Goals

Have $10,000 in bank by end of 2008
Start trading with $$$ by end of 2008
Clear all my debts by end of 2009
Get As for all of my modules in July 2008 semester
Attain the above goals

Reflecting @ East Coast

Met up with Gary and Aileen today. I think we all enjoyed ourselves very much, as we mentioned that it is not always we have a time to spend on a weekend to reflect on life, among other stuff.

We strolled around the beach, sat at a breakwater looking at a couple that is SO young. The guy seriously looked like he has not even reached his puberty. The girl looks older. We also went to the HK cafe there and sat from about 5:30pm to about 10:30pm, talking about everything and anything under sun. It was a great time, as we shared our hearts out.

I think I have kinda not done this in a long time. I believe that this is really refreshing... to do nothing but sharing and reflecting with each other. LOL... Really do not know when this would happen again, as sometimes work and school can be overwhelming.

Writing again...

Wow... it has been a long time since I last wrote on a blog. It could be due to the fact that I was so involved in my schoolwork and my work. So many other things to do that I have neglected blogging.

Blogging has always been a joy, sometimes a chore. It is a joy, as it allows me to reflect on a particular topic or to keep a copy of a great memory, so that I can relive it in future. However, it can sometimes be tiring because as much as you would like to jot down a particular thought, you do feel tired and lazy at times.

Let this post be the post that brings all this blogging back to me, to jot down important events and to rant at certain issues. We all need a avenue to let our thoughts run wild. More than that, we need a place for us to relfect and to relax... to think through all that has happened.

Love this quote...

I was reading one of my friend's blog and I stumbled on a phrase in one of her entries. The phrase is so captivating that I wanted to copy and paste, and share it with you guys!

"A woman’s heart should be so hidden in Christ that a man must seek the Lord to find it."

As a guy, I know that this is so hard. I have been through it. LOL. Yeah, you can start pointing your finger and start waving at me, telling me how insensitive I was to the Holy Spirit but don't forget that at this very moment, you are also pointing to yourself with the rest of your fingers!

However, despite the difficulties a normal guy would face in wanting to successfully court a girl whose heart is so hidden in Christ, this would mean that the REAL women of God who wants their hearts to be hidden will get the cream of the crop, their Prince Charmings. At the same time, they are really going through a ride with God, as He, the Almighty One, pens their love stories. It will be a story they will be so proud of, one that inspires and encourages.

To be honest, I have never really had an answer from God when I was praying for a particular girl. I can only imagine how sweet it would be like. Now that I am already attached, I will picture how God will guide and bless me in the journey I have with my girlfriend.

May God give wisdom to all who seek to have the one partner God has intended for them. Wisdom to discern and wisdom to navigate through this web of love. Love is only truly sweet when God is involved. Having the knowledge of the most important One nodding at every single steps you take in the relaltionship is the most satisfying thing! This I guess is what we all yearn for. We tried to please so many others but all we want to do is to please Him, our Father. May God gives us strength to be the man and woman He truly wants us to be.

Praise God for Love!
The world will not be so green if there is no love.
The water will not be so blue without love. A
nd certainly, they will not be joy if love is absent!
Praise God for Love!

GET ME OUT!!!

At work today, I was having a chat with my colleague and we talked about us getting old. I felt odd when he mentioned that he is approaching 27 and I am going to be 26 this year. Am I really that old? I have watched enough TV programmes and sports shows to tell how a 26 should be like. It could be a stereotype but it seems like I am a far way off the mark of a 26!

Maybe it is during the few depersonalization moments when I am able to "come out" of myself and see myself as myself. Duhz... what am I saying! LOL. The thing is... I cannot comprehend the fact that the body and the age (number) is running so far ahead of myself!

They are indeed not reflecting the real me and I think this is so unfair! Haha. My knees cannot allow me to run the distance I want. They are not even allowing me to engage my favourtie sports, soccer, with vigor and tenacity! Now, whenever I play soccer, I have babysit my knees, making sure that they are well taken care of. I have to watch out for stones or any pot-holes! How irritating!

Another thing is that the number thingy is getting on my nerves! I really don't feel like I am 26! I am definitely no where near that! It could be because I am trying to relive certain parts of the my life where I feel I was deprived! LOL It always feel weird to tell someone that I am 26. I do admit that due to the not-anywhere-near-perfect complexion and the constant exposure to the sun, I may not look 26 but I certainly do not act like one.

I am still a mummy's boy. Not in the literal sense! LOL. It just seems that a mummy's boy is someone who has not grown up and is still stuck in his adolescent years. I feel like I am still in Polytechnic. I feel like I am still studying full time, carefree and having not that much of a worry for the latter years! LOL I mean I do consider about my future but I am just not feeling pressures in life yet. Maybe I am still living in a comfort zone, where the need to expand myself consciously is lacking.

So please... help me out of this body! LOL I am only 21. Why am I in a 26 years old body! Time is flying past me and now I am lost. Not knowing where to go, what to skip to get to the 26 years old stage. I must now learn to love my body as it is, accepting the fact that my body and age is not the true reflection of myself. Therefore, never let age factor dictates how you live your life man. I certainly don't. LOL Maybe I need a broken leg or the fact that I am unable to walk to stop me from enjoying what I enjoy most. Maybe I need a rude awakening to show me that I am indeed 26, no longer 21! But I guess it will get pretty ugly.

Bottomline, have reality sink into you but never let it sink your dreams, your love or yourself! I AM YOUNG AT HEART is what they always says! Indeed!

Revived...

I had a gathering with my old pals from drama ministry yesterday. We had a great time at two opposite venue. One is small and stuffy. The other, BIG AND COSY! However, the latter came at a price! LOL

The reason for the title was because I found out that a couple of my friends were asking me on why there aren't any updates to my blog. At that point in time, I was thinking to myself, "I did not even know that people are so demanding over free stuff." I am, here, taking my own sweet time, at my leisure, to record the MOMENTS in life. I am also giving people the privilege to read them and all they can do is demand for more?! LOL

Yeap! These are the kind of friends that are worth keeping man. They are demanding out of love. They want to know more about my life. They want to keep track of my marathon in life and they want to be prayer warriors when their soldier in battle is down. These are the mark of a true pal! I am sincerely touched.

For that, I will try to be as proactively as I can be in my updating of this blog. Like always, I don't really like to share about what I did in a particular day. However, like Mitch Albom's Tuesdays with Morrie, I record the days where I learnt or gain something powerful/inspirational! Therefore, peeps out there who loves me and are dying to read more about my life, stay tuned! This blog is back with the entry of this post and let's hope that it will not fizzle out like a carbonated drink left on a shelf for an extended period.

Celebration @ 492

It seems like I am not really actively updating my blog. Instead of giving excuses, I am coming out clean. Keeping a blog updated and beautifying takes alot of energy and diligence. It is never wrong to say that money follows those who excel at what they do! Apparently, the lack of advertisements on mine clearly suggests that my blog is one of the trillions blogs out there that are just surviving. We are hoping that the kind souls who are keeping the server alive will continue to be so kind! LoL! Why? We their servers and space to store our memories and our work. It will be so sad to find out one fine day that all those that were written are gone! I really do not know what I will do.

Anyway, today is a special day. As the title suggests, my family and I had a mini celebration at 492. It is a block where there is a coffee shop. However, the story is not about the coffee shop, the block or about the food. Ha! Basically, I just want to share how God still speaks to me despite my absence from His house. Hehe...

I am not taking that for granted. In fact, I am thankful for the experience. The thing was that the 9th of Nov is my sister's birthday and I have always wanted to get her something really nice and meaningful. Why? Because I have really shortchanged her. She had always blessed me every year during my birthday and I had not been returning the favour. LOL! However, this year, something happened and this is the thing I am sharing.

She had been rather moody and sad for the past month or so because of some personal issues. Being her brother, I really do feel for her. My family and I were also there to encourage her. She seems so lifeless and she was always complaining about how much life sucks. She did not even enjoy her trip to KL. With these in mind, I decided to do something or buy something special for her. Buying gifts or planning something can really wreak your brains. This is no exception. However, one fine night, all of a sudden, a thought came into me and suggested that I get her one of the Precious Moments figurines, as it contains meaningful text, which may uplift her spirits. So it happened, I went to a shop in Jurong Point to get her that.

To cut the long story short, when I passed her the gift today, I told her to guess what it is inside. She told me that it is a Precious Moments figurine. Despite the fact that she was right, I keep mum. When she found out what it really was, I asked her about her guess. You know what she told me? She told me that just recently, she was thinking to herself if she should collect the Precious Moments figurines. Ha!

Praise God. Thank God for putting that idea in me. Never would have thought about getting her that. Moreover, I believe that it will really be a blessing to her, something to encourage her. I pray that she will feel the love of God and start to be hopeful again. =)

Post-Birthday!

9th October 1981 marks the day when I popped into this world! 25 years later, I am still popping into people's life, which can be a good and a bad thing! Ha!

Yesterday, which was the day of my birthday, I had a great and joyous day. Many friends popped back into my life with wishes from SMS, Friendster and numerous other ways. I felt really blessed because I treasure all these relationships and I will never take any wishes from any of them lightly! Most of them, I have not really contacted for a year plus but they still managed to find a spot in their 5-6% of their brain matter to remember MY DAY! How grateful I am for that! :)

I just wanna thank everyone and anyone who wished or wanted to wish but did not have the chance to! I thank God for making things happen in my life, e.g. bringing my family closer together than before, protecting my relationship with Vivian, giving my good health... and many others.

I got a testimonial that I want to share to mark my 25th birthday. For those who know about my sickness, I wanna share a good news with you. I have not gone into my dissociative state for more than 2 years now! *Applause* I really thank God and I know that I cannot keep my sanity in check by my own strength. There were times when I thought I would have it again but by the grace of God, I got through it. I am really glad.

All these are not possible without the supports of my friends, family members, loved ones and many others who love me! My life and my world is made colourful with the existence of you people and I thank God for it. However, without the canvas of my life that God has gave me, all these colors would have made any sense. Therefore, I thank God for His unfailing love and grace.

Moving On to the Next Chapter...

After about a year plus of not going to school, I am finally going back to one! It will happen next Friday! Guess where? It will be at the Singapore’s fourth university, SIM University! The last time I attended school was when I was doing an Advance Certificate in Theology at City Harvest Bible Training Center. It was a short course spanning 1 year and I am happy to say that I really enjoyed and learnt a lot from that 1-year.

Now that I am going back to school again, I am really looking forward to the new people I am going to meet and a host of information, which I am going to acquire. I am taking a Degree course in Marketing. I am actually very excited about this course. I have always wanted to know more about marketing, the art of promoting and how one goes about bragging about itself. Some people say that marketing is like sales. I beg to differ. I have done a fair share of sales during my time in Prudential and I have to admit that selling was not that fun. Ha! Ironically, selling is the most essential part of a business. Closely following it is the company’s marketing department.

If a product is not properly packaged or promoted, selling, by itself, does possess much power. To me, doing sales is a challenge. However, I am more interested in the planning of how a product can be sold rather than the actual selling of the product. Thus, the interests in taking up a Degree course majoring in marketing.

Having revealed the first few sentences of the new chapter in my life, I ask for your prayers and guidance. Share with me your insights and advice, as I begin to tread on the road littered with valuable knowledge and information. I will be going down this road for 3 years and if at any moment you were inspired to share something with me, just email or contact me. I will gladly receive it with open arms and ears. For my brothers and sisters in church, continue to pray for me. Pray that I will have the strength and the capacity to make the most out of the course.

As I prepare to end this entry, I would like to thank you people for the interest and concern you have upon my life and for all the prayers and encouragement!