here in the past, really made me held onto Him during my darkest moments! I do not believe that before tasting a well cooked chicken, you can CONFIDENTLY say that it taste great! Why would someone first give up his/her life to Jesus if they cannot feel His tangible presence. Therefore, this feeling of His tangible presence is an ENCOUNTER too! That is why, no matter how people try to talk me out of my belief, or should I say relationship with Jesus, I will not budge! He is too real to be fake! How can I after touching my hand say that my hand is not there? It will such an irony!
Dear friends, I do really hope that you will hold on the encounter(s) you had with Jesus closely to your heart! When the times get tough, it will be your faith and these encounter(s) that will really keep you together! It is there and then that you know that He is too real for you to forsake or give up! You will never think that you are alone even if your mind tells you otherwise!
A short story.....
I was lost in a case... hungry and cold! I felt so lonely. Darkness encompassed me wherever I went... it just seemed like I am going to be swallowed by it if I do try to do something about it soon. I had no one to turn to. I was alone... with no guiding post, no light, no friends... NOTHING! What could I do.
Suddenly, something touched my hand. A voice followed. 'Son, hold on to me and I will lead you out of this cave.' I was shocked! Have I encountered a ghost? What can that be? However, I did not feel scare or uneasy. Instead, a rush of love and peace came upon my heart. I sensed that the 'thing' is not hostile. He/It was really trying to help me. I called out. 'Who are you? Why are you helping me?'
Silence crept in. Suddenly, a soothing, gentle familiar voice answered, 'I created you and you walked yourself straight into darkness.'
The voice cracked. He continued, 'I was searching for you and now, I have found you! I really love you! Will you let me help you get out from this darkness'
My heart melted... Someone in this world actually loved me to the extent that He is willling to come into my darkness to look for me! I was hesitant at first. However, due to the overwhelming love and peace, I decided to reach out for His hand. To my surprise, I felt His hands on mine the moment I started to reach out! We walked... I did not know Him. I have heard His voice, felt His hand. That's all! We continued walking. Darkness was still around. However, I knew that He is harmless and I continued to put my trust on Him. I had faith that He would indeed lead me out!
Twenty minutes passed... When things was getting no better and when my strength to hold on to His hand started to fade, He squeezed into my hands and gripped it even tighter. All of a sudden, something happened. I felt a sharp pain in my eyes... Gently, I lifted my head... THERE IT WAS... a light at the end of the tunnel! He was not lying! He is really leading me out of this darkness!
Now... three years after my incident in the cave, He is still by my guide. Everytime when He asked me to take His hand, I will obediently put mine on His and follow His leading. I will never forget the encounter I had with Him in the cave. It was there that I had the first and most beautiful encounter of His presence, no else or nothing in this world could give! My encounter made me know that He really love me and He is not a imagination! He is REAL. He led me out! He guided me; He helped me and held on to me tightly when I was weak!
Ps 119:173-176
"Let Your hand become my help,
For I have chosen Your precepts.
I long for Your salvation,
O LORD,And Your law is my delight.
Let my soul live, and it shall praise You;
And let Your judgments help me.
I have gone astray like a lost sheep;
Seek Your servant,
For I do not forget Your commandments."
Sunday, June 19, 2005
SHOCKED!
I just found out that my brother has not been attending church for the past few weeks... It really saddened me when I first heard from him about it... I really pray that I can be a light in my family... My dream will be to be able to impact and touch each and everyone of them... It will be an uphill task but I am sure that I can do it! Revival of DREAM!
It can be so easy for to fall away... even after we have ate of the good fruit! I really pray that God will preserve my spirit and my fire! I can really sense His heart beating in me... His love for me... His tears when I let Him down and His call when I am far... I do not want to harden myself to the state where I cannot love Him anymore.... I want to LOVE HIM FOREVER... Beloved LORD, please keep me in Your ARMS...
Something from my heart, written with my head:
The One I love is You.
For when I was still lost,
You chose to love me.
And when I was rotting,
You cleanse and watered me.
Then I came to You...
The day you touched my heart,
My spirit was birthed,
With new fire, burning hot,
A passion, that is hard to stop!
A new journey, which then I embarked.
One that is filled with mysteries...
that my mind cannot fathom or understand...
One that is full of battles...
with losses and victories...
Then joy may fizzle away;
a smile that turned upside down,
But then a love,
A wondrous love from an invisible force
started to fill me; it started to invade my heart...
It became so real that I cried.
I am so touched and I began to thank Him.
I thank Him for giving me a heart,
one that can sense this love!
A love that encourages me when I am defeated;
A love that revives me when I thought I am dead;
A love that consoles me when my days became nights;
A love that empowers me when battles became overwhelming;
A love so strong, a love so selfless, a love so sweet,
One that I cannot reject...
It just kept coming, rushing into me...
My spirit, my heart... my soul...
MY TOTAL BEING...
I am just an empty shell without it...
It is more important that the blood that is running in me...
Nothing else can fuel my passion to live apart from it...
I love this LOVE,
A LOVE from the most selfless person on this EARTH!
He saved me, He pull me out...
PLEASE HOLD ON TO ME;
POUR MORE OF YOUR LOVE INTO ME;
TOUCH ME AND EMBRACE ME...
I WANT TO BE IN YOUR ARMS ALWAYS!
I LOVE YOU, MY LORD, MY ALL!
It can be so easy for to fall away... even after we have ate of the good fruit! I really pray that God will preserve my spirit and my fire! I can really sense His heart beating in me... His love for me... His tears when I let Him down and His call when I am far... I do not want to harden myself to the state where I cannot love Him anymore.... I want to LOVE HIM FOREVER... Beloved LORD, please keep me in Your ARMS...
Something from my heart, written with my head:
The One I love is You.
For when I was still lost,
You chose to love me.
And when I was rotting,
You cleanse and watered me.
Then I came to You...
The day you touched my heart,
My spirit was birthed,
With new fire, burning hot,
A passion, that is hard to stop!
A new journey, which then I embarked.
One that is filled with mysteries...
that my mind cannot fathom or understand...
One that is full of battles...
with losses and victories...
Then joy may fizzle away;
a smile that turned upside down,
But then a love,
A wondrous love from an invisible force
started to fill me; it started to invade my heart...
It became so real that I cried.
I am so touched and I began to thank Him.
I thank Him for giving me a heart,
one that can sense this love!
A love that encourages me when I am defeated;
A love that revives me when I thought I am dead;
A love that consoles me when my days became nights;
A love that empowers me when battles became overwhelming;
A love so strong, a love so selfless, a love so sweet,
One that I cannot reject...
It just kept coming, rushing into me...
My spirit, my heart... my soul...
MY TOTAL BEING...
I am just an empty shell without it...
It is more important that the blood that is running in me...
Nothing else can fuel my passion to live apart from it...
I love this LOVE,
A LOVE from the most selfless person on this EARTH!
He saved me, He pull me out...
PLEASE HOLD ON TO ME;
POUR MORE OF YOUR LOVE INTO ME;
TOUCH ME AND EMBRACE ME...
I WANT TO BE IN YOUR ARMS ALWAYS!
I LOVE YOU, MY LORD, MY ALL!
SHOCKED!
I just found out that my brother has not been attending church for the past few weeks... It really saddened me when I first heard from him about it... I really pray that I can be a light in my family... My dream will be to be able to impact and touch each and everyone of them... It will be an uphill task but I am sure that I can do it! Revival of DREAM!
It can be so easy for to fall away... even after we have ate of the good fruit! I really pray that God will preserve my spirit and my fire! I can really sense His heart beating in me... His love for me... His tears when I let Him down and His call when I am far... I do not want to harden myself to the state where I cannot love Him anymore.... I want to LOVE HIM FOREVER... Beloved LORD, please keep me in Your ARMS...
Something from my heart, written with my head:
The One I love is You.
For when I was still lost,
You chose to love me.
And when I was rotting,
You cleanse and watered me.
Then I came to You...
The day you touched my heart,
My spirit was birthed,
With new fire, burning hot,
A passion, that is hard to stop!
A new journey, which then I embarked.
One that is filled with mysteries...
that my mind cannot fathom or understand...
One that is full of battles...
with losses and victories...
Then joy may fizzle away;
a smile that turned upside down,
But then a love,
A wondrous love from an invisible force
started to fill me; it started to invade my heart...
It became so real that I cried.
I am so touched and I began to thank Him.
I thank Him for giving me a heart,
one that can sense this love!
A love that encourages me when I am defeated;
A love that revives me when I thought I am dead;
A love that consoles me when my days became nights;
A love that empowers me when battles became overwhelming;
A love so strong, a love so selfless, a love so sweet,
One that I cannot reject...
It just kept coming, rushing into me...
My spirit, my heart... my soul...
MY TOTAL BEING...
I am just an empty shell without it...
It is more important that the blood that is running in me...
Nothing else can fuel my passion to live apart from it...
I love this LOVE,
A LOVE from the most selfless person on this EARTH!
He saved me, He pull me out...
PLEASE HOLD ON TO ME;
POUR MORE OF YOUR LOVE INTO ME;
TOUCH ME AND EMBRACE ME...
I WANT TO BE IN YOUR ARMS ALWAYS!
I LOVE YOU, MY LORD, MY ALL!
It can be so easy for to fall away... even after we have ate of the good fruit! I really pray that God will preserve my spirit and my fire! I can really sense His heart beating in me... His love for me... His tears when I let Him down and His call when I am far... I do not want to harden myself to the state where I cannot love Him anymore.... I want to LOVE HIM FOREVER... Beloved LORD, please keep me in Your ARMS...
Something from my heart, written with my head:
The One I love is You.
For when I was still lost,
You chose to love me.
And when I was rotting,
You cleanse and watered me.
Then I came to You...
The day you touched my heart,
My spirit was birthed,
With new fire, burning hot,
A passion, that is hard to stop!
A new journey, which then I embarked.
One that is filled with mysteries...
that my mind cannot fathom or understand...
One that is full of battles...
with losses and victories...
Then joy may fizzle away;
a smile that turned upside down,
But then a love,
A wondrous love from an invisible force
started to fill me; it started to invade my heart...
It became so real that I cried.
I am so touched and I began to thank Him.
I thank Him for giving me a heart,
one that can sense this love!
A love that encourages me when I am defeated;
A love that revives me when I thought I am dead;
A love that consoles me when my days became nights;
A love that empowers me when battles became overwhelming;
A love so strong, a love so selfless, a love so sweet,
One that I cannot reject...
It just kept coming, rushing into me...
My spirit, my heart... my soul...
MY TOTAL BEING...
I am just an empty shell without it...
It is more important that the blood that is running in me...
Nothing else can fuel my passion to live apart from it...
I love this LOVE,
A LOVE from the most selfless person on this EARTH!
He saved me, He pull me out...
PLEASE HOLD ON TO ME;
POUR MORE OF YOUR LOVE INTO ME;
TOUCH ME AND EMBRACE ME...
I WANT TO BE IN YOUR ARMS ALWAYS!
I LOVE YOU, MY LORD, MY ALL!
Friday, June 17, 2005
I'M BACK!
Just got back from youth camp... WOW! Really had a tremendous time! Hearts were touched... people cried! NOW, Legs areaching, brain is melting down... therefore, I shall share more within the next few day. At this current moment, I am going to indulge in a good hot bath and a beautiful adventure in my mystical dreamland! ZzzZZzz......
I'M BACK!
Just got back from youth camp... WOW! Really had a tremendous time! Hearts were touched... people cried! NOW, Legs areaching, brain is melting down... therefore, I shall share more within the next few day. At this current moment, I am going to indulge in a good hot bath and a beautiful adventure in my mystical dreamland! ZzzZZzz......
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
Back to School... :)
Wow... I have to admit that I am very blessed to see so many people pouring their affection, care and concern over me for the past week or so! The road was indeed long and bumpy... but I have to thank God that I am still here... praising His name; confessing on His goodness. Friends at work, friends from church and even Jesus and the Holy Spirit... came and stood in the gaps for me during this bumpy period in life. Life is always challenging, never disheartening because of the encouraging and helping hands around me! Once again, THANK YOU. To those whom I don't even know or those whom I cannot figure out from their nicks, I thank you for your encouragement!
I just got back from a meeting! A wonderful meeting for a wonderful event! I am going away for two days... for A GOOD CAUSE! I will be helping out in CHCSA's youth camp, which will be from thursday to friday. It used to be 3 days but due the sheer voume of activities during this past few months and weeks, it will be 2 instead this round. I can still remember the last camp that I went for. I was given a honor... to be a leader of a group. I have to say that I was tremendously blessed... to see how the youth there were impacted... how touched they were! It was simply AWESOME! I thought I was there to bless... but I never thought that the blessings that I got from the camp can be far greater than the amount of blessings which I had given out. God is scary in a good sense! Hahaha... always overflowing, even in experiences and emotions!
I believe that this upcoming 2 days youth camp, which will be held in a secondary school, is going to be another resounding success! Once again, it a gruelling time- late night, bone-breaking activities (Due to the fact that I have not be exercising regularly), first time interactions, etc- but I know that God is going to be so real in these 2 days! I just cannot wait to get into the middle of all these fun! To be honest, I am REALLY tired now... have to wake up at 530am tomorrow morning because we have to reach Bedok at 7am! I have not pack, bath, etc... I just so excited with the fact that I can work with a great team of people again, Bro Mingjin, Sis Daryl, etc. This is my fourth youth camp! I have to admit that from the first youth camp up till the last one, it has been from GLORY to GLORY! I really cannot imagine the wonderful time I am going to have in a few hours time! We will be having around a 100 campers, highest ever compared to the previous few camps that averages around 20-30 youths, this time round and I pray that everyone of them will turn up. The whole event will end late on friday, thus I will be missing my first friday service in a long while... haha... going to be out of my comfort zone this weekend!
Going to prepare and bath now! God bless and continue to pray for strength to be upon me. God can indeed use the weak... He used and is going to use me tomorrow to touch the lifes of the students!! God bless!
Ps 47:6
"Sing praises to God, sing praises! Sing praises to our King, sing praises!"
I just got back from a meeting! A wonderful meeting for a wonderful event! I am going away for two days... for A GOOD CAUSE! I will be helping out in CHCSA's youth camp, which will be from thursday to friday. It used to be 3 days but due the sheer voume of activities during this past few months and weeks, it will be 2 instead this round. I can still remember the last camp that I went for. I was given a honor... to be a leader of a group. I have to say that I was tremendously blessed... to see how the youth there were impacted... how touched they were! It was simply AWESOME! I thought I was there to bless... but I never thought that the blessings that I got from the camp can be far greater than the amount of blessings which I had given out. God is scary in a good sense! Hahaha... always overflowing, even in experiences and emotions!
I believe that this upcoming 2 days youth camp, which will be held in a secondary school, is going to be another resounding success! Once again, it a gruelling time- late night, bone-breaking activities (Due to the fact that I have not be exercising regularly), first time interactions, etc- but I know that God is going to be so real in these 2 days! I just cannot wait to get into the middle of all these fun! To be honest, I am REALLY tired now... have to wake up at 530am tomorrow morning because we have to reach Bedok at 7am! I have not pack, bath, etc... I just so excited with the fact that I can work with a great team of people again, Bro Mingjin, Sis Daryl, etc. This is my fourth youth camp! I have to admit that from the first youth camp up till the last one, it has been from GLORY to GLORY! I really cannot imagine the wonderful time I am going to have in a few hours time! We will be having around a 100 campers, highest ever compared to the previous few camps that averages around 20-30 youths, this time round and I pray that everyone of them will turn up. The whole event will end late on friday, thus I will be missing my first friday service in a long while... haha... going to be out of my comfort zone this weekend!
Going to prepare and bath now! God bless and continue to pray for strength to be upon me. God can indeed use the weak... He used and is going to use me tomorrow to touch the lifes of the students!! God bless!
Ps 47:6
"Sing praises to God, sing praises! Sing praises to our King, sing praises!"
Back to School... :)
Wow... I have to admit that I am very blessed to see so many people pouring their affection, care and concern over me for the past week or so! The road was indeed long and bumpy... but I have to thank God that I am still here... praising His name; confessing on His goodness. Friends at work, friends from church and even Jesus and the Holy Spirit... came and stood in the gaps for me during this bumpy period in life. Life is always challenging, never disheartening because of the encouraging and helping hands around me! Once again, THANK YOU. To those whom I don't even know or those whom I cannot figure out from their nicks, I thank you for your encouragement!
I just got back from a meeting! A wonderful meeting for a wonderful event! I am going away for two days... for A GOOD CAUSE! I will be helping out in CHCSA's youth camp, which will be from thursday to friday. It used to be 3 days but due the sheer voume of activities during this past few months and weeks, it will be 2 instead this round. I can still remember the last camp that I went for. I was given a honor... to be a leader of a group. I have to say that I was tremendously blessed... to see how the youth there were impacted... how touched they were! It was simply AWESOME! I thought I was there to bless... but I never thought that the blessings that I got from the camp can be far greater than the amount of blessings which I had given out. God is scary in a good sense! Hahaha... always overflowing, even in experiences and emotions!
I believe that this upcoming 2 days youth camp, which will be held in a secondary school, is going to be another resounding success! Once again, it a gruelling time- late night, bone-breaking activities (Due to the fact that I have not be exercising regularly), first time interactions, etc- but I know that God is going to be so real in these 2 days! I just cannot wait to get into the middle of all these fun! To be honest, I am REALLY tired now... have to wake up at 530am tomorrow morning because we have to reach Bedok at 7am! I have not pack, bath, etc... I just so excited with the fact that I can work with a great team of people again, Bro Mingjin, Sis Daryl, etc. This is my fourth youth camp! I have to admit that from the first youth camp up till the last one, it has been from GLORY to GLORY! I really cannot imagine the wonderful time I am going to have in a few hours time! We will be having around a 100 campers, highest ever compared to the previous few camps that averages around 20-30 youths, this time round and I pray that everyone of them will turn up. The whole event will end late on friday, thus I will be missing my first friday service in a long while... haha... going to be out of my comfort zone this weekend!
Going to prepare and bath now! God bless and continue to pray for strength to be upon me. God can indeed use the weak... He used and is going to use me tomorrow to touch the lifes of the students!! God bless!
Ps 47:6
"Sing praises to God, sing praises! Sing praises to our King, sing praises!"
I just got back from a meeting! A wonderful meeting for a wonderful event! I am going away for two days... for A GOOD CAUSE! I will be helping out in CHCSA's youth camp, which will be from thursday to friday. It used to be 3 days but due the sheer voume of activities during this past few months and weeks, it will be 2 instead this round. I can still remember the last camp that I went for. I was given a honor... to be a leader of a group. I have to say that I was tremendously blessed... to see how the youth there were impacted... how touched they were! It was simply AWESOME! I thought I was there to bless... but I never thought that the blessings that I got from the camp can be far greater than the amount of blessings which I had given out. God is scary in a good sense! Hahaha... always overflowing, even in experiences and emotions!
I believe that this upcoming 2 days youth camp, which will be held in a secondary school, is going to be another resounding success! Once again, it a gruelling time- late night, bone-breaking activities (Due to the fact that I have not be exercising regularly), first time interactions, etc- but I know that God is going to be so real in these 2 days! I just cannot wait to get into the middle of all these fun! To be honest, I am REALLY tired now... have to wake up at 530am tomorrow morning because we have to reach Bedok at 7am! I have not pack, bath, etc... I just so excited with the fact that I can work with a great team of people again, Bro Mingjin, Sis Daryl, etc. This is my fourth youth camp! I have to admit that from the first youth camp up till the last one, it has been from GLORY to GLORY! I really cannot imagine the wonderful time I am going to have in a few hours time! We will be having around a 100 campers, highest ever compared to the previous few camps that averages around 20-30 youths, this time round and I pray that everyone of them will turn up. The whole event will end late on friday, thus I will be missing my first friday service in a long while... haha... going to be out of my comfort zone this weekend!
Going to prepare and bath now! God bless and continue to pray for strength to be upon me. God can indeed use the weak... He used and is going to use me tomorrow to touch the lifes of the students!! God bless!
Ps 47:6
"Sing praises to God, sing praises! Sing praises to our King, sing praises!"
Saturday, June 04, 2005
Blog, blog, blog...
Wow... I am glad that I have friends who actually check out my blog... to see how I am doing in my life... Haha... It is encouraging to see that... Knowing that I am indeed not alone on my journey called life.
Just thought of something... I recalled reading a book that has the following title, "Tuesday with Morrie". This gave me an inspiration to start something... something which will goes like that... "Everyday with God." I really wonder if I will be disciplined to actually update this project of mine as often as I can... I know that if I were to embark on this project... the encouragements which God gave me will be reflected on deeply before posting it online. This will indeed be one good way of keeping tabs on the lessons which God is trying to teach me... and maybe one day... haha... yeah... one faithful day, just like Pst Phil Pringle's "Leadership Files," it will be published into a book... haha... and just like Mitch Albom, I will be New York Times bestselling author! Haha...
Yeah... just came back from CG... was really tired... still roughing it out in the valley... trying to bring myself together! Just like I was sharing yesterday... I really felt the endless plunge into eternal darkness last night... but after opening up here... I felt so much better... like a heavy burden been lifted up from my shoulders... though things are still not perfect, I felt that Someone was actually reaching out to me... trying to grab me... to save me from this plunge!
I really do look forward to the day when I will share about my victory from this struggle which I am facing now, struggling to get myself back on the road God has built for me... It is too narrow to the point that I actually fell from it... into this valley which I am in now! haha... I don't blame Him, my God... He just wants to perfect me... to train me into a person who can balance and walk on this NARROW road which will He has intended me to be on.
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hate darkness... I hate the state which I am in right now!! This thorn... which is in my flesh... poking in areas which I wanna hide... digging in the parts of my life which I thought I have thrown away... argh....
2Cor 12:9
"And He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness." Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me."
Just thought of something... I recalled reading a book that has the following title, "Tuesday with Morrie". This gave me an inspiration to start something... something which will goes like that... "Everyday with God." I really wonder if I will be disciplined to actually update this project of mine as often as I can... I know that if I were to embark on this project... the encouragements which God gave me will be reflected on deeply before posting it online. This will indeed be one good way of keeping tabs on the lessons which God is trying to teach me... and maybe one day... haha... yeah... one faithful day, just like Pst Phil Pringle's "Leadership Files," it will be published into a book... haha... and just like Mitch Albom, I will be New York Times bestselling author! Haha...
Yeah... just came back from CG... was really tired... still roughing it out in the valley... trying to bring myself together! Just like I was sharing yesterday... I really felt the endless plunge into eternal darkness last night... but after opening up here... I felt so much better... like a heavy burden been lifted up from my shoulders... though things are still not perfect, I felt that Someone was actually reaching out to me... trying to grab me... to save me from this plunge!
I really do look forward to the day when I will share about my victory from this struggle which I am facing now, struggling to get myself back on the road God has built for me... It is too narrow to the point that I actually fell from it... into this valley which I am in now! haha... I don't blame Him, my God... He just wants to perfect me... to train me into a person who can balance and walk on this NARROW road which will He has intended me to be on.
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hate darkness... I hate the state which I am in right now!! This thorn... which is in my flesh... poking in areas which I wanna hide... digging in the parts of my life which I thought I have thrown away... argh....
2Cor 12:9
"And He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness." Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me."
Blog, blog, blog...
Wow... I am glad that I have friends who actually check out my blog... to see how I am doing in my life... Haha... It is encouraging to see that... Knowing that I am indeed not alone on my journey called life.
Just thought of something... I recalled reading a book that has the following title, "Tuesday with Morrie". This gave me an inspiration to start something... something which will goes like that... "Everyday with God." I really wonder if I will be disciplined to actually update this project of mine as often as I can... I know that if I were to embark on this project... the encouragements which God gave me will be reflected on deeply before posting it online. This will indeed be one good way of keeping tabs on the lessons which God is trying to teach me... and maybe one day... haha... yeah... one faithful day, just like Pst Phil Pringle's "Leadership Files," it will be published into a book... haha... and just like Mitch Albom, I will be New York Times bestselling author! Haha...
Yeah... just came back from CG... was really tired... still roughing it out in the valley... trying to bring myself together! Just like I was sharing yesterday... I really felt the endless plunge into eternal darkness last night... but after opening up here... I felt so much better... like a heavy burden been lifted up from my shoulders... though things are still not perfect, I felt that Someone was actually reaching out to me... trying to grab me... to save me from this plunge!
I really do look forward to the day when I will share about my victory from this struggle which I am facing now, struggling to get myself back on the road God has built for me... It is too narrow to the point that I actually fell from it... into this valley which I am in now! haha... I don't blame Him, my God... He just wants to perfect me... to train me into a person who can balance and walk on this NARROW road which will He has intended me to be on.
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hate darkness... I hate the state which I am in right now!! This thorn... which is in my flesh... poking in areas which I wanna hide... digging in the parts of my life which I thought I have thrown away... argh....
2Cor 12:9
"And He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness." Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me."
Just thought of something... I recalled reading a book that has the following title, "Tuesday with Morrie". This gave me an inspiration to start something... something which will goes like that... "Everyday with God." I really wonder if I will be disciplined to actually update this project of mine as often as I can... I know that if I were to embark on this project... the encouragements which God gave me will be reflected on deeply before posting it online. This will indeed be one good way of keeping tabs on the lessons which God is trying to teach me... and maybe one day... haha... yeah... one faithful day, just like Pst Phil Pringle's "Leadership Files," it will be published into a book... haha... and just like Mitch Albom, I will be New York Times bestselling author! Haha...
Yeah... just came back from CG... was really tired... still roughing it out in the valley... trying to bring myself together! Just like I was sharing yesterday... I really felt the endless plunge into eternal darkness last night... but after opening up here... I felt so much better... like a heavy burden been lifted up from my shoulders... though things are still not perfect, I felt that Someone was actually reaching out to me... trying to grab me... to save me from this plunge!
I really do look forward to the day when I will share about my victory from this struggle which I am facing now, struggling to get myself back on the road God has built for me... It is too narrow to the point that I actually fell from it... into this valley which I am in now! haha... I don't blame Him, my God... He just wants to perfect me... to train me into a person who can balance and walk on this NARROW road which will He has intended me to be on.
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hate darkness... I hate the state which I am in right now!! This thorn... which is in my flesh... poking in areas which I wanna hide... digging in the parts of my life which I thought I have thrown away... argh....
2Cor 12:9
"And He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness." Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me."
TIRED...
I am so tired... drained... lost... ZzzzZz..... new phase in life which I need to adapt... to conquer... to rule over! So many things are piling up... hmm... maybe not... but it seems like it! Haha... I am just not used to having so little time to myself... hmm... I really need a release man! Blogging is one way... yeah... I can SHOUT here... without bringing myself into any troubles... Haha... ARGH!!! Now is a time of testing... a test of my loyalty... whether I am for God or not... so many committments... so little time... no time for myself... no time for my own entertainment... yeah... as you can see... it is about ME, ME, ME and ME! Haha... I know that this is just a passing phase (Hopefully!) I feel so PACKED UP, SQUEEZED UP, BLOWING UP soon...
However, I will PRAISE... I will REJOICE... although I don't feel like it! So this is how it feels like... SACRIFICE OF PRAISE! ARGH!!! Trying to be happy when I am not... trying to shout praised even when I don't feel like it...
I feel like I am sliding down from a cliff... falling at a rate where I myself cannot find anything to grab onto... no branch or anything for me to pull myself up... to stop myself from this plunge! HOPELESS... HELPLESS... too tired to try... instead of trying, I may just as well "enjoy" this free fall... when I am weak... there may be a supernatural empowerment... which I am really looking forward too... I will not lose the hope that a supernatural intervention is on its way... when I am weak, indeed, I WILL be strong...
Psalms 23:4
"Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil; For You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me. "
However, I will PRAISE... I will REJOICE... although I don't feel like it! So this is how it feels like... SACRIFICE OF PRAISE! ARGH!!! Trying to be happy when I am not... trying to shout praised even when I don't feel like it...
I feel like I am sliding down from a cliff... falling at a rate where I myself cannot find anything to grab onto... no branch or anything for me to pull myself up... to stop myself from this plunge! HOPELESS... HELPLESS... too tired to try... instead of trying, I may just as well "enjoy" this free fall... when I am weak... there may be a supernatural empowerment... which I am really looking forward too... I will not lose the hope that a supernatural intervention is on its way... when I am weak, indeed, I WILL be strong...
Psalms 23:4
"Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil; For You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me. "
TIRED...
I am so tired... drained... lost... ZzzzZz..... new phase in life which I need to adapt... to conquer... to rule over! So many things are piling up... hmm... maybe not... but it seems like it! Haha... I am just not used to having so little time to myself... hmm... I really need a release man! Blogging is one way... yeah... I can SHOUT here... without bringing myself into any troubles... Haha... ARGH!!! Now is a time of testing... a test of my loyalty... whether I am for God or not... so many committments... so little time... no time for myself... no time for my own entertainment... yeah... as you can see... it is about ME, ME, ME and ME! Haha... I know that this is just a passing phase (Hopefully!) I feel so PACKED UP, SQUEEZED UP, BLOWING UP soon...
However, I will PRAISE... I will REJOICE... although I don't feel like it! So this is how it feels like... SACRIFICE OF PRAISE! ARGH!!! Trying to be happy when I am not... trying to shout praised even when I don't feel like it...
I feel like I am sliding down from a cliff... falling at a rate where I myself cannot find anything to grab onto... no branch or anything for me to pull myself up... to stop myself from this plunge! HOPELESS... HELPLESS... too tired to try... instead of trying, I may just as well "enjoy" this free fall... when I am weak... there may be a supernatural empowerment... which I am really looking forward too... I will not lose the hope that a supernatural intervention is on its way... when I am weak, indeed, I WILL be strong...
Psalms 23:4
"Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil; For You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me. "
However, I will PRAISE... I will REJOICE... although I don't feel like it! So this is how it feels like... SACRIFICE OF PRAISE! ARGH!!! Trying to be happy when I am not... trying to shout praised even when I don't feel like it...
I feel like I am sliding down from a cliff... falling at a rate where I myself cannot find anything to grab onto... no branch or anything for me to pull myself up... to stop myself from this plunge! HOPELESS... HELPLESS... too tired to try... instead of trying, I may just as well "enjoy" this free fall... when I am weak... there may be a supernatural empowerment... which I am really looking forward too... I will not lose the hope that a supernatural intervention is on its way... when I am weak, indeed, I WILL be strong...
Psalms 23:4
"Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil; For You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me. "
Wednesday, May 04, 2005
First day doing the REAL stuff!
I have just went to the next phase in my work! I have finished my one week of training and I have gone on to do the real thing today! I am now handling REAL problems from REAL people... customers from the AMERICAS... :) wow... and I have to say that some of the techincal questions they send in are really hilarious! "Please help me as my dog has broke my installation CD!" Haha... Jokes aside... It can be quite stressful a quota which we have to meet. For the first 2 weeks, we have to complete 40 emails and 2 weeks later, 60. Eventually, it will climb to a whopping 80 emails! I think that it is a real mountain for me to climb over now because I tried and only managed 23 emails for the whole of today!
I really want to thank God once again! The people there are friendly and helpful! Thank God! Not to mention two of my leaders... they are simply superb, guiding me with patience and explaining the work to me with love! Haha... Guess what... I do not have a table yet because I am supposed to take over a guy who is leaving in the middle of this month. However, because of this, I got to sit on table which belongs to a CITY HARVESTER! The world is so SMALL! Haha... He is on leave for the whole of this week, so I got a chance to be on his desk... to rub some of the emailing anointing from his desk! Haha... I am really excited because I am eager to see who this guy is... my brother-in-Christ, my churchmate... my COLLEAGUE!
Stay tune for more updates! :) Cheers... once again... God was good the last week... Revelations upon revelations!! Woohoo!! So excited! Hehe.. :)
I really want to thank God once again! The people there are friendly and helpful! Thank God! Not to mention two of my leaders... they are simply superb, guiding me with patience and explaining the work to me with love! Haha... Guess what... I do not have a table yet because I am supposed to take over a guy who is leaving in the middle of this month. However, because of this, I got to sit on table which belongs to a CITY HARVESTER! The world is so SMALL! Haha... He is on leave for the whole of this week, so I got a chance to be on his desk... to rub some of the emailing anointing from his desk! Haha... I am really excited because I am eager to see who this guy is... my brother-in-Christ, my churchmate... my COLLEAGUE!
Stay tune for more updates! :) Cheers... once again... God was good the last week... Revelations upon revelations!! Woohoo!! So excited! Hehe.. :)
First day doing the REAL stuff!
I have just went to the next phase in my work! I have finished my one week of training and I have gone on to do the real thing today! I am now handling REAL problems from REAL people... customers from the AMERICAS... :) wow... and I have to say that some of the techincal questions they send in are really hilarious! "Please help me as my dog has broke my installation CD!" Haha... Jokes aside... It can be quite stressful a quota which we have to meet. For the first 2 weeks, we have to complete 40 emails and 2 weeks later, 60. Eventually, it will climb to a whopping 80 emails! I think that it is a real mountain for me to climb over now because I tried and only managed 23 emails for the whole of today!
I really want to thank God once again! The people there are friendly and helpful! Thank God! Not to mention two of my leaders... they are simply superb, guiding me with patience and explaining the work to me with love! Haha... Guess what... I do not have a table yet because I am supposed to take over a guy who is leaving in the middle of this month. However, because of this, I got to sit on table which belongs to a CITY HARVESTER! The world is so SMALL! Haha... He is on leave for the whole of this week, so I got a chance to be on his desk... to rub some of the emailing anointing from his desk! Haha... I am really excited because I am eager to see who this guy is... my brother-in-Christ, my churchmate... my COLLEAGUE!
Stay tune for more updates! :) Cheers... once again... God was good the last week... Revelations upon revelations!! Woohoo!! So excited! Hehe.. :)
I really want to thank God once again! The people there are friendly and helpful! Thank God! Not to mention two of my leaders... they are simply superb, guiding me with patience and explaining the work to me with love! Haha... Guess what... I do not have a table yet because I am supposed to take over a guy who is leaving in the middle of this month. However, because of this, I got to sit on table which belongs to a CITY HARVESTER! The world is so SMALL! Haha... He is on leave for the whole of this week, so I got a chance to be on his desk... to rub some of the emailing anointing from his desk! Haha... I am really excited because I am eager to see who this guy is... my brother-in-Christ, my churchmate... my COLLEAGUE!
Stay tune for more updates! :) Cheers... once again... God was good the last week... Revelations upon revelations!! Woohoo!! So excited! Hehe.. :)
Sunday, May 01, 2005
First MP3 Gadget!
I am so excited as I am a proud owner of a Creative Zen Micro MP3 Player! This is made possible with my admission in Creative as one of their employees! I got to enjoy a good discount on this particular MP3 player! Haha... and this player has kept me up until now! I was busy copy all the music and sermons into this small and powerful player of mine! Haha... I am really looking forward to a time of enjoyment even on the most boring bus ride! Haha... I have always wanted to listen to a sermon on a bus or even train ride when it can take up to 1 hour to reach my destination! Really want to thank God for bringing me into Creative to be able to enjoy its benefits and welfare, this purchase being one of it!
Woohoo... One more thing! I just checked my bank account! I was shocked to learn that Creative has actually credited my first week pay into my account... I thought I will be getting this last week of the month of April's pay together with my May salary... but once again, God, being the awesome Guy that He is, has came true for me knowing that I needed the money. :) I love Him so, so MUCH! Oh... I have tithed! More will be coming! Haha...
Woohoo... One more thing! I just checked my bank account! I was shocked to learn that Creative has actually credited my first week pay into my account... I thought I will be getting this last week of the month of April's pay together with my May salary... but once again, God, being the awesome Guy that He is, has came true for me knowing that I needed the money. :) I love Him so, so MUCH! Oh... I have tithed! More will be coming! Haha...
First MP3 Gadget!
I am so excited as I am a proud owner of a Creative Zen Micro MP3 Player! This is made possible with my admission in Creative as one of their employees! I got to enjoy a good discount on this particular MP3 player! Haha... and this player has kept me up until now! I was busy copy all the music and sermons into this small and powerful player of mine! Haha... I am really looking forward to a time of enjoyment even on the most boring bus ride! Haha... I have always wanted to listen to a sermon on a bus or even train ride when it can take up to 1 hour to reach my destination! Really want to thank God for bringing me into Creative to be able to enjoy its benefits and welfare, this purchase being one of it!
Woohoo... One more thing! I just checked my bank account! I was shocked to learn that Creative has actually credited my first week pay into my account... I thought I will be getting this last week of the month of April's pay together with my May salary... but once again, God, being the awesome Guy that He is, has came true for me knowing that I needed the money. :) I love Him so, so MUCH! Oh... I have tithed! More will be coming! Haha...
Woohoo... One more thing! I just checked my bank account! I was shocked to learn that Creative has actually credited my first week pay into my account... I thought I will be getting this last week of the month of April's pay together with my May salary... but once again, God, being the awesome Guy that He is, has came true for me knowing that I needed the money. :) I love Him so, so MUCH! Oh... I have tithed! More will be coming! Haha...
Thursday, April 28, 2005
First Week in Creative...
For the past few days in Creative, I have been going through some trainings on all the Creative products... I have to say that it was rather tiring... Haha... But on the bright side, I have learnt alot about the products that Creative offers. On top of that, I have learnt alot of other useful information like how a speaker or even a sound card works! Wow... a real learning experience! After my fourth day at work, not really work though, I can really feel that the working atmosphere is rather good. I will have to gauge it again next week when I actually start doing the REAL thing!
Haha... however, so far so good... The trainer is one friendly guy... :) Oh... did i mention that I got the chance to test and play all cool gadgets in Creative? Haha... Well, now I am telling you that I actually put my hands on a Creative Portable Media Centre, Audigy 4 Pro and even a I-Trigue 5.1 speaker system! Haha... Cool man... :) Anyway, going to sleep now! I have not slept at 11 plus for a long, long time! Body is really feeling the tow... Please don't misunderstand... I did not work until late in the night... rather, I got to knock off ON the DOT, 6PM! Haha... The fatigue was due to the after work activities... haha... yeah... So I am signing off right now... Good night and SWEET DREAMS everyone... God has shared a few revelations lately and I will certainly wish that I will have the time to share them with you guys in the next post! :) CIAOZ!
Haha... however, so far so good... The trainer is one friendly guy... :) Oh... did i mention that I got the chance to test and play all cool gadgets in Creative? Haha... Well, now I am telling you that I actually put my hands on a Creative Portable Media Centre, Audigy 4 Pro and even a I-Trigue 5.1 speaker system! Haha... Cool man... :) Anyway, going to sleep now! I have not slept at 11 plus for a long, long time! Body is really feeling the tow... Please don't misunderstand... I did not work until late in the night... rather, I got to knock off ON the DOT, 6PM! Haha... The fatigue was due to the after work activities... haha... yeah... So I am signing off right now... Good night and SWEET DREAMS everyone... God has shared a few revelations lately and I will certainly wish that I will have the time to share them with you guys in the next post! :) CIAOZ!
First Week in Creative...
For the past few days in Creative, I have been going through some trainings on all the Creative products... I have to say that it was rather tiring... Haha... But on the bright side, I have learnt alot about the products that Creative offers. On top of that, I have learnt alot of other useful information like how a speaker or even a sound card works! Wow... a real learning experience! After my fourth day at work, not really work though, I can really feel that the working atmosphere is rather good. I will have to gauge it again next week when I actually start doing the REAL thing!
Haha... however, so far so good... The trainer is one friendly guy... :) Oh... did i mention that I got the chance to test and play all cool gadgets in Creative? Haha... Well, now I am telling you that I actually put my hands on a Creative Portable Media Centre, Audigy 4 Pro and even a I-Trigue 5.1 speaker system! Haha... Cool man... :) Anyway, going to sleep now! I have not slept at 11 plus for a long, long time! Body is really feeling the tow... Please don't misunderstand... I did not work until late in the night... rather, I got to knock off ON the DOT, 6PM! Haha... The fatigue was due to the after work activities... haha... yeah... So I am signing off right now... Good night and SWEET DREAMS everyone... God has shared a few revelations lately and I will certainly wish that I will have the time to share them with you guys in the next post! :) CIAOZ!
Haha... however, so far so good... The trainer is one friendly guy... :) Oh... did i mention that I got the chance to test and play all cool gadgets in Creative? Haha... Well, now I am telling you that I actually put my hands on a Creative Portable Media Centre, Audigy 4 Pro and even a I-Trigue 5.1 speaker system! Haha... Cool man... :) Anyway, going to sleep now! I have not slept at 11 plus for a long, long time! Body is really feeling the tow... Please don't misunderstand... I did not work until late in the night... rather, I got to knock off ON the DOT, 6PM! Haha... The fatigue was due to the after work activities... haha... yeah... So I am signing off right now... Good night and SWEET DREAMS everyone... God has shared a few revelations lately and I will certainly wish that I will have the time to share them with you guys in the next post! :) CIAOZ!
Tuesday, April 26, 2005
First day of Work @ Creative Technologies
"Wow!"... That was the first word that went into my mind when the presenter was going through the slides on staff benefits and facilities! Man... Creative is one company that really knows how to treat and reward its staff! They have a corporate membership with Chevrons (which is just opposite International Business Park) which includes free usage of the gym and swimming pool facilities! Woohoo... GYM! Man... I was waiting for this word throughout the entire presentation! Haha...On top of that, they have other facilities within Creative itself... library, well equipped pantry, vendor machines which only have 10 cents drinks... and many more... Wow... haha... oh... did I mention that we have free admission to Sentosa? Haha... yeah... Isn't it great? Haha... wow... hehe... :)
The whole organisation is really structured like the SAF! Yeah... However, they do not have snobbish Majors and Warrant Officers! Haha... and most importantly, they do have extra duties for us to perform! They have a local intranet with useful information for us, the staff, to get hold of! And yes! They have staff discount too!!! Haha... What can I say? God is really good! It has been a dream come true for me at this point of my life! I have always wanted to be in a BIG company! God gave me a BIG company and on top of that... He gave me one that is organised and well-structured! :) Cool eh?! During my first day in Creative, I can really feel a warmth in the atmosphere... Everyone is so friendly and helpful there! That is at least for now! Haha... I believe that in every BIG organisations, there are bound to be people whom are hard to work with! BUT I believe that God's grace with me! He will certainly strengthen me during my time in Creative! I really do hope to stay here and advance here in Creative for now but I do not know what God has planned for me! I will go wherever He leads... :)
Just wanna thank everyone who has prayed for me! Your prayers really made a different! Everything went well for me in the first day... :) I will certainly share more in my upcoming entries! I am currently having my training! That will last for at least a week and thereafter, I will have a desk and the real thing will BEGIN! Haha... continue to keep me in your prayers! Oh! One more thing... Creative is so near to MY PLACE!! WOW!! I do not have to wake up THAT EARLY just to get to work! Moreover, when I reach home, I can still admire the sun through my room's window! Haha... PRAISE GOD!!! Muacks! Thank you JESUS!
The whole organisation is really structured like the SAF! Yeah... However, they do not have snobbish Majors and Warrant Officers! Haha... and most importantly, they do have extra duties for us to perform! They have a local intranet with useful information for us, the staff, to get hold of! And yes! They have staff discount too!!! Haha... What can I say? God is really good! It has been a dream come true for me at this point of my life! I have always wanted to be in a BIG company! God gave me a BIG company and on top of that... He gave me one that is organised and well-structured! :) Cool eh?! During my first day in Creative, I can really feel a warmth in the atmosphere... Everyone is so friendly and helpful there! That is at least for now! Haha... I believe that in every BIG organisations, there are bound to be people whom are hard to work with! BUT I believe that God's grace with me! He will certainly strengthen me during my time in Creative! I really do hope to stay here and advance here in Creative for now but I do not know what God has planned for me! I will go wherever He leads... :)
Just wanna thank everyone who has prayed for me! Your prayers really made a different! Everything went well for me in the first day... :) I will certainly share more in my upcoming entries! I am currently having my training! That will last for at least a week and thereafter, I will have a desk and the real thing will BEGIN! Haha... continue to keep me in your prayers! Oh! One more thing... Creative is so near to MY PLACE!! WOW!! I do not have to wake up THAT EARLY just to get to work! Moreover, when I reach home, I can still admire the sun through my room's window! Haha... PRAISE GOD!!! Muacks! Thank you JESUS!
First day of Work @ Creative Technologies
"Wow!"... That was the first word that went into my mind when the presenter was going through the slides on staff benefits and facilities! Man... Creative is one company that really knows how to treat and reward its staff! They have a corporate membership with Chevrons (which is just opposite International Business Park) which includes free usage of the gym and swimming pool facilities! Woohoo... GYM! Man... I was waiting for this word throughout the entire presentation! Haha...On top of that, they have other facilities within Creative itself... library, well equipped pantry, vendor machines which only have 10 cents drinks... and many more... Wow... haha... oh... did I mention that we have free admission to Sentosa? Haha... yeah... Isn't it great? Haha... wow... hehe... :)
The whole organisation is really structured like the SAF! Yeah... However, they do not have snobbish Majors and Warrant Officers! Haha... and most importantly, they do have extra duties for us to perform! They have a local intranet with useful information for us, the staff, to get hold of! And yes! They have staff discount too!!! Haha... What can I say? God is really good! It has been a dream come true for me at this point of my life! I have always wanted to be in a BIG company! God gave me a BIG company and on top of that... He gave me one that is organised and well-structured! :) Cool eh?! During my first day in Creative, I can really feel a warmth in the atmosphere... Everyone is so friendly and helpful there! That is at least for now! Haha... I believe that in every BIG organisations, there are bound to be people whom are hard to work with! BUT I believe that God's grace with me! He will certainly strengthen me during my time in Creative! I really do hope to stay here and advance here in Creative for now but I do not know what God has planned for me! I will go wherever He leads... :)
Just wanna thank everyone who has prayed for me! Your prayers really made a different! Everything went well for me in the first day... :) I will certainly share more in my upcoming entries! I am currently having my training! That will last for at least a week and thereafter, I will have a desk and the real thing will BEGIN! Haha... continue to keep me in your prayers! Oh! One more thing... Creative is so near to MY PLACE!! WOW!! I do not have to wake up THAT EARLY just to get to work! Moreover, when I reach home, I can still admire the sun through my room's window! Haha... PRAISE GOD!!! Muacks! Thank you JESUS!
The whole organisation is really structured like the SAF! Yeah... However, they do not have snobbish Majors and Warrant Officers! Haha... and most importantly, they do have extra duties for us to perform! They have a local intranet with useful information for us, the staff, to get hold of! And yes! They have staff discount too!!! Haha... What can I say? God is really good! It has been a dream come true for me at this point of my life! I have always wanted to be in a BIG company! God gave me a BIG company and on top of that... He gave me one that is organised and well-structured! :) Cool eh?! During my first day in Creative, I can really feel a warmth in the atmosphere... Everyone is so friendly and helpful there! That is at least for now! Haha... I believe that in every BIG organisations, there are bound to be people whom are hard to work with! BUT I believe that God's grace with me! He will certainly strengthen me during my time in Creative! I really do hope to stay here and advance here in Creative for now but I do not know what God has planned for me! I will go wherever He leads... :)
Just wanna thank everyone who has prayed for me! Your prayers really made a different! Everything went well for me in the first day... :) I will certainly share more in my upcoming entries! I am currently having my training! That will last for at least a week and thereafter, I will have a desk and the real thing will BEGIN! Haha... continue to keep me in your prayers! Oh! One more thing... Creative is so near to MY PLACE!! WOW!! I do not have to wake up THAT EARLY just to get to work! Moreover, when I reach home, I can still admire the sun through my room's window! Haha... PRAISE GOD!!! Muacks! Thank you JESUS!
Friday, April 15, 2005
Awesome Week
First and foremost, my grandma is looking so much better now... Although she still experiences some pains here and there, she is so much better compared to the past week! :) Thank you people for your prayers... Indeed, without your prayers, I do not really think it will be so smooth for her. By the way, things do go in circles... :) Now, I am like a "granny" to my granny! I am taking care of her like a kid, like how she took care of me when I was younger! Everything that goes around, comes around... :) An everyday illustration of "Sowing and Reaping!"
Secondly, I really wanna thank God for His providence. I wanted so much to go into Creative (A Big Company!) . I wanna experience how it is like to work there... I went for an interview two weeks back and I have been waiting for their reply. Guess what? Delay is not denial... and God is a God who knows what is best for me! I got the job that I interviewed for and most interesting of all is that I was offered a basic wage that is higher than my expected. Please note that I do not really have any working experience yet... not taking into consideration the one and half month stint in a Reseller. :) God is SO good to be just a mere imagination from a human mind! :) I will be starting work on the 25th of April and please continue to pray that favor of man will be upon me. Pray also that wisdom and the spirit of excellence will be in me! I will be the shining lamp in the dark!
Last but not least, I wanna thank God for bringing people into my life! :0 I got to know some students who are in SOT 2005 and I have to say that I am really blessed to have them as friends, not acquaintances. They are indeed a blessing from God... especially two taiwanese ladies (Liling and Hsiu Hua) who stay near my block. I do really think that I "ren yuan" with taiwanese. I also got to know a beautiful lady with a fascinating name... DOW DOW! Literally means pimples, beans... etc. Haha! She is very cute la.... very humourous too! Oh... not forgetting the others like from Malaysia, Mit and Abel; from Hong Kong, Paul and oh yes... ONE and ONLY, from Finland, David! Haha... I still remembered that I ask God specifically to give me a "WHITE" friend. Haha... I have all kinds of friend, except a "WHITE" one... :) I really thank God that we hitted off so well... I can confidently say that I am closer than some of SOT mates... hehe... thank God once again for the favour... I asked and I received... :) I prayed and He answered...
One more thing I like to share... :) While I was having my evening jog last evening, God told me that it takes FAITH to commit myself in a relationship. No matter how many times I failed in the past... failing miserably in trying to win a girl's heart... heart breaking end in a relationship, God told me that it is like a mistake I make in my everyday life... A mistake is a mistake... and it was well put by Pst Art... "Failure is a an event, not a DESTINY!" To be honest, I do have phobias in wooing girls... especially those from church... partly, it was because of my past mistakes... like a wrong move in a game of chess. However, after last night, I will not let my past hinder my wonderful future that the Lord has for me. Indeed, faith is the ONLY key to a beautiful future.... :) I will not let my past dictate my future... I will press on, even if it means that I will make more mistakes. However, in the area of relationship, I truly believe in accountability. Even when you say that you have faith to go ahead in a relationship, never forget that on top of faith, spiritual covering and blessing from the leaders are equally important... Do seek advices from them too... :) I pray that as you embark on your journey to find your second love, first love being Jesus, you will have wisdom and that there will be no selfishness in your acts. :0 God bless!!!!
Secondly, I really wanna thank God for His providence. I wanted so much to go into Creative (A Big Company!) . I wanna experience how it is like to work there... I went for an interview two weeks back and I have been waiting for their reply. Guess what? Delay is not denial... and God is a God who knows what is best for me! I got the job that I interviewed for and most interesting of all is that I was offered a basic wage that is higher than my expected. Please note that I do not really have any working experience yet... not taking into consideration the one and half month stint in a Reseller. :) God is SO good to be just a mere imagination from a human mind! :) I will be starting work on the 25th of April and please continue to pray that favor of man will be upon me. Pray also that wisdom and the spirit of excellence will be in me! I will be the shining lamp in the dark!
Last but not least, I wanna thank God for bringing people into my life! :0 I got to know some students who are in SOT 2005 and I have to say that I am really blessed to have them as friends, not acquaintances. They are indeed a blessing from God... especially two taiwanese ladies (Liling and Hsiu Hua) who stay near my block. I do really think that I "ren yuan" with taiwanese. I also got to know a beautiful lady with a fascinating name... DOW DOW! Literally means pimples, beans... etc. Haha! She is very cute la.... very humourous too! Oh... not forgetting the others like from Malaysia, Mit and Abel; from Hong Kong, Paul and oh yes... ONE and ONLY, from Finland, David! Haha... I still remembered that I ask God specifically to give me a "WHITE" friend. Haha... I have all kinds of friend, except a "WHITE" one... :) I really thank God that we hitted off so well... I can confidently say that I am closer than some of SOT mates... hehe... thank God once again for the favour... I asked and I received... :) I prayed and He answered...
One more thing I like to share... :) While I was having my evening jog last evening, God told me that it takes FAITH to commit myself in a relationship. No matter how many times I failed in the past... failing miserably in trying to win a girl's heart... heart breaking end in a relationship, God told me that it is like a mistake I make in my everyday life... A mistake is a mistake... and it was well put by Pst Art... "Failure is a an event, not a DESTINY!" To be honest, I do have phobias in wooing girls... especially those from church... partly, it was because of my past mistakes... like a wrong move in a game of chess. However, after last night, I will not let my past hinder my wonderful future that the Lord has for me. Indeed, faith is the ONLY key to a beautiful future.... :) I will not let my past dictate my future... I will press on, even if it means that I will make more mistakes. However, in the area of relationship, I truly believe in accountability. Even when you say that you have faith to go ahead in a relationship, never forget that on top of faith, spiritual covering and blessing from the leaders are equally important... Do seek advices from them too... :) I pray that as you embark on your journey to find your second love, first love being Jesus, you will have wisdom and that there will be no selfishness in your acts. :0 God bless!!!!
Awesome Week
First and foremost, my grandma is looking so much better now... Although she still experiences some pains here and there, she is so much better compared to the past week! :) Thank you people for your prayers... Indeed, without your prayers, I do not really think it will be so smooth for her. By the way, things do go in circles... :) Now, I am like a "granny" to my granny! I am taking care of her like a kid, like how she took care of me when I was younger! Everything that goes around, comes around... :) An everyday illustration of "Sowing and Reaping!"
Secondly, I really wanna thank God for His providence. I wanted so much to go into Creative (A Big Company!) . I wanna experience how it is like to work there... I went for an interview two weeks back and I have been waiting for their reply. Guess what? Delay is not denial... and God is a God who knows what is best for me! I got the job that I interviewed for and most interesting of all is that I was offered a basic wage that is higher than my expected. Please note that I do not really have any working experience yet... not taking into consideration the one and half month stint in a Reseller. :) God is SO good to be just a mere imagination from a human mind! :) I will be starting work on the 25th of April and please continue to pray that favor of man will be upon me. Pray also that wisdom and the spirit of excellence will be in me! I will be the shining lamp in the dark!
Last but not least, I wanna thank God for bringing people into my life! :0 I got to know some students who are in SOT 2005 and I have to say that I am really blessed to have them as friends, not acquaintances. They are indeed a blessing from God... especially two taiwanese ladies (Liling and Hsiu Hua) who stay near my block. I do really think that I "ren yuan" with taiwanese. I also got to know a beautiful lady with a fascinating name... DOW DOW! Literally means pimples, beans... etc. Haha! She is very cute la.... very humourous too! Oh... not forgetting the others like from Malaysia, Mit and Abel; from Hong Kong, Paul and oh yes... ONE and ONLY, from Finland, David! Haha... I still remembered that I ask God specifically to give me a "WHITE" friend. Haha... I have all kinds of friend, except a "WHITE" one... :) I really thank God that we hitted off so well... I can confidently say that I am closer than some of SOT mates... hehe... thank God once again for the favour... I asked and I received... :) I prayed and He answered...
One more thing I like to share... :) While I was having my evening jog last evening, God told me that it takes FAITH to commit myself in a relationship. No matter how many times I failed in the past... failing miserably in trying to win a girl's heart... heart breaking end in a relationship, God told me that it is like a mistake I make in my everyday life... A mistake is a mistake... and it was well put by Pst Art... "Failure is a an event, not a DESTINY!" To be honest, I do have phobias in wooing girls... especially those from church... partly, it was because of my past mistakes... like a wrong move in a game of chess. However, after last night, I will not let my past hinder my wonderful future that the Lord has for me. Indeed, faith is the ONLY key to a beautiful future.... :) I will not let my past dictate my future... I will press on, even if it means that I will make more mistakes. However, in the area of relationship, I truly believe in accountability. Even when you say that you have faith to go ahead in a relationship, never forget that on top of faith, spiritual covering and blessing from the leaders are equally important... Do seek advices from them too... :) I pray that as you embark on your journey to find your second love, first love being Jesus, you will have wisdom and that there will be no selfishness in your acts. :0 God bless!!!!
Secondly, I really wanna thank God for His providence. I wanted so much to go into Creative (A Big Company!) . I wanna experience how it is like to work there... I went for an interview two weeks back and I have been waiting for their reply. Guess what? Delay is not denial... and God is a God who knows what is best for me! I got the job that I interviewed for and most interesting of all is that I was offered a basic wage that is higher than my expected. Please note that I do not really have any working experience yet... not taking into consideration the one and half month stint in a Reseller. :) God is SO good to be just a mere imagination from a human mind! :) I will be starting work on the 25th of April and please continue to pray that favor of man will be upon me. Pray also that wisdom and the spirit of excellence will be in me! I will be the shining lamp in the dark!
Last but not least, I wanna thank God for bringing people into my life! :0 I got to know some students who are in SOT 2005 and I have to say that I am really blessed to have them as friends, not acquaintances. They are indeed a blessing from God... especially two taiwanese ladies (Liling and Hsiu Hua) who stay near my block. I do really think that I "ren yuan" with taiwanese. I also got to know a beautiful lady with a fascinating name... DOW DOW! Literally means pimples, beans... etc. Haha! She is very cute la.... very humourous too! Oh... not forgetting the others like from Malaysia, Mit and Abel; from Hong Kong, Paul and oh yes... ONE and ONLY, from Finland, David! Haha... I still remembered that I ask God specifically to give me a "WHITE" friend. Haha... I have all kinds of friend, except a "WHITE" one... :) I really thank God that we hitted off so well... I can confidently say that I am closer than some of SOT mates... hehe... thank God once again for the favour... I asked and I received... :) I prayed and He answered...
One more thing I like to share... :) While I was having my evening jog last evening, God told me that it takes FAITH to commit myself in a relationship. No matter how many times I failed in the past... failing miserably in trying to win a girl's heart... heart breaking end in a relationship, God told me that it is like a mistake I make in my everyday life... A mistake is a mistake... and it was well put by Pst Art... "Failure is a an event, not a DESTINY!" To be honest, I do have phobias in wooing girls... especially those from church... partly, it was because of my past mistakes... like a wrong move in a game of chess. However, after last night, I will not let my past hinder my wonderful future that the Lord has for me. Indeed, faith is the ONLY key to a beautiful future.... :) I will not let my past dictate my future... I will press on, even if it means that I will make more mistakes. However, in the area of relationship, I truly believe in accountability. Even when you say that you have faith to go ahead in a relationship, never forget that on top of faith, spiritual covering and blessing from the leaders are equally important... Do seek advices from them too... :) I pray that as you embark on your journey to find your second love, first love being Jesus, you will have wisdom and that there will be no selfishness in your acts. :0 God bless!!!!
Sunday, April 03, 2005
Beloved Grandma
Please pray for my grandma. She is suffering from liver cancer and it is already in advance stage. Doctors said that she only has a few days left. I really do not hope for much. I really just want her to pass on peacefully with minimal pain. Your prayers will be very much appreciated.
It is really different when you see someone close to you suffer. I just went to visit her today. I wept the moment I see her face cringed in pain. I just could not control. This is the first time I have someone dear to me suffering so badly. I have friends who were sick and even one who died but it was not as sad as seeing her, my grandma, suffer. It was really a painful sight.
I know that my Saviour is with her. Although she is a Roman Catholic, she believes that Jesus is Lord and I am thankful for that. Praise God! :) Now, I can only pray and ask God to relieve her pain and to thank God for preparing a place for her in Heaven!
Once again, I just want to thank you guys for remembering her in your prayers! God bless and remember to love your loved ones NOW! Do not wait until she is dying before showing them your tears. Tears are precious... and they are PRECIOUS enough have those tears! Tear when they tell you how much they love you... tear when you receive something from her. :) By the way, tears does not have to be the real tear! It can be just a sincere "Thank you!"
It is really different when you see someone close to you suffer. I just went to visit her today. I wept the moment I see her face cringed in pain. I just could not control. This is the first time I have someone dear to me suffering so badly. I have friends who were sick and even one who died but it was not as sad as seeing her, my grandma, suffer. It was really a painful sight.
I know that my Saviour is with her. Although she is a Roman Catholic, she believes that Jesus is Lord and I am thankful for that. Praise God! :) Now, I can only pray and ask God to relieve her pain and to thank God for preparing a place for her in Heaven!
Once again, I just want to thank you guys for remembering her in your prayers! God bless and remember to love your loved ones NOW! Do not wait until she is dying before showing them your tears. Tears are precious... and they are PRECIOUS enough have those tears! Tear when they tell you how much they love you... tear when you receive something from her. :) By the way, tears does not have to be the real tear! It can be just a sincere "Thank you!"
Beloved Grandma
Please pray for my grandma. She is suffering from liver cancer and it is already in advance stage. Doctors said that she only has a few days left. I really do not hope for much. I really just want her to pass on peacefully with minimal pain. Your prayers will be very much appreciated.
It is really different when you see someone close to you suffer. I just went to visit her today. I wept the moment I see her face cringed in pain. I just could not control. This is the first time I have someone dear to me suffering so badly. I have friends who were sick and even one who died but it was not as sad as seeing her, my grandma, suffer. It was really a painful sight.
I know that my Saviour is with her. Although she is a Roman Catholic, she believes that Jesus is Lord and I am thankful for that. Praise God! :) Now, I can only pray and ask God to relieve her pain and to thank God for preparing a place for her in Heaven!
Once again, I just want to thank you guys for remembering her in your prayers! God bless and remember to love your loved ones NOW! Do not wait until she is dying before showing them your tears. Tears are precious... and they are PRECIOUS enough have those tears! Tear when they tell you how much they love you... tear when you receive something from her. :) By the way, tears does not have to be the real tear! It can be just a sincere "Thank you!"
It is really different when you see someone close to you suffer. I just went to visit her today. I wept the moment I see her face cringed in pain. I just could not control. This is the first time I have someone dear to me suffering so badly. I have friends who were sick and even one who died but it was not as sad as seeing her, my grandma, suffer. It was really a painful sight.
I know that my Saviour is with her. Although she is a Roman Catholic, she believes that Jesus is Lord and I am thankful for that. Praise God! :) Now, I can only pray and ask God to relieve her pain and to thank God for preparing a place for her in Heaven!
Once again, I just want to thank you guys for remembering her in your prayers! God bless and remember to love your loved ones NOW! Do not wait until she is dying before showing them your tears. Tears are precious... and they are PRECIOUS enough have those tears! Tear when they tell you how much they love you... tear when you receive something from her. :) By the way, tears does not have to be the real tear! It can be just a sincere "Thank you!"
Friday, February 25, 2005
Sweet sweet revelations
When Moses was called by God to lead God's people out of Egypt, Moses was doubtful. He was not sure if he was able to persuade and command the people. Imagine trying to teach and bring up a child. How easy is that? The child will cry, rebel, commit the same mistakes again and again, and worst still, not appreciating everything that you are doing for him. Therefore, I do not blame Moses for having doubts when he was called by God to lead and command THOUSANDS of people; not just ONE small child but MANY BIG BABIES!
God, who is omniscient, knew about Moses' doubt and fears, encouraged and affirmed Moses that He, who is omnipotent, would be there for him, to guide him and to teach him as he leads His people out of Egypt. Wow! Isn't God great? God did not throw work onto Moses but He asked Moses for his hand. God wanted to work WITH Moses, so that Moses could walk intimately with God that he too, could grow stronger in wisdom and knowledge WITH God and not independent of Him. God promised Moses that He will be with his mouth and teach him what he should say (Ex. 4:12). Wow!!! Isn't that just wonderful?
Many of us, including myself, have difficulties or even no confidence that we will speak eloquently to a small group, let alone a multitude of people. But nowadays, I will tell myself that God will do what He did for Moses; God will teach my mouth how to speak and when to speak; He will circumcise my tongue, disciplining the part of my body where life and death resists in.
Having said so much for the introduction, what I really want to share is the God arranged appointment I had with my uncle when he, my uncle, asked me to go over to his house to help him fix up some problems in his computer. I have always dreaded going over to his place as he will line me up against the stained wall, like a P.OW., take out the bulky and rusty machine gun which he has carried with him for years, one that does not shoot out bullets but spiritual vulgarities. Please don't get me wrong, the vulgarities here are not the ones you hear of everyday; they are just words from the Bible which are being used without proper understanding of the whole context or with the purpose of challenging another Christian in an absence of love.
I just want to make thing clear. My uncle is a GREAT man! I have always respected him because he cares a lot for us, his niece and nephews, and he is always so patient and humble. However, the fact on why he will bring out his “machine gun” is that he does not want us to go to a wrong church, one that does not adhere to the Word of God. Time and time again, I would explain to him why I am attending the church, the one he does not really like, reassuring him that the presence of God is so strong in that church, how the leaders teach and watch over us, only wanting the good for our lives and how powerfully the Holy Spirit flowed in that place. Many times, that conversation of ours does not really end with any agreeable conclusion and it would just fizzle and then the taboo topic will not be brought up again until the next faithful time we meet. Therefore, I can really see where he is coming from and I really appreciate him and thank God for bringing people who care and love us to us, so that there will be people whom we can be accountable to.
However, on Wednesday, during that God arranged appointment, when I was there to fix up his computer; the topic of my church was brought up again! At first, I reckoned that it was going to be another fruitless talk, one where I will just be watching him hurling his spiritual vulgarities at me. But I was wrong! God, being God, had other plans! The Spirit of God was upon me and revelations started to overwhelm me! I was so glad to know that this time round, I would not be the only listening to my uncle but the Holy Spirit was going to listen to him too! Man! At that moment, I knew that it was going to get exciting! Just like before, he asked if I really believe that my church is doctrinally correct, etc. I listened… to him and to the Holy Spirit. I was desperate. I had used my wisdom and knowledge which I had acquired in the School of Theology to answer him in the past but to no avail. This time round, it just felt different, while he was rattling away, I was lost in the forest of revelations which the Holy Spirit was revealing to me.
Praise God for the Promise of the Father! This promise made the Holy Spirit available to us. Now that He is dwelling in us, it gives me no reason not to communicate and have a close friendship with Him. The catch here is although He is in us, He does not force His will onto ours. That is why Bible makes it clear that when WE draw near, He will draw near.
Back to my story, when my uncle finished speaking, I started to share with him what the Holy Spirit had impressed upon my heart. As I began to speak, my eyebrows lifted in sheer amazement. Whatever I shared to my uncle were new revelations which the Holy Spirit had just revealed to me.
One example will be that when we were first born, we do not know what is right or wrong. As we are growing up, we perceive right or wrong according to our own knowledge. Therefore, what is right or what is wrong is being taught to us by others. We by our own knowledge may not have the right set of what is right and what is wrong. That explains the existence of discipline masters, teachers, parents, etc. There are here to guide us and to teach us on such things. Then there are the pastors in church. They are like spiritual parents to us. They are responsible to teach you and to guide you according to how God wants us to live. Thus, if we are stubborn or simply too arrogant to accept corrections, we will always stay as a child… not wanting to learn on what are the TRUE rights and what are the TRUE wrongs. It is only through learning from different people that we will grow on the whole. Life is a journey… one that is filled with lessons. That explains why you fall. When you fall, you will know that there is a bump or a pot0hole on that particular spot of the ground and thus, you will never walk into it again. People who have went through these “pot-holes” will then be able to help and advise on those who have yet to travel down the same path. Therefore, we cannot be so closed up to the point where whatever everyone said is wrong, only you yourself is right. If that happens, that will only show how mature you are.
For example, in the earlier days, when Holy Spirit was not openly preached, no one knew about speaking in tongues, let alone working of miracles in the name of the Lord. But as time progressing, people started to learn from the leaders, who in turn learnt from the Holy Spirit. Say, if they were not willing to learn or to change, do you think that there will be great healing miracles now? There may not even be a Benny Hinn.
To the extent you are willing to open up your mind, is the extent your strength or power will be.
If you can think big and not be limited by your own puny, little mind, then you will be able to grow exponentially. But when you close yourself up, not willing to learn or hear from others, you may miss on the important lessons in life. Worst still, you may even miss out on God’s plan for you in your life!
I really had a long talk with my uncle and words really describe how wonderful the whole session was. For once, the Word of God cut into him and he was lost for words too. It made him realized that it is not how much we think we know about the Bible but it is how open our heart is to the Word of God. The more our hearts are open, the more revelations will be revealed to us through the Holy Spirit. I have other revelations too but I think I will share them again… as it is getting late. Remember to drink from the Holy Spirit daily.
Let’s continue to fight the fight of FAITH; never stop running the race of FAITH.
God, who is omniscient, knew about Moses' doubt and fears, encouraged and affirmed Moses that He, who is omnipotent, would be there for him, to guide him and to teach him as he leads His people out of Egypt. Wow! Isn't God great? God did not throw work onto Moses but He asked Moses for his hand. God wanted to work WITH Moses, so that Moses could walk intimately with God that he too, could grow stronger in wisdom and knowledge WITH God and not independent of Him. God promised Moses that He will be with his mouth and teach him what he should say (Ex. 4:12). Wow!!! Isn't that just wonderful?
Many of us, including myself, have difficulties or even no confidence that we will speak eloquently to a small group, let alone a multitude of people. But nowadays, I will tell myself that God will do what He did for Moses; God will teach my mouth how to speak and when to speak; He will circumcise my tongue, disciplining the part of my body where life and death resists in.
Having said so much for the introduction, what I really want to share is the God arranged appointment I had with my uncle when he, my uncle, asked me to go over to his house to help him fix up some problems in his computer. I have always dreaded going over to his place as he will line me up against the stained wall, like a P.OW., take out the bulky and rusty machine gun which he has carried with him for years, one that does not shoot out bullets but spiritual vulgarities. Please don't get me wrong, the vulgarities here are not the ones you hear of everyday; they are just words from the Bible which are being used without proper understanding of the whole context or with the purpose of challenging another Christian in an absence of love.
I just want to make thing clear. My uncle is a GREAT man! I have always respected him because he cares a lot for us, his niece and nephews, and he is always so patient and humble. However, the fact on why he will bring out his “machine gun” is that he does not want us to go to a wrong church, one that does not adhere to the Word of God. Time and time again, I would explain to him why I am attending the church, the one he does not really like, reassuring him that the presence of God is so strong in that church, how the leaders teach and watch over us, only wanting the good for our lives and how powerfully the Holy Spirit flowed in that place. Many times, that conversation of ours does not really end with any agreeable conclusion and it would just fizzle and then the taboo topic will not be brought up again until the next faithful time we meet. Therefore, I can really see where he is coming from and I really appreciate him and thank God for bringing people who care and love us to us, so that there will be people whom we can be accountable to.
However, on Wednesday, during that God arranged appointment, when I was there to fix up his computer; the topic of my church was brought up again! At first, I reckoned that it was going to be another fruitless talk, one where I will just be watching him hurling his spiritual vulgarities at me. But I was wrong! God, being God, had other plans! The Spirit of God was upon me and revelations started to overwhelm me! I was so glad to know that this time round, I would not be the only listening to my uncle but the Holy Spirit was going to listen to him too! Man! At that moment, I knew that it was going to get exciting! Just like before, he asked if I really believe that my church is doctrinally correct, etc. I listened… to him and to the Holy Spirit. I was desperate. I had used my wisdom and knowledge which I had acquired in the School of Theology to answer him in the past but to no avail. This time round, it just felt different, while he was rattling away, I was lost in the forest of revelations which the Holy Spirit was revealing to me.
Praise God for the Promise of the Father! This promise made the Holy Spirit available to us. Now that He is dwelling in us, it gives me no reason not to communicate and have a close friendship with Him. The catch here is although He is in us, He does not force His will onto ours. That is why Bible makes it clear that when WE draw near, He will draw near.
Back to my story, when my uncle finished speaking, I started to share with him what the Holy Spirit had impressed upon my heart. As I began to speak, my eyebrows lifted in sheer amazement. Whatever I shared to my uncle were new revelations which the Holy Spirit had just revealed to me.
One example will be that when we were first born, we do not know what is right or wrong. As we are growing up, we perceive right or wrong according to our own knowledge. Therefore, what is right or what is wrong is being taught to us by others. We by our own knowledge may not have the right set of what is right and what is wrong. That explains the existence of discipline masters, teachers, parents, etc. There are here to guide us and to teach us on such things. Then there are the pastors in church. They are like spiritual parents to us. They are responsible to teach you and to guide you according to how God wants us to live. Thus, if we are stubborn or simply too arrogant to accept corrections, we will always stay as a child… not wanting to learn on what are the TRUE rights and what are the TRUE wrongs. It is only through learning from different people that we will grow on the whole. Life is a journey… one that is filled with lessons. That explains why you fall. When you fall, you will know that there is a bump or a pot0hole on that particular spot of the ground and thus, you will never walk into it again. People who have went through these “pot-holes” will then be able to help and advise on those who have yet to travel down the same path. Therefore, we cannot be so closed up to the point where whatever everyone said is wrong, only you yourself is right. If that happens, that will only show how mature you are.
For example, in the earlier days, when Holy Spirit was not openly preached, no one knew about speaking in tongues, let alone working of miracles in the name of the Lord. But as time progressing, people started to learn from the leaders, who in turn learnt from the Holy Spirit. Say, if they were not willing to learn or to change, do you think that there will be great healing miracles now? There may not even be a Benny Hinn.
To the extent you are willing to open up your mind, is the extent your strength or power will be.
If you can think big and not be limited by your own puny, little mind, then you will be able to grow exponentially. But when you close yourself up, not willing to learn or hear from others, you may miss on the important lessons in life. Worst still, you may even miss out on God’s plan for you in your life!
I really had a long talk with my uncle and words really describe how wonderful the whole session was. For once, the Word of God cut into him and he was lost for words too. It made him realized that it is not how much we think we know about the Bible but it is how open our heart is to the Word of God. The more our hearts are open, the more revelations will be revealed to us through the Holy Spirit. I have other revelations too but I think I will share them again… as it is getting late. Remember to drink from the Holy Spirit daily.
Let’s continue to fight the fight of FAITH; never stop running the race of FAITH.
Sweet sweet revelations
When Moses was called by God to lead God's people out of Egypt, Moses was doubtful. He was not sure if he was able to persuade and command the people. Imagine trying to teach and bring up a child. How easy is that? The child will cry, rebel, commit the same mistakes again and again, and worst still, not appreciating everything that you are doing for him. Therefore, I do not blame Moses for having doubts when he was called by God to lead and command THOUSANDS of people; not just ONE small child but MANY BIG BABIES!
God, who is omniscient, knew about Moses' doubt and fears, encouraged and affirmed Moses that He, who is omnipotent, would be there for him, to guide him and to teach him as he leads His people out of Egypt. Wow! Isn't God great? God did not throw work onto Moses but He asked Moses for his hand. God wanted to work WITH Moses, so that Moses could walk intimately with God that he too, could grow stronger in wisdom and knowledge WITH God and not independent of Him. God promised Moses that He will be with his mouth and teach him what he should say (Ex. 4:12). Wow!!! Isn't that just wonderful?
Many of us, including myself, have difficulties or even no confidence that we will speak eloquently to a small group, let alone a multitude of people. But nowadays, I will tell myself that God will do what He did for Moses; God will teach my mouth how to speak and when to speak; He will circumcise my tongue, disciplining the part of my body where life and death resists in.
Having said so much for the introduction, what I really want to share is the God arranged appointment I had with my uncle when he, my uncle, asked me to go over to his house to help him fix up some problems in his computer. I have always dreaded going over to his place as he will line me up against the stained wall, like a P.OW., take out the bulky and rusty machine gun which he has carried with him for years, one that does not shoot out bullets but spiritual vulgarities. Please don't get me wrong, the vulgarities here are not the ones you hear of everyday; they are just words from the Bible which are being used without proper understanding of the whole context or with the purpose of challenging another Christian in an absence of love.
I just want to make thing clear. My uncle is a GREAT man! I have always respected him because he cares a lot for us, his niece and nephews, and he is always so patient and humble. However, the fact on why he will bring out his “machine gun” is that he does not want us to go to a wrong church, one that does not adhere to the Word of God. Time and time again, I would explain to him why I am attending the church, the one he does not really like, reassuring him that the presence of God is so strong in that church, how the leaders teach and watch over us, only wanting the good for our lives and how powerfully the Holy Spirit flowed in that place. Many times, that conversation of ours does not really end with any agreeable conclusion and it would just fizzle and then the taboo topic will not be brought up again until the next faithful time we meet. Therefore, I can really see where he is coming from and I really appreciate him and thank God for bringing people who care and love us to us, so that there will be people whom we can be accountable to.
However, on Wednesday, during that God arranged appointment, when I was there to fix up his computer; the topic of my church was brought up again! At first, I reckoned that it was going to be another fruitless talk, one where I will just be watching him hurling his spiritual vulgarities at me. But I was wrong! God, being God, had other plans! The Spirit of God was upon me and revelations started to overwhelm me! I was so glad to know that this time round, I would not be the only listening to my uncle but the Holy Spirit was going to listen to him too! Man! At that moment, I knew that it was going to get exciting! Just like before, he asked if I really believe that my church is doctrinally correct, etc. I listened… to him and to the Holy Spirit. I was desperate. I had used my wisdom and knowledge which I had acquired in the School of Theology to answer him in the past but to no avail. This time round, it just felt different, while he was rattling away, I was lost in the forest of revelations which the Holy Spirit was revealing to me.
Praise God for the Promise of the Father! This promise made the Holy Spirit available to us. Now that He is dwelling in us, it gives me no reason not to communicate and have a close friendship with Him. The catch here is although He is in us, He does not force His will onto ours. That is why Bible makes it clear that when WE draw near, He will draw near.
Back to my story, when my uncle finished speaking, I started to share with him what the Holy Spirit had impressed upon my heart. As I began to speak, my eyebrows lifted in sheer amazement. Whatever I shared to my uncle were new revelations which the Holy Spirit had just revealed to me.
One example will be that when we were first born, we do not know what is right or wrong. As we are growing up, we perceive right or wrong according to our own knowledge. Therefore, what is right or what is wrong is being taught to us by others. We by our own knowledge may not have the right set of what is right and what is wrong. That explains the existence of discipline masters, teachers, parents, etc. There are here to guide us and to teach us on such things. Then there are the pastors in church. They are like spiritual parents to us. They are responsible to teach you and to guide you according to how God wants us to live. Thus, if we are stubborn or simply too arrogant to accept corrections, we will always stay as a child… not wanting to learn on what are the TRUE rights and what are the TRUE wrongs. It is only through learning from different people that we will grow on the whole. Life is a journey… one that is filled with lessons. That explains why you fall. When you fall, you will know that there is a bump or a pot0hole on that particular spot of the ground and thus, you will never walk into it again. People who have went through these “pot-holes” will then be able to help and advise on those who have yet to travel down the same path. Therefore, we cannot be so closed up to the point where whatever everyone said is wrong, only you yourself is right. If that happens, that will only show how mature you are.
For example, in the earlier days, when Holy Spirit was not openly preached, no one knew about speaking in tongues, let alone working of miracles in the name of the Lord. But as time progressing, people started to learn from the leaders, who in turn learnt from the Holy Spirit. Say, if they were not willing to learn or to change, do you think that there will be great healing miracles now? There may not even be a Benny Hinn.
To the extent you are willing to open up your mind, is the extent your strength or power will be.
If you can think big and not be limited by your own puny, little mind, then you will be able to grow exponentially. But when you close yourself up, not willing to learn or hear from others, you may miss on the important lessons in life. Worst still, you may even miss out on God’s plan for you in your life!
I really had a long talk with my uncle and words really describe how wonderful the whole session was. For once, the Word of God cut into him and he was lost for words too. It made him realized that it is not how much we think we know about the Bible but it is how open our heart is to the Word of God. The more our hearts are open, the more revelations will be revealed to us through the Holy Spirit. I have other revelations too but I think I will share them again… as it is getting late. Remember to drink from the Holy Spirit daily.
Let’s continue to fight the fight of FAITH; never stop running the race of FAITH.
God, who is omniscient, knew about Moses' doubt and fears, encouraged and affirmed Moses that He, who is omnipotent, would be there for him, to guide him and to teach him as he leads His people out of Egypt. Wow! Isn't God great? God did not throw work onto Moses but He asked Moses for his hand. God wanted to work WITH Moses, so that Moses could walk intimately with God that he too, could grow stronger in wisdom and knowledge WITH God and not independent of Him. God promised Moses that He will be with his mouth and teach him what he should say (Ex. 4:12). Wow!!! Isn't that just wonderful?
Many of us, including myself, have difficulties or even no confidence that we will speak eloquently to a small group, let alone a multitude of people. But nowadays, I will tell myself that God will do what He did for Moses; God will teach my mouth how to speak and when to speak; He will circumcise my tongue, disciplining the part of my body where life and death resists in.
Having said so much for the introduction, what I really want to share is the God arranged appointment I had with my uncle when he, my uncle, asked me to go over to his house to help him fix up some problems in his computer. I have always dreaded going over to his place as he will line me up against the stained wall, like a P.OW., take out the bulky and rusty machine gun which he has carried with him for years, one that does not shoot out bullets but spiritual vulgarities. Please don't get me wrong, the vulgarities here are not the ones you hear of everyday; they are just words from the Bible which are being used without proper understanding of the whole context or with the purpose of challenging another Christian in an absence of love.
I just want to make thing clear. My uncle is a GREAT man! I have always respected him because he cares a lot for us, his niece and nephews, and he is always so patient and humble. However, the fact on why he will bring out his “machine gun” is that he does not want us to go to a wrong church, one that does not adhere to the Word of God. Time and time again, I would explain to him why I am attending the church, the one he does not really like, reassuring him that the presence of God is so strong in that church, how the leaders teach and watch over us, only wanting the good for our lives and how powerfully the Holy Spirit flowed in that place. Many times, that conversation of ours does not really end with any agreeable conclusion and it would just fizzle and then the taboo topic will not be brought up again until the next faithful time we meet. Therefore, I can really see where he is coming from and I really appreciate him and thank God for bringing people who care and love us to us, so that there will be people whom we can be accountable to.
However, on Wednesday, during that God arranged appointment, when I was there to fix up his computer; the topic of my church was brought up again! At first, I reckoned that it was going to be another fruitless talk, one where I will just be watching him hurling his spiritual vulgarities at me. But I was wrong! God, being God, had other plans! The Spirit of God was upon me and revelations started to overwhelm me! I was so glad to know that this time round, I would not be the only listening to my uncle but the Holy Spirit was going to listen to him too! Man! At that moment, I knew that it was going to get exciting! Just like before, he asked if I really believe that my church is doctrinally correct, etc. I listened… to him and to the Holy Spirit. I was desperate. I had used my wisdom and knowledge which I had acquired in the School of Theology to answer him in the past but to no avail. This time round, it just felt different, while he was rattling away, I was lost in the forest of revelations which the Holy Spirit was revealing to me.
Praise God for the Promise of the Father! This promise made the Holy Spirit available to us. Now that He is dwelling in us, it gives me no reason not to communicate and have a close friendship with Him. The catch here is although He is in us, He does not force His will onto ours. That is why Bible makes it clear that when WE draw near, He will draw near.
Back to my story, when my uncle finished speaking, I started to share with him what the Holy Spirit had impressed upon my heart. As I began to speak, my eyebrows lifted in sheer amazement. Whatever I shared to my uncle were new revelations which the Holy Spirit had just revealed to me.
One example will be that when we were first born, we do not know what is right or wrong. As we are growing up, we perceive right or wrong according to our own knowledge. Therefore, what is right or what is wrong is being taught to us by others. We by our own knowledge may not have the right set of what is right and what is wrong. That explains the existence of discipline masters, teachers, parents, etc. There are here to guide us and to teach us on such things. Then there are the pastors in church. They are like spiritual parents to us. They are responsible to teach you and to guide you according to how God wants us to live. Thus, if we are stubborn or simply too arrogant to accept corrections, we will always stay as a child… not wanting to learn on what are the TRUE rights and what are the TRUE wrongs. It is only through learning from different people that we will grow on the whole. Life is a journey… one that is filled with lessons. That explains why you fall. When you fall, you will know that there is a bump or a pot0hole on that particular spot of the ground and thus, you will never walk into it again. People who have went through these “pot-holes” will then be able to help and advise on those who have yet to travel down the same path. Therefore, we cannot be so closed up to the point where whatever everyone said is wrong, only you yourself is right. If that happens, that will only show how mature you are.
For example, in the earlier days, when Holy Spirit was not openly preached, no one knew about speaking in tongues, let alone working of miracles in the name of the Lord. But as time progressing, people started to learn from the leaders, who in turn learnt from the Holy Spirit. Say, if they were not willing to learn or to change, do you think that there will be great healing miracles now? There may not even be a Benny Hinn.
To the extent you are willing to open up your mind, is the extent your strength or power will be.
If you can think big and not be limited by your own puny, little mind, then you will be able to grow exponentially. But when you close yourself up, not willing to learn or hear from others, you may miss on the important lessons in life. Worst still, you may even miss out on God’s plan for you in your life!
I really had a long talk with my uncle and words really describe how wonderful the whole session was. For once, the Word of God cut into him and he was lost for words too. It made him realized that it is not how much we think we know about the Bible but it is how open our heart is to the Word of God. The more our hearts are open, the more revelations will be revealed to us through the Holy Spirit. I have other revelations too but I think I will share them again… as it is getting late. Remember to drink from the Holy Spirit daily.
Let’s continue to fight the fight of FAITH; never stop running the race of FAITH.
Wednesday, February 23, 2005
Beauty of prints on trees... Simply inspiring!
Books I am reading now:
1) Drawing Near (Rev. John Bevere)
A book filled with revelations... :) very good. It really makes me wanna draw nearer to the Creator... to love Him with the simplest and purest of intentions; to pursue something which is so beautiful... a relationship many people see it hard having... You got to read it. It will be even better if you can get hold of the CD series!
2) 5 People You Meet In Heaven (Mitch Albom)
Heart warming and encouraging too.... really makes me see life in a new perspective! Some of the quotes are really mind-blowing and inspiring. God was not mentioned intensively here in this book but God was certainly a BIG part in the make up of the book.
"Sometimes when you sacrifice something precious, you're not really losing it. You're just passing it on to someone else."
5 People You Meet In Heaven
1) Drawing Near (Rev. John Bevere)
A book filled with revelations... :) very good. It really makes me wanna draw nearer to the Creator... to love Him with the simplest and purest of intentions; to pursue something which is so beautiful... a relationship many people see it hard having... You got to read it. It will be even better if you can get hold of the CD series!
2) 5 People You Meet In Heaven (Mitch Albom)
Heart warming and encouraging too.... really makes me see life in a new perspective! Some of the quotes are really mind-blowing and inspiring. God was not mentioned intensively here in this book but God was certainly a BIG part in the make up of the book.
"Sometimes when you sacrifice something precious, you're not really losing it. You're just passing it on to someone else."
5 People You Meet In Heaven
Beauty of prints on trees... Simply inspiring!
Books I am reading now:
1) Drawing Near (Rev. John Bevere)
A book filled with revelations... :) very good. It really makes me wanna draw nearer to the Creator... to love Him with the simplest and purest of intentions; to pursue something which is so beautiful... a relationship many people see it hard having... You got to read it. It will be even better if you can get hold of the CD series!
2) 5 People You Meet In Heaven (Mitch Albom)
Heart warming and encouraging too.... really makes me see life in a new perspective! Some of the quotes are really mind-blowing and inspiring. God was not mentioned intensively here in this book but God was certainly a BIG part in the make up of the book.
"Sometimes when you sacrifice something precious, you're not really losing it. You're just passing it on to someone else."
5 People You Meet In Heaven
1) Drawing Near (Rev. John Bevere)
A book filled with revelations... :) very good. It really makes me wanna draw nearer to the Creator... to love Him with the simplest and purest of intentions; to pursue something which is so beautiful... a relationship many people see it hard having... You got to read it. It will be even better if you can get hold of the CD series!
2) 5 People You Meet In Heaven (Mitch Albom)
Heart warming and encouraging too.... really makes me see life in a new perspective! Some of the quotes are really mind-blowing and inspiring. God was not mentioned intensively here in this book but God was certainly a BIG part in the make up of the book.
"Sometimes when you sacrifice something precious, you're not really losing it. You're just passing it on to someone else."
5 People You Meet In Heaven
Saturday, February 05, 2005
Sweet poem...
The girl of my life I have not met yet...
I love a girl,
Oh, so much.
I love her soft,
tender touch,
Her soft lips,
Beautiful eyes
Glistening off
The morning sunrise.
We watch the sunrise
And the sunset.
But this girl
I've never met.
In my dreams
She is so real.
It's just the way
She makes me feel.
If I could meet
A girl like this,
Her every move
I would not miss.
This girl would be,
Oh, so sweet
Holding my hand,
Walking down the street.
She could tell me she loves me
In front of her friends,
Saying what we have
Will never end.
But if it does,
We'll stay together
Just as friends
Always and forever.
This is the girl
I want forever.
If you can find her,
Tell her... I love her.
I love a girl,
Oh, so much.
I love her soft,
tender touch,
Her soft lips,
Beautiful eyes
Glistening off
The morning sunrise.
We watch the sunrise
And the sunset.
But this girl
I've never met.
In my dreams
She is so real.
It's just the way
She makes me feel.
If I could meet
A girl like this,
Her every move
I would not miss.
This girl would be,
Oh, so sweet
Holding my hand,
Walking down the street.
She could tell me she loves me
In front of her friends,
Saying what we have
Will never end.
But if it does,
We'll stay together
Just as friends
Always and forever.
This is the girl
I want forever.
If you can find her,
Tell her... I love her.
Sweet poem...
The girl of my life I have not met yet...
I love a girl,
Oh, so much.
I love her soft,
tender touch,
Her soft lips,
Beautiful eyes
Glistening off
The morning sunrise.
We watch the sunrise
And the sunset.
But this girl
I've never met.
In my dreams
She is so real.
It's just the way
She makes me feel.
If I could meet
A girl like this,
Her every move
I would not miss.
This girl would be,
Oh, so sweet
Holding my hand,
Walking down the street.
She could tell me she loves me
In front of her friends,
Saying what we have
Will never end.
But if it does,
We'll stay together
Just as friends
Always and forever.
This is the girl
I want forever.
If you can find her,
Tell her... I love her.
I love a girl,
Oh, so much.
I love her soft,
tender touch,
Her soft lips,
Beautiful eyes
Glistening off
The morning sunrise.
We watch the sunrise
And the sunset.
But this girl
I've never met.
In my dreams
She is so real.
It's just the way
She makes me feel.
If I could meet
A girl like this,
Her every move
I would not miss.
This girl would be,
Oh, so sweet
Holding my hand,
Walking down the street.
She could tell me she loves me
In front of her friends,
Saying what we have
Will never end.
But if it does,
We'll stay together
Just as friends
Always and forever.
This is the girl
I want forever.
If you can find her,
Tell her... I love her.
Friday, February 04, 2005
How wonderful God moves...
I have really been sharing so much about wanting to follow God, to live in His ways... learning how to be closer to Him! Guess what? God brought a powerful preacher to service this week, to share on a message that really blew me off! It was really God speaking to me... How wonderful is He! The way He uses people to touch lives! Praise God for His thoughts are highers than ours!
I believe tonight is indeed a gateway to the next level in my life. Praise God! Praises all to Him! You got to get hold Rev. John Bevere's CD titled "Drawing Near." I just got one; walking out of church knowing that I have just got a great investment on hand! The following weeks are going to be truly blessed! Cannot imagine how my life is going to change... letting God move me and mould me through Rev. Bevere's materials. He is one humble man... He is indeed one of my favourite preacher! Praise God for rising up godly man... man who are after His own heart... humble people! Praise God!
I believe tonight is indeed a gateway to the next level in my life. Praise God! Praises all to Him! You got to get hold Rev. John Bevere's CD titled "Drawing Near." I just got one; walking out of church knowing that I have just got a great investment on hand! The following weeks are going to be truly blessed! Cannot imagine how my life is going to change... letting God move me and mould me through Rev. Bevere's materials. He is one humble man... He is indeed one of my favourite preacher! Praise God for rising up godly man... man who are after His own heart... humble people! Praise God!
How wonderful God moves...
I have really been sharing so much about wanting to follow God, to live in His ways... learning how to be closer to Him! Guess what? God brought a powerful preacher to service this week, to share on a message that really blew me off! It was really God speaking to me... How wonderful is He! The way He uses people to touch lives! Praise God for His thoughts are highers than ours!
I believe tonight is indeed a gateway to the next level in my life. Praise God! Praises all to Him! You got to get hold Rev. John Bevere's CD titled "Drawing Near." I just got one; walking out of church knowing that I have just got a great investment on hand! The following weeks are going to be truly blessed! Cannot imagine how my life is going to change... letting God move me and mould me through Rev. Bevere's materials. He is one humble man... He is indeed one of my favourite preacher! Praise God for rising up godly man... man who are after His own heart... humble people! Praise God!
I believe tonight is indeed a gateway to the next level in my life. Praise God! Praises all to Him! You got to get hold Rev. John Bevere's CD titled "Drawing Near." I just got one; walking out of church knowing that I have just got a great investment on hand! The following weeks are going to be truly blessed! Cannot imagine how my life is going to change... letting God move me and mould me through Rev. Bevere's materials. He is one humble man... He is indeed one of my favourite preacher! Praise God for rising up godly man... man who are after His own heart... humble people! Praise God!
Enough is enough!
I HATE YOU!
I can't believe that these three words are coming out from my mouth... Especially to someone who is SO close to me... someone who was always there when I was down; someone who shared my joy together with me! We laughed together, cried together, man... we even dream together!
During our happier days, before I met Someone better, we would always go about our daily activities without even stopping to think about others! It had always been US! We really enjoyed what we did together. Whatever we wanted, we would just go ahead and do it! Which ever girl we laid our eyes on, we would discuss strategies on how we could get hold of a place in her heart! We had our fun! We really did! If you were to ask me, I would say that he was my Best-est Friend! My laughing partner, a buddy and a forever obliging shopping companion!
But of late, we have been quarrelling frequently... We just can't seem to see eye to eye on ALOT of matters! This is really frustrating! I hate the fact that someone whom I grew up with can no longer understand me! He can no longer anticipate what I want to do next. In fact, he has always been asking me to accommodate him! I really had enough! He and his nonsense, his stupid excuses! He really has thousand and one ways of justifying his wants! What about my wants? Don't I have a life? As you can see, things are not running smoothly in this relationship. Waves are starting to turn into tsunamis... Rain drops are transforming into hailstorms... even the walls are falling apart!
You may think that we can compromise but we tried that... Ever heard of “Been there, done that, bought a T-shirt, taken a photograph!" It is just not going to work. It is either him or me! I don't think we can co-exist! If I want my kind of life then he is not going to be in the picture! We are mutually exclusive! Gone are the days where we enjoyed each other's company. My grip on our "funs" of the past is loosening... Someone is pulling me away from him. Someone I cannot resist. Someone who loves me more than him! Someone who is even willing to sacrifice for me... I hope I am not been heartless. I believe that there must come a time when we must part.
As I am writing this, he is here... looking at it while I am typing. How awkward and weird can that be? Tears start to form in his eyes... and I can see that he is agitated. However, I am surprised that I am nonchalant! This is the first time I am feeling so unconcerned about wanting to let go of a relationship that had so many memories! I used to wail when a girl whom my heart wants to be with, thinks that we should not be together anymore because I am too quiet for her. I really hated those moments... I could have filled numerous of buckets with my tears! Who says that man does not cry? We do! In our own private world, we will cry and shout! We will bang the walls of our castle! We will even chop of the trees in our garden!! I admit that sometimes, we even sob like babies! That is who we are... M-A-N!
This time round, it is so different. Everything is so serene! Instead, I am looking forward to the days without him, my long time sidekick; a childhood friend. This is one relationship which I think is long overdue. Moulds are starting to form and a stench can be smelled miles away! You may think that I will regret! You may think that I am losing someone who knows me best, someone who knows exactly what I always want! On that, I can safely beseech you to trust in my judgments! Yes... for once, I am really confident that the absent of him will indeed make my life a heaven on earth! No more screams down my ear drum! No more pulling of my hair! I don't to be a tag-along anymore! Now, I can wander on the path that is already in front of me... one that was mapped out for me even before I make this decision to go down that path! You may think that I will be lonely without! Ha! That is one thing that did not cross my mind!
I am free now! Walking down this path where in front of me lays beautiful flowers, trees that are gigantic and a light that is shining so brightly at the end of the road. Now is the time, I am letting his hand off me completely. I am not sorry for doing that. I love him too much to want to hang on to him! He got to go now. We are not two and not one. It is official! Goodbye my flesh! We did have our "fun" but my definition for fun has really changed! You are no longer the source of my joy... Please respect my decision and stop clinging on to me... Let me build my new world with my Savior, One who cares about how I feel and One who truly understands me! Don't worry. I am in good hands. Just to assure you, the devil is going to be His footstool soon, so just cheer up and release me for my good! I am running without you anymore! Goodbye...
I can't believe that these three words are coming out from my mouth... Especially to someone who is SO close to me... someone who was always there when I was down; someone who shared my joy together with me! We laughed together, cried together, man... we even dream together!
During our happier days, before I met Someone better, we would always go about our daily activities without even stopping to think about others! It had always been US! We really enjoyed what we did together. Whatever we wanted, we would just go ahead and do it! Which ever girl we laid our eyes on, we would discuss strategies on how we could get hold of a place in her heart! We had our fun! We really did! If you were to ask me, I would say that he was my Best-est Friend! My laughing partner, a buddy and a forever obliging shopping companion!
But of late, we have been quarrelling frequently... We just can't seem to see eye to eye on ALOT of matters! This is really frustrating! I hate the fact that someone whom I grew up with can no longer understand me! He can no longer anticipate what I want to do next. In fact, he has always been asking me to accommodate him! I really had enough! He and his nonsense, his stupid excuses! He really has thousand and one ways of justifying his wants! What about my wants? Don't I have a life? As you can see, things are not running smoothly in this relationship. Waves are starting to turn into tsunamis... Rain drops are transforming into hailstorms... even the walls are falling apart!
You may think that we can compromise but we tried that... Ever heard of “Been there, done that, bought a T-shirt, taken a photograph!" It is just not going to work. It is either him or me! I don't think we can co-exist! If I want my kind of life then he is not going to be in the picture! We are mutually exclusive! Gone are the days where we enjoyed each other's company. My grip on our "funs" of the past is loosening... Someone is pulling me away from him. Someone I cannot resist. Someone who loves me more than him! Someone who is even willing to sacrifice for me... I hope I am not been heartless. I believe that there must come a time when we must part.
As I am writing this, he is here... looking at it while I am typing. How awkward and weird can that be? Tears start to form in his eyes... and I can see that he is agitated. However, I am surprised that I am nonchalant! This is the first time I am feeling so unconcerned about wanting to let go of a relationship that had so many memories! I used to wail when a girl whom my heart wants to be with, thinks that we should not be together anymore because I am too quiet for her. I really hated those moments... I could have filled numerous of buckets with my tears! Who says that man does not cry? We do! In our own private world, we will cry and shout! We will bang the walls of our castle! We will even chop of the trees in our garden!! I admit that sometimes, we even sob like babies! That is who we are... M-A-N!
This time round, it is so different. Everything is so serene! Instead, I am looking forward to the days without him, my long time sidekick; a childhood friend. This is one relationship which I think is long overdue. Moulds are starting to form and a stench can be smelled miles away! You may think that I will regret! You may think that I am losing someone who knows me best, someone who knows exactly what I always want! On that, I can safely beseech you to trust in my judgments! Yes... for once, I am really confident that the absent of him will indeed make my life a heaven on earth! No more screams down my ear drum! No more pulling of my hair! I don't to be a tag-along anymore! Now, I can wander on the path that is already in front of me... one that was mapped out for me even before I make this decision to go down that path! You may think that I will be lonely without! Ha! That is one thing that did not cross my mind!
I am free now! Walking down this path where in front of me lays beautiful flowers, trees that are gigantic and a light that is shining so brightly at the end of the road. Now is the time, I am letting his hand off me completely. I am not sorry for doing that. I love him too much to want to hang on to him! He got to go now. We are not two and not one. It is official! Goodbye my flesh! We did have our "fun" but my definition for fun has really changed! You are no longer the source of my joy... Please respect my decision and stop clinging on to me... Let me build my new world with my Savior, One who cares about how I feel and One who truly understands me! Don't worry. I am in good hands. Just to assure you, the devil is going to be His footstool soon, so just cheer up and release me for my good! I am running without you anymore! Goodbye...
Enough is enough!
I HATE YOU!
I can't believe that these three words are coming out from my mouth... Especially to someone who is SO close to me... someone who was always there when I was down; someone who shared my joy together with me! We laughed together, cried together, man... we even dream together!
During our happier days, before I met Someone better, we would always go about our daily activities without even stopping to think about others! It had always been US! We really enjoyed what we did together. Whatever we wanted, we would just go ahead and do it! Which ever girl we laid our eyes on, we would discuss strategies on how we could get hold of a place in her heart! We had our fun! We really did! If you were to ask me, I would say that he was my Best-est Friend! My laughing partner, a buddy and a forever obliging shopping companion!
But of late, we have been quarrelling frequently... We just can't seem to see eye to eye on ALOT of matters! This is really frustrating! I hate the fact that someone whom I grew up with can no longer understand me! He can no longer anticipate what I want to do next. In fact, he has always been asking me to accommodate him! I really had enough! He and his nonsense, his stupid excuses! He really has thousand and one ways of justifying his wants! What about my wants? Don't I have a life? As you can see, things are not running smoothly in this relationship. Waves are starting to turn into tsunamis... Rain drops are transforming into hailstorms... even the walls are falling apart!
You may think that we can compromise but we tried that... Ever heard of “Been there, done that, bought a T-shirt, taken a photograph!" It is just not going to work. It is either him or me! I don't think we can co-exist! If I want my kind of life then he is not going to be in the picture! We are mutually exclusive! Gone are the days where we enjoyed each other's company. My grip on our "funs" of the past is loosening... Someone is pulling me away from him. Someone I cannot resist. Someone who loves me more than him! Someone who is even willing to sacrifice for me... I hope I am not been heartless. I believe that there must come a time when we must part.
As I am writing this, he is here... looking at it while I am typing. How awkward and weird can that be? Tears start to form in his eyes... and I can see that he is agitated. However, I am surprised that I am nonchalant! This is the first time I am feeling so unconcerned about wanting to let go of a relationship that had so many memories! I used to wail when a girl whom my heart wants to be with, thinks that we should not be together anymore because I am too quiet for her. I really hated those moments... I could have filled numerous of buckets with my tears! Who says that man does not cry? We do! In our own private world, we will cry and shout! We will bang the walls of our castle! We will even chop of the trees in our garden!! I admit that sometimes, we even sob like babies! That is who we are... M-A-N!
This time round, it is so different. Everything is so serene! Instead, I am looking forward to the days without him, my long time sidekick; a childhood friend. This is one relationship which I think is long overdue. Moulds are starting to form and a stench can be smelled miles away! You may think that I will regret! You may think that I am losing someone who knows me best, someone who knows exactly what I always want! On that, I can safely beseech you to trust in my judgments! Yes... for once, I am really confident that the absent of him will indeed make my life a heaven on earth! No more screams down my ear drum! No more pulling of my hair! I don't to be a tag-along anymore! Now, I can wander on the path that is already in front of me... one that was mapped out for me even before I make this decision to go down that path! You may think that I will be lonely without! Ha! That is one thing that did not cross my mind!
I am free now! Walking down this path where in front of me lays beautiful flowers, trees that are gigantic and a light that is shining so brightly at the end of the road. Now is the time, I am letting his hand off me completely. I am not sorry for doing that. I love him too much to want to hang on to him! He got to go now. We are not two and not one. It is official! Goodbye my flesh! We did have our "fun" but my definition for fun has really changed! You are no longer the source of my joy... Please respect my decision and stop clinging on to me... Let me build my new world with my Savior, One who cares about how I feel and One who truly understands me! Don't worry. I am in good hands. Just to assure you, the devil is going to be His footstool soon, so just cheer up and release me for my good! I am running without you anymore! Goodbye...
I can't believe that these three words are coming out from my mouth... Especially to someone who is SO close to me... someone who was always there when I was down; someone who shared my joy together with me! We laughed together, cried together, man... we even dream together!
During our happier days, before I met Someone better, we would always go about our daily activities without even stopping to think about others! It had always been US! We really enjoyed what we did together. Whatever we wanted, we would just go ahead and do it! Which ever girl we laid our eyes on, we would discuss strategies on how we could get hold of a place in her heart! We had our fun! We really did! If you were to ask me, I would say that he was my Best-est Friend! My laughing partner, a buddy and a forever obliging shopping companion!
But of late, we have been quarrelling frequently... We just can't seem to see eye to eye on ALOT of matters! This is really frustrating! I hate the fact that someone whom I grew up with can no longer understand me! He can no longer anticipate what I want to do next. In fact, he has always been asking me to accommodate him! I really had enough! He and his nonsense, his stupid excuses! He really has thousand and one ways of justifying his wants! What about my wants? Don't I have a life? As you can see, things are not running smoothly in this relationship. Waves are starting to turn into tsunamis... Rain drops are transforming into hailstorms... even the walls are falling apart!
You may think that we can compromise but we tried that... Ever heard of “Been there, done that, bought a T-shirt, taken a photograph!" It is just not going to work. It is either him or me! I don't think we can co-exist! If I want my kind of life then he is not going to be in the picture! We are mutually exclusive! Gone are the days where we enjoyed each other's company. My grip on our "funs" of the past is loosening... Someone is pulling me away from him. Someone I cannot resist. Someone who loves me more than him! Someone who is even willing to sacrifice for me... I hope I am not been heartless. I believe that there must come a time when we must part.
As I am writing this, he is here... looking at it while I am typing. How awkward and weird can that be? Tears start to form in his eyes... and I can see that he is agitated. However, I am surprised that I am nonchalant! This is the first time I am feeling so unconcerned about wanting to let go of a relationship that had so many memories! I used to wail when a girl whom my heart wants to be with, thinks that we should not be together anymore because I am too quiet for her. I really hated those moments... I could have filled numerous of buckets with my tears! Who says that man does not cry? We do! In our own private world, we will cry and shout! We will bang the walls of our castle! We will even chop of the trees in our garden!! I admit that sometimes, we even sob like babies! That is who we are... M-A-N!
This time round, it is so different. Everything is so serene! Instead, I am looking forward to the days without him, my long time sidekick; a childhood friend. This is one relationship which I think is long overdue. Moulds are starting to form and a stench can be smelled miles away! You may think that I will regret! You may think that I am losing someone who knows me best, someone who knows exactly what I always want! On that, I can safely beseech you to trust in my judgments! Yes... for once, I am really confident that the absent of him will indeed make my life a heaven on earth! No more screams down my ear drum! No more pulling of my hair! I don't to be a tag-along anymore! Now, I can wander on the path that is already in front of me... one that was mapped out for me even before I make this decision to go down that path! You may think that I will be lonely without! Ha! That is one thing that did not cross my mind!
I am free now! Walking down this path where in front of me lays beautiful flowers, trees that are gigantic and a light that is shining so brightly at the end of the road. Now is the time, I am letting his hand off me completely. I am not sorry for doing that. I love him too much to want to hang on to him! He got to go now. We are not two and not one. It is official! Goodbye my flesh! We did have our "fun" but my definition for fun has really changed! You are no longer the source of my joy... Please respect my decision and stop clinging on to me... Let me build my new world with my Savior, One who cares about how I feel and One who truly understands me! Don't worry. I am in good hands. Just to assure you, the devil is going to be His footstool soon, so just cheer up and release me for my good! I am running without you anymore! Goodbye...
Thursday, February 03, 2005
Ups and Downs
Life's sweet?
Life's smooth?
Life's beautiful?
Life's meaningful?
I have really been pondering on these questions lately. What is wrong with me? I must have lost focus somewhere - career, relationships, or perhaps God? I really wonder why it is so easy for us to mis-focus on something that is so simple yet complicated. God's love is like the wind; invisible but tangible. How then can I lose focus on something so wonderful and sweet?
I reckon that sometimes, I am trying too hard to walk in the light. Walking in truth and love could be a such a simple task if only we know how to. I guess that I have been too conscious about my actions, the things I do and the stuff that exits from my mouth. Once again, trying to attain HOLINESS on my own strength and might. How hard it is and how vain can I be? Am I trying too hard? If so, I just want to be a good son to a WONDERFUL Father, the Father of the UNIVERSE! What is wrong with that?!?
I have really pondered and prayed about. I really want to live a life that is separated to Him. After almost 3 years of experiencing His tangible presence, my soul could no longer stand the dirt that always fall upon me. Have you ever wonder why your television gets dusty the next day after your spring cleaning? Because dirt is everywhere! This world is so dusty and dirty! How then can I be kept pure from the dirt of the world. I am sure that I, myself will not be able to stay dirt-free for ONE day! I am not sure if anyone can achieve that! Dirty as I wakes up. Muddier as the day passes by.
The more I tried to consciously stay dirt-free, the more frustrated I become! I am like a hygiene freak. "Yucks! Dirt!!!... Better blow it away!" Phew..... I am so tired! I give up! Suddenly, something gentle just surged through my body and this gentle, smoothing sensation began to refresh my soul and comfort my spirit! "Let the weak say I am stong!" Wow... I have really given up on myself to stay pure but it is now that He can really work for me. All along, He had always wanted to help me stand in the gap, to pull my worlds together... but time and time again, I snatched it away from Him and tells Him that I can handle it... I can stay pure; I can work and earn my righteousness... How foolish can I be?
I started out knowing that "it is not by might, nor power but by His Spirit." Now, this! Haha... Man... I am really weak and impaired. It is such a simple instruction but still... I failed! I am indeed a broken vessel... one that leaks every now and then. Nothing can be poured into me. Wow... I cannot even do such a simple thing. But thank God that there is something call GRACE. It is like a sticky gooey stuff that fills in the gaps of this broken vessel. I used to be HOLEY... but now I can be HOLY! Praise God. Lord, please teach me how to not try to do everything by myself! I am truly aware of my disability, please help me! Indeed, by Your Spirit, make me WHOLE once again. I do not want to condemn my own soul by living legalistically! Teach me Your ways. I want to sense Your presence daily, sensitize my soul; soften my heart, one that follows after you!
Life's smooth?
Life's beautiful?
Life's meaningful?
I have really been pondering on these questions lately. What is wrong with me? I must have lost focus somewhere - career, relationships, or perhaps God? I really wonder why it is so easy for us to mis-focus on something that is so simple yet complicated. God's love is like the wind; invisible but tangible. How then can I lose focus on something so wonderful and sweet?
I reckon that sometimes, I am trying too hard to walk in the light. Walking in truth and love could be a such a simple task if only we know how to. I guess that I have been too conscious about my actions, the things I do and the stuff that exits from my mouth. Once again, trying to attain HOLINESS on my own strength and might. How hard it is and how vain can I be? Am I trying too hard? If so, I just want to be a good son to a WONDERFUL Father, the Father of the UNIVERSE! What is wrong with that?!?
I have really pondered and prayed about. I really want to live a life that is separated to Him. After almost 3 years of experiencing His tangible presence, my soul could no longer stand the dirt that always fall upon me. Have you ever wonder why your television gets dusty the next day after your spring cleaning? Because dirt is everywhere! This world is so dusty and dirty! How then can I be kept pure from the dirt of the world. I am sure that I, myself will not be able to stay dirt-free for ONE day! I am not sure if anyone can achieve that! Dirty as I wakes up. Muddier as the day passes by.
The more I tried to consciously stay dirt-free, the more frustrated I become! I am like a hygiene freak. "Yucks! Dirt!!!... Better blow it away!" Phew..... I am so tired! I give up! Suddenly, something gentle just surged through my body and this gentle, smoothing sensation began to refresh my soul and comfort my spirit! "Let the weak say I am stong!" Wow... I have really given up on myself to stay pure but it is now that He can really work for me. All along, He had always wanted to help me stand in the gap, to pull my worlds together... but time and time again, I snatched it away from Him and tells Him that I can handle it... I can stay pure; I can work and earn my righteousness... How foolish can I be?
I started out knowing that "it is not by might, nor power but by His Spirit." Now, this! Haha... Man... I am really weak and impaired. It is such a simple instruction but still... I failed! I am indeed a broken vessel... one that leaks every now and then. Nothing can be poured into me. Wow... I cannot even do such a simple thing. But thank God that there is something call GRACE. It is like a sticky gooey stuff that fills in the gaps of this broken vessel. I used to be HOLEY... but now I can be HOLY! Praise God. Lord, please teach me how to not try to do everything by myself! I am truly aware of my disability, please help me! Indeed, by Your Spirit, make me WHOLE once again. I do not want to condemn my own soul by living legalistically! Teach me Your ways. I want to sense Your presence daily, sensitize my soul; soften my heart, one that follows after you!
Ups and Downs
Life's sweet?
Life's smooth?
Life's beautiful?
Life's meaningful?
I have really been pondering on these questions lately. What is wrong with me? I must have lost focus somewhere - career, relationships, or perhaps God? I really wonder why it is so easy for us to mis-focus on something that is so simple yet complicated. God's love is like the wind; invisible but tangible. How then can I lose focus on something so wonderful and sweet?
I reckon that sometimes, I am trying too hard to walk in the light. Walking in truth and love could be a such a simple task if only we know how to. I guess that I have been too conscious about my actions, the things I do and the stuff that exits from my mouth. Once again, trying to attain HOLINESS on my own strength and might. How hard it is and how vain can I be? Am I trying too hard? If so, I just want to be a good son to a WONDERFUL Father, the Father of the UNIVERSE! What is wrong with that?!?
I have really pondered and prayed about. I really want to live a life that is separated to Him. After almost 3 years of experiencing His tangible presence, my soul could no longer stand the dirt that always fall upon me. Have you ever wonder why your television gets dusty the next day after your spring cleaning? Because dirt is everywhere! This world is so dusty and dirty! How then can I be kept pure from the dirt of the world. I am sure that I, myself will not be able to stay dirt-free for ONE day! I am not sure if anyone can achieve that! Dirty as I wakes up. Muddier as the day passes by.
The more I tried to consciously stay dirt-free, the more frustrated I become! I am like a hygiene freak. "Yucks! Dirt!!!... Better blow it away!" Phew..... I am so tired! I give up! Suddenly, something gentle just surged through my body and this gentle, smoothing sensation began to refresh my soul and comfort my spirit! "Let the weak say I am stong!" Wow... I have really given up on myself to stay pure but it is now that He can really work for me. All along, He had always wanted to help me stand in the gap, to pull my worlds together... but time and time again, I snatched it away from Him and tells Him that I can handle it... I can stay pure; I can work and earn my righteousness... How foolish can I be?
I started out knowing that "it is not by might, nor power but by His Spirit." Now, this! Haha... Man... I am really weak and impaired. It is such a simple instruction but still... I failed! I am indeed a broken vessel... one that leaks every now and then. Nothing can be poured into me. Wow... I cannot even do such a simple thing. But thank God that there is something call GRACE. It is like a sticky gooey stuff that fills in the gaps of this broken vessel. I used to be HOLEY... but now I can be HOLY! Praise God. Lord, please teach me how to not try to do everything by myself! I am truly aware of my disability, please help me! Indeed, by Your Spirit, make me WHOLE once again. I do not want to condemn my own soul by living legalistically! Teach me Your ways. I want to sense Your presence daily, sensitize my soul; soften my heart, one that follows after you!
Life's smooth?
Life's beautiful?
Life's meaningful?
I have really been pondering on these questions lately. What is wrong with me? I must have lost focus somewhere - career, relationships, or perhaps God? I really wonder why it is so easy for us to mis-focus on something that is so simple yet complicated. God's love is like the wind; invisible but tangible. How then can I lose focus on something so wonderful and sweet?
I reckon that sometimes, I am trying too hard to walk in the light. Walking in truth and love could be a such a simple task if only we know how to. I guess that I have been too conscious about my actions, the things I do and the stuff that exits from my mouth. Once again, trying to attain HOLINESS on my own strength and might. How hard it is and how vain can I be? Am I trying too hard? If so, I just want to be a good son to a WONDERFUL Father, the Father of the UNIVERSE! What is wrong with that?!?
I have really pondered and prayed about. I really want to live a life that is separated to Him. After almost 3 years of experiencing His tangible presence, my soul could no longer stand the dirt that always fall upon me. Have you ever wonder why your television gets dusty the next day after your spring cleaning? Because dirt is everywhere! This world is so dusty and dirty! How then can I be kept pure from the dirt of the world. I am sure that I, myself will not be able to stay dirt-free for ONE day! I am not sure if anyone can achieve that! Dirty as I wakes up. Muddier as the day passes by.
The more I tried to consciously stay dirt-free, the more frustrated I become! I am like a hygiene freak. "Yucks! Dirt!!!... Better blow it away!" Phew..... I am so tired! I give up! Suddenly, something gentle just surged through my body and this gentle, smoothing sensation began to refresh my soul and comfort my spirit! "Let the weak say I am stong!" Wow... I have really given up on myself to stay pure but it is now that He can really work for me. All along, He had always wanted to help me stand in the gap, to pull my worlds together... but time and time again, I snatched it away from Him and tells Him that I can handle it... I can stay pure; I can work and earn my righteousness... How foolish can I be?
I started out knowing that "it is not by might, nor power but by His Spirit." Now, this! Haha... Man... I am really weak and impaired. It is such a simple instruction but still... I failed! I am indeed a broken vessel... one that leaks every now and then. Nothing can be poured into me. Wow... I cannot even do such a simple thing. But thank God that there is something call GRACE. It is like a sticky gooey stuff that fills in the gaps of this broken vessel. I used to be HOLEY... but now I can be HOLY! Praise God. Lord, please teach me how to not try to do everything by myself! I am truly aware of my disability, please help me! Indeed, by Your Spirit, make me WHOLE once again. I do not want to condemn my own soul by living legalistically! Teach me Your ways. I want to sense Your presence daily, sensitize my soul; soften my heart, one that follows after you!
sweet...
You have a ticket to heaven no thief can take,
an eternal home no divorce can break.
Every sin of your life has been cast to the sea.
Every mistake you've made is nailed to the tree.
You're blood-bought and heaven made.
A child of God - forever saved.
Max Lucado "A Love Worth Giving"
an eternal home no divorce can break.
Every sin of your life has been cast to the sea.
Every mistake you've made is nailed to the tree.
You're blood-bought and heaven made.
A child of God - forever saved.
Max Lucado "A Love Worth Giving"
sweet...
You have a ticket to heaven no thief can take,
an eternal home no divorce can break.
Every sin of your life has been cast to the sea.
Every mistake you've made is nailed to the tree.
You're blood-bought and heaven made.
A child of God - forever saved.
Max Lucado "A Love Worth Giving"
an eternal home no divorce can break.
Every sin of your life has been cast to the sea.
Every mistake you've made is nailed to the tree.
You're blood-bought and heaven made.
A child of God - forever saved.
Max Lucado "A Love Worth Giving"
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