Today is the third time I am watching this touching and heart-warming movie, "A Walk to Remember" in the week. I must admit that it will always move me to tears... no matter how many times I have seen it... It is so good that this has kind of been an alternative medicine for my soul... when all things fail... when I am downcast or sad... I will indulge myself into this story... And whenever I do that... love becomes so tangible and real...
Some unforgettable scenes -
Landon reading off a book of quotes that Jamie gave to him when she was in the hospital:
"Love is always patient and kind.
It is never jealous.
Love is never boastful or conceited.
It is never rude or selfish,
it does not take offence, it is not resentful."
Jamie speaking to Landon after he read the quote above:
"Maybe God has a bigger plan for me than I have for myself..."
"... like this journey never ends"
"...like you're sent to me because I am sick, to help me through all these...."
(short pause, Jamie feeling Landon's hand that is on her face)
"... You're my angel!"
(Landon leaned forward to kiss Jamie)
Landon's thoughts as he was walking down a bridge, reminscing on what Jamie had done for him:
"Jamie saved my life. She taught me everything... about life, hope and a long journey ahead. I'll always miss her. But her love is like the wind. I can't see it but I can feel it."
One of the scenes that made me wept like a baby was when Landon, after knowing that his dad had paid for private home care for Jamie, went to look for his dad. He knocked... waiting for his dad to open the door. He has always hated his dad for leaving his family.
Then his dad opened the door... seeing Landon standing there, with his eyes welling up with tears. His dad moved forward and opened up his arms to hug him. Landon broke down the moment his dad embraced him in his arms.
This is love at its purest... from both parties. His dad helped Jamie, Landon's girlfriend, even when Landon was mean towards him... angry at him for leaving his mum and him. Landon, despite his hatred for his dad, thanked him from the bottom of his heart and he even broke down in front of him. This is love... this movie is filled with love, peace and joy, even when Jamie had to die.
I am searching for this pure love and I know that for me to have this kind of pure love, I have to act in the same way... It is movie like this that really touches and rekindled the pure love that is inside one's heart. How this love is so different from the love we experience daily in our love. Ah.... it is just so refreshing to my soul, even when I am just relating and writing this to you....
Wednesday, June 29, 2005
A few Quotes to Remember
Today is the third time I am watching this touching and heart-warming movie, "A Walk to Remember" in the week. I must admit that it will always move me to tears... no matter how many times I have seen it... It is so good that this has kind of been an alternative medicine for my soul... when all things fail... when I am downcast or sad... I will indulge myself into this story... And whenever I do that... love becomes so tangible and real...
Some unforgettable scenes -
Landon reading off a book of quotes that Jamie gave to him when she was in the hospital:
"Love is always patient and kind.
It is never jealous.
Love is never boastful or conceited.
It is never rude or selfish,
it does not take offence, it is not resentful."
Jamie speaking to Landon after he read the quote above:
"Maybe God has a bigger plan for me than I have for myself..."
"... like this journey never ends"
"...like you're sent to me because I am sick, to help me through all these...."
(short pause, Jamie feeling Landon's hand that is on her face)
"... You're my angel!"
(Landon leaned forward to kiss Jamie)
Landon's thoughts as he was walking down a bridge, reminscing on what Jamie had done for him:
"Jamie saved my life. She taught me everything... about life, hope and a long journey ahead. I'll always miss her. But her love is like the wind. I can't see it but I can feel it."
One of the scenes that made me wept like a baby was when Landon, after knowing that his dad had paid for private home care for Jamie, went to look for his dad. He knocked... waiting for his dad to open the door. He has always hated his dad for leaving his family.
Then his dad opened the door... seeing Landon standing there, with his eyes welling up with tears. His dad moved forward and opened up his arms to hug him. Landon broke down the moment his dad embraced him in his arms.
This is love at its purest... from both parties. His dad helped Jamie, Landon's girlfriend, even when Landon was mean towards him... angry at him for leaving his mum and him. Landon, despite his hatred for his dad, thanked him from the bottom of his heart and he even broke down in front of him. This is love... this movie is filled with love, peace and joy, even when Jamie had to die.
I am searching for this pure love and I know that for me to have this kind of pure love, I have to act in the same way... It is movie like this that really touches and rekindled the pure love that is inside one's heart. How this love is so different from the love we experience daily in our love. Ah.... it is just so refreshing to my soul, even when I am just relating and writing this to you....
Some unforgettable scenes -
Landon reading off a book of quotes that Jamie gave to him when she was in the hospital:
"Love is always patient and kind.
It is never jealous.
Love is never boastful or conceited.
It is never rude or selfish,
it does not take offence, it is not resentful."
Jamie speaking to Landon after he read the quote above:
"Maybe God has a bigger plan for me than I have for myself..."
"... like this journey never ends"
"...like you're sent to me because I am sick, to help me through all these...."
(short pause, Jamie feeling Landon's hand that is on her face)
"... You're my angel!"
(Landon leaned forward to kiss Jamie)
Landon's thoughts as he was walking down a bridge, reminscing on what Jamie had done for him:
"Jamie saved my life. She taught me everything... about life, hope and a long journey ahead. I'll always miss her. But her love is like the wind. I can't see it but I can feel it."
One of the scenes that made me wept like a baby was when Landon, after knowing that his dad had paid for private home care for Jamie, went to look for his dad. He knocked... waiting for his dad to open the door. He has always hated his dad for leaving his family.
Then his dad opened the door... seeing Landon standing there, with his eyes welling up with tears. His dad moved forward and opened up his arms to hug him. Landon broke down the moment his dad embraced him in his arms.
This is love at its purest... from both parties. His dad helped Jamie, Landon's girlfriend, even when Landon was mean towards him... angry at him for leaving his mum and him. Landon, despite his hatred for his dad, thanked him from the bottom of his heart and he even broke down in front of him. This is love... this movie is filled with love, peace and joy, even when Jamie had to die.
I am searching for this pure love and I know that for me to have this kind of pure love, I have to act in the same way... It is movie like this that really touches and rekindled the pure love that is inside one's heart. How this love is so different from the love we experience daily in our love. Ah.... it is just so refreshing to my soul, even when I am just relating and writing this to you....
Wednesday, June 22, 2005
Only Faith?
I finished reading Da Vinci Code by Dan Brown yesterday and though it was a compelling book, which made me turn from one page to the next like a nicotine addict, I felt that it is one twisted book... with apparently one intention... that is to distort one's view on the Church. I am not really talking about the Catholic Church or any particular denominations but the Church in a whole. It really worries me when non-believers or those who do not check on the "truths" pick the book off the shelf and read it. In fact, a lot of people actually believe in what the book says even though it is known as a FICTION! How ironic! The Bible is not labelled as a FICTION but those who accept the Da Vinci Code cannot seem to accept the real truths that are in the Bible.
Dan Brown proclaimed on his website that he is a Christian but I really have doubts. A Christian should be one who glorifies Jesus and not bring controversies upon Him. In this book, he is selling the idea that Jesus was married to Mary Magdelene! On top of that, he made the Church look like a organisation that is so blinded that she has to lie, kill and destroy just to hold on to her belief and traditions. Anyway, he may have his views and I respect that. In any case, all is not lost! People may get curious as to if all that were said in the book are true. They may want to dig... searching for the proof on the views. However, I pray that in doing so, they will be brought before the Light, the real Truth. You never know! All things will work out well for those who love Him. I love Him and I pray that many people, in one way or another, will be led to the light!
While I was reading the book, a few things struck me. I realised that our mind is so powerful. We can really make something, which is false into something real. Everyone actions and thoughts can be justified by our minds if we really want to! It also made me realised another powerful truth! I can now say that Christianity is not totally based on FAITH! That's right... you heard me right! Faith is not really all there is in Christinity!
I was thinking one night, after reading that book. Is faith the only thing that made us believe that there is a God and that God is Jesus... Muslims have faith too! Buddists have faith but what differentiate mine with theirs?!?! There is only ONE thing! That thing, just like faith, cannot be bought, neither can it be shared just by a word of mouth! The other power ingredient that really bring us close to our God and allow us to trust in Him eventhough He is invisible is our ENCOUNTER(S)!
These encounters, especially the one that I have shared here in the past, really made me held onto Him during my darkest moments! I do not believe that before tasting a well cooked chicken, you can CONFIDENTLY say that it taste great! Why would someone first give up his/her life to Jesus if they cannot feel His tangible presence. Therefore, this feeling of His tangible presence is an ENCOUNTER too! That is why, no matter how people try to talk me out of my belief, or should I say relationship with Jesus, I will not budge! He is too real to be fake! How can I after touching my hand say that my hand is not there? It will such an irony!
Dear friends, I do really hope that you will hold on the encounter(s) you had with Jesus closely to your heart! When the times get tough, it will be your faith and these encounter(s) that will really keep you together! It is there and then that you know that He is too real for you to forsake or give up! You will never think that you are alone even if your mind tells you otherwise!
A short story.....
I was lost in a case... hungry and cold! I felt so lonely. Darkness encompassed me wherever I went... it just seemed like I am going to be swallowed by it if I do try to do something about it soon. I had no one to turn to. I was alone... with no guiding post, no light, no friends... NOTHING! What could I do.
Suddenly, something touched my hand. A voice followed. 'Son, hold on to me and I will lead you out of this cave.' I was shocked! Have I encountered a ghost? What can that be? However, I did not feel scare or uneasy. Instead, a rush of love and peace came upon my heart. I sensed that the 'thing' is not hostile. He/It was really trying to help me. I called out. 'Who are you? Why are you helping me?'
Silence crept in. Suddenly, a soothing, gentle familiar voice answered, 'I created you and you walked yourself straight into darkness.'
The voice cracked. He continued, 'I was searching for you and now, I have found you! I really love you! Will you let me help you get out from this darkness'
My heart melted... Someone in this world actually loved me to the extent that He is willling to come into my darkness to look for me! I was hesitant at first. However, due to the overwhelming love and peace, I decided to reach out for His hand. To my surprise, I felt His hands on mine the moment I started to reach out! We walked... I did not know Him. I have heard His voice, felt His hand. That's all! We continued walking. Darkness was still around. However, I knew that He is harmless and I continued to put my trust on Him. I had faith that He would indeed lead me out!
Twenty minutes passed... When things was getting no better and when my strength to hold on to His hand started to fade, He squeezed into my hands and gripped it even tighter. All of a sudden, something happened. I felt a sharp pain in my eyes... Gently, I lifted my head... THERE IT WAS... a light at the end of the tunnel! He was not lying! He is really leading me out of this darkness!
Now... three years after my incident in the cave, He is still by my guide. Everytime when He asked me to take His hand, I will obediently put mine on His and follow His leading. I will never forget the encounter I had with Him in the cave. It was there that I had the first and most beautiful encounter of His presence, no else or nothing in this world could give! My encounter made me know that He really love me and He is not a imagination! He is REAL. He led me out! He guided me; He helped me and held on to me tightly when I was weak!
Ps 119:173-176
"Let Your hand become my help,
For I have chosen Your precepts.
I long for Your salvation,
O LORD,And Your law is my delight.
Let my soul live, and it shall praise You;
And let Your judgments help me.
I have gone astray like a lost sheep;
Seek Your servant,
For I do not forget Your commandments."
Dan Brown proclaimed on his website that he is a Christian but I really have doubts. A Christian should be one who glorifies Jesus and not bring controversies upon Him. In this book, he is selling the idea that Jesus was married to Mary Magdelene! On top of that, he made the Church look like a organisation that is so blinded that she has to lie, kill and destroy just to hold on to her belief and traditions. Anyway, he may have his views and I respect that. In any case, all is not lost! People may get curious as to if all that were said in the book are true. They may want to dig... searching for the proof on the views. However, I pray that in doing so, they will be brought before the Light, the real Truth. You never know! All things will work out well for those who love Him. I love Him and I pray that many people, in one way or another, will be led to the light!
While I was reading the book, a few things struck me. I realised that our mind is so powerful. We can really make something, which is false into something real. Everyone actions and thoughts can be justified by our minds if we really want to! It also made me realised another powerful truth! I can now say that Christianity is not totally based on FAITH! That's right... you heard me right! Faith is not really all there is in Christinity!
I was thinking one night, after reading that book. Is faith the only thing that made us believe that there is a God and that God is Jesus... Muslims have faith too! Buddists have faith but what differentiate mine with theirs?!?! There is only ONE thing! That thing, just like faith, cannot be bought, neither can it be shared just by a word of mouth! The other power ingredient that really bring us close to our God and allow us to trust in Him eventhough He is invisible is our ENCOUNTER(S)!
These encounters, especially the one that I have shared here in the past, really made me held onto Him during my darkest moments! I do not believe that before tasting a well cooked chicken, you can CONFIDENTLY say that it taste great! Why would someone first give up his/her life to Jesus if they cannot feel His tangible presence. Therefore, this feeling of His tangible presence is an ENCOUNTER too! That is why, no matter how people try to talk me out of my belief, or should I say relationship with Jesus, I will not budge! He is too real to be fake! How can I after touching my hand say that my hand is not there? It will such an irony!
Dear friends, I do really hope that you will hold on the encounter(s) you had with Jesus closely to your heart! When the times get tough, it will be your faith and these encounter(s) that will really keep you together! It is there and then that you know that He is too real for you to forsake or give up! You will never think that you are alone even if your mind tells you otherwise!
A short story.....
I was lost in a case... hungry and cold! I felt so lonely. Darkness encompassed me wherever I went... it just seemed like I am going to be swallowed by it if I do try to do something about it soon. I had no one to turn to. I was alone... with no guiding post, no light, no friends... NOTHING! What could I do.
Suddenly, something touched my hand. A voice followed. 'Son, hold on to me and I will lead you out of this cave.' I was shocked! Have I encountered a ghost? What can that be? However, I did not feel scare or uneasy. Instead, a rush of love and peace came upon my heart. I sensed that the 'thing' is not hostile. He/It was really trying to help me. I called out. 'Who are you? Why are you helping me?'
Silence crept in. Suddenly, a soothing, gentle familiar voice answered, 'I created you and you walked yourself straight into darkness.'
The voice cracked. He continued, 'I was searching for you and now, I have found you! I really love you! Will you let me help you get out from this darkness'
My heart melted... Someone in this world actually loved me to the extent that He is willling to come into my darkness to look for me! I was hesitant at first. However, due to the overwhelming love and peace, I decided to reach out for His hand. To my surprise, I felt His hands on mine the moment I started to reach out! We walked... I did not know Him. I have heard His voice, felt His hand. That's all! We continued walking. Darkness was still around. However, I knew that He is harmless and I continued to put my trust on Him. I had faith that He would indeed lead me out!
Twenty minutes passed... When things was getting no better and when my strength to hold on to His hand started to fade, He squeezed into my hands and gripped it even tighter. All of a sudden, something happened. I felt a sharp pain in my eyes... Gently, I lifted my head... THERE IT WAS... a light at the end of the tunnel! He was not lying! He is really leading me out of this darkness!
Now... three years after my incident in the cave, He is still by my guide. Everytime when He asked me to take His hand, I will obediently put mine on His and follow His leading. I will never forget the encounter I had with Him in the cave. It was there that I had the first and most beautiful encounter of His presence, no else or nothing in this world could give! My encounter made me know that He really love me and He is not a imagination! He is REAL. He led me out! He guided me; He helped me and held on to me tightly when I was weak!
Ps 119:173-176
"Let Your hand become my help,
For I have chosen Your precepts.
I long for Your salvation,
O LORD,And Your law is my delight.
Let my soul live, and it shall praise You;
And let Your judgments help me.
I have gone astray like a lost sheep;
Seek Your servant,
For I do not forget Your commandments."
Only Faith?
I finished reading Da Vinci Code by Dan Brown yesterday and though it was a compelling book, which made me turn from one page to the next like a nicotine addict, I felt that it is one twisted book... with apparently one intention... that is to distort one's view on the Church. I am not really talking about the Catholic Church or any particular denominations but the Church in a whole. It really worries me when non-believers or those who do not check on the "truths" pick the book off the shelf and read it. In fact, a lot of people actually believe in what the book says even though it is known as a FICTION! How ironic! The Bible is not labelled as a FICTION but those who accept the Da Vinci Code cannot seem to accept the real truths that are in the Bible.
Dan Brown proclaimed on his website that he is a Christian but I really have doubts. A Christian should be one who glorifies Jesus and not bring controversies upon Him. In this book, he is selling the idea that Jesus was married to Mary Magdelene! On top of that, he made the Church look like a organisation that is so blinded that she has to lie, kill and destroy just to hold on to her belief and traditions. Anyway, he may have his views and I respect that. In any case, all is not lost! People may get curious as to if all that were said in the book are true. They may want to dig... searching for the proof on the views. However, I pray that in doing so, they will be brought before the Light, the real Truth. You never know! All things will work out well for those who love Him. I love Him and I pray that many people, in one way or another, will be led to the light!
While I was reading the book, a few things struck me. I realised that our mind is so powerful. We can really make something, which is false into something real. Everyone actions and thoughts can be justified by our minds if we really want to! It also made me realised another powerful truth! I can now say that Christianity is not totally based on FAITH! That's right... you heard me right! Faith is not really all there is in Christinity!
I was thinking one night, after reading that book. Is faith the only thing that made us believe that there is a God and that God is Jesus... Muslims have faith too! Buddists have faith but what differentiate mine with theirs?!?! There is only ONE thing! That thing, just like faith, cannot be bought, neither can it be shared just by a word of mouth! The other power ingredient that really bring us close to our God and allow us to trust in Him eventhough He is invisible is our ENCOUNTER(S)!
These encounters, especially the one that I have shared here in the past, really made me held onto Him during my darkest moments! I do not believe that before tasting a well cooked chicken, you can CONFIDENTLY say that it taste great! Why would someone first give up his/her life to Jesus if they cannot feel His tangible presence. Therefore, this feeling of His tangible presence is an ENCOUNTER too! That is why, no matter how people try to talk me out of my belief, or should I say relationship with Jesus, I will not budge! He is too real to be fake! How can I after touching my hand say that my hand is not there? It will such an irony!
Dear friends, I do really hope that you will hold on the encounter(s) you had with Jesus closely to your heart! When the times get tough, it will be your faith and these encounter(s) that will really keep you together! It is there and then that you know that He is too real for you to forsake or give up! You will never think that you are alone even if your mind tells you otherwise!
A short story.....
I was lost in a case... hungry and cold! I felt so lonely. Darkness encompassed me wherever I went... it just seemed like I am going to be swallowed by it if I do try to do something about it soon. I had no one to turn to. I was alone... with no guiding post, no light, no friends... NOTHING! What could I do.
Suddenly, something touched my hand. A voice followed. 'Son, hold on to me and I will lead you out of this cave.' I was shocked! Have I encountered a ghost? What can that be? However, I did not feel scare or uneasy. Instead, a rush of love and peace came upon my heart. I sensed that the 'thing' is not hostile. He/It was really trying to help me. I called out. 'Who are you? Why are you helping me?'
Silence crept in. Suddenly, a soothing, gentle familiar voice answered, 'I created you and you walked yourself straight into darkness.'
The voice cracked. He continued, 'I was searching for you and now, I have found you! I really love you! Will you let me help you get out from this darkness'
My heart melted... Someone in this world actually loved me to the extent that He is willling to come into my darkness to look for me! I was hesitant at first. However, due to the overwhelming love and peace, I decided to reach out for His hand. To my surprise, I felt His hands on mine the moment I started to reach out! We walked... I did not know Him. I have heard His voice, felt His hand. That's all! We continued walking. Darkness was still around. However, I knew that He is harmless and I continued to put my trust on Him. I had faith that He would indeed lead me out!
Twenty minutes passed... When things was getting no better and when my strength to hold on to His hand started to fade, He squeezed into my hands and gripped it even tighter. All of a sudden, something happened. I felt a sharp pain in my eyes... Gently, I lifted my head... THERE IT WAS... a light at the end of the tunnel! He was not lying! He is really leading me out of this darkness!
Now... three years after my incident in the cave, He is still by my guide. Everytime when He asked me to take His hand, I will obediently put mine on His and follow His leading. I will never forget the encounter I had with Him in the cave. It was there that I had the first and most beautiful encounter of His presence, no else or nothing in this world could give! My encounter made me know that He really love me and He is not a imagination! He is REAL. He led me out! He guided me; He helped me and held on to me tightly when I was weak!
Ps 119:173-176
"Let Your hand become my help,
For I have chosen Your precepts.
I long for Your salvation,
O LORD,And Your law is my delight.
Let my soul live, and it shall praise You;
And let Your judgments help me.
I have gone astray like a lost sheep;
Seek Your servant,
For I do not forget Your commandments."
Dan Brown proclaimed on his website that he is a Christian but I really have doubts. A Christian should be one who glorifies Jesus and not bring controversies upon Him. In this book, he is selling the idea that Jesus was married to Mary Magdelene! On top of that, he made the Church look like a organisation that is so blinded that she has to lie, kill and destroy just to hold on to her belief and traditions. Anyway, he may have his views and I respect that. In any case, all is not lost! People may get curious as to if all that were said in the book are true. They may want to dig... searching for the proof on the views. However, I pray that in doing so, they will be brought before the Light, the real Truth. You never know! All things will work out well for those who love Him. I love Him and I pray that many people, in one way or another, will be led to the light!
While I was reading the book, a few things struck me. I realised that our mind is so powerful. We can really make something, which is false into something real. Everyone actions and thoughts can be justified by our minds if we really want to! It also made me realised another powerful truth! I can now say that Christianity is not totally based on FAITH! That's right... you heard me right! Faith is not really all there is in Christinity!
I was thinking one night, after reading that book. Is faith the only thing that made us believe that there is a God and that God is Jesus... Muslims have faith too! Buddists have faith but what differentiate mine with theirs?!?! There is only ONE thing! That thing, just like faith, cannot be bought, neither can it be shared just by a word of mouth! The other power ingredient that really bring us close to our God and allow us to trust in Him eventhough He is invisible is our ENCOUNTER(S)!
These encounters, especially the one that I have shared here in the past, really made me held onto Him during my darkest moments! I do not believe that before tasting a well cooked chicken, you can CONFIDENTLY say that it taste great! Why would someone first give up his/her life to Jesus if they cannot feel His tangible presence. Therefore, this feeling of His tangible presence is an ENCOUNTER too! That is why, no matter how people try to talk me out of my belief, or should I say relationship with Jesus, I will not budge! He is too real to be fake! How can I after touching my hand say that my hand is not there? It will such an irony!
Dear friends, I do really hope that you will hold on the encounter(s) you had with Jesus closely to your heart! When the times get tough, it will be your faith and these encounter(s) that will really keep you together! It is there and then that you know that He is too real for you to forsake or give up! You will never think that you are alone even if your mind tells you otherwise!
A short story.....
I was lost in a case... hungry and cold! I felt so lonely. Darkness encompassed me wherever I went... it just seemed like I am going to be swallowed by it if I do try to do something about it soon. I had no one to turn to. I was alone... with no guiding post, no light, no friends... NOTHING! What could I do.
Suddenly, something touched my hand. A voice followed. 'Son, hold on to me and I will lead you out of this cave.' I was shocked! Have I encountered a ghost? What can that be? However, I did not feel scare or uneasy. Instead, a rush of love and peace came upon my heart. I sensed that the 'thing' is not hostile. He/It was really trying to help me. I called out. 'Who are you? Why are you helping me?'
Silence crept in. Suddenly, a soothing, gentle familiar voice answered, 'I created you and you walked yourself straight into darkness.'
The voice cracked. He continued, 'I was searching for you and now, I have found you! I really love you! Will you let me help you get out from this darkness'
My heart melted... Someone in this world actually loved me to the extent that He is willling to come into my darkness to look for me! I was hesitant at first. However, due to the overwhelming love and peace, I decided to reach out for His hand. To my surprise, I felt His hands on mine the moment I started to reach out! We walked... I did not know Him. I have heard His voice, felt His hand. That's all! We continued walking. Darkness was still around. However, I knew that He is harmless and I continued to put my trust on Him. I had faith that He would indeed lead me out!
Twenty minutes passed... When things was getting no better and when my strength to hold on to His hand started to fade, He squeezed into my hands and gripped it even tighter. All of a sudden, something happened. I felt a sharp pain in my eyes... Gently, I lifted my head... THERE IT WAS... a light at the end of the tunnel! He was not lying! He is really leading me out of this darkness!
Now... three years after my incident in the cave, He is still by my guide. Everytime when He asked me to take His hand, I will obediently put mine on His and follow His leading. I will never forget the encounter I had with Him in the cave. It was there that I had the first and most beautiful encounter of His presence, no else or nothing in this world could give! My encounter made me know that He really love me and He is not a imagination! He is REAL. He led me out! He guided me; He helped me and held on to me tightly when I was weak!
Ps 119:173-176
"Let Your hand become my help,
For I have chosen Your precepts.
I long for Your salvation,
O LORD,And Your law is my delight.
Let my soul live, and it shall praise You;
And let Your judgments help me.
I have gone astray like a lost sheep;
Seek Your servant,
For I do not forget Your commandments."
Sunday, June 19, 2005
SHOCKED!
I just found out that my brother has not been attending church for the past few weeks... It really saddened me when I first heard from him about it... I really pray that I can be a light in my family... My dream will be to be able to impact and touch each and everyone of them... It will be an uphill task but I am sure that I can do it! Revival of DREAM!
It can be so easy for to fall away... even after we have ate of the good fruit! I really pray that God will preserve my spirit and my fire! I can really sense His heart beating in me... His love for me... His tears when I let Him down and His call when I am far... I do not want to harden myself to the state where I cannot love Him anymore.... I want to LOVE HIM FOREVER... Beloved LORD, please keep me in Your ARMS...
Something from my heart, written with my head:
The One I love is You.
For when I was still lost,
You chose to love me.
And when I was rotting,
You cleanse and watered me.
Then I came to You...
The day you touched my heart,
My spirit was birthed,
With new fire, burning hot,
A passion, that is hard to stop!
A new journey, which then I embarked.
One that is filled with mysteries...
that my mind cannot fathom or understand...
One that is full of battles...
with losses and victories...
Then joy may fizzle away;
a smile that turned upside down,
But then a love,
A wondrous love from an invisible force
started to fill me; it started to invade my heart...
It became so real that I cried.
I am so touched and I began to thank Him.
I thank Him for giving me a heart,
one that can sense this love!
A love that encourages me when I am defeated;
A love that revives me when I thought I am dead;
A love that consoles me when my days became nights;
A love that empowers me when battles became overwhelming;
A love so strong, a love so selfless, a love so sweet,
One that I cannot reject...
It just kept coming, rushing into me...
My spirit, my heart... my soul...
MY TOTAL BEING...
I am just an empty shell without it...
It is more important that the blood that is running in me...
Nothing else can fuel my passion to live apart from it...
I love this LOVE,
A LOVE from the most selfless person on this EARTH!
He saved me, He pull me out...
PLEASE HOLD ON TO ME;
POUR MORE OF YOUR LOVE INTO ME;
TOUCH ME AND EMBRACE ME...
I WANT TO BE IN YOUR ARMS ALWAYS!
I LOVE YOU, MY LORD, MY ALL!
It can be so easy for to fall away... even after we have ate of the good fruit! I really pray that God will preserve my spirit and my fire! I can really sense His heart beating in me... His love for me... His tears when I let Him down and His call when I am far... I do not want to harden myself to the state where I cannot love Him anymore.... I want to LOVE HIM FOREVER... Beloved LORD, please keep me in Your ARMS...
Something from my heart, written with my head:
The One I love is You.
For when I was still lost,
You chose to love me.
And when I was rotting,
You cleanse and watered me.
Then I came to You...
The day you touched my heart,
My spirit was birthed,
With new fire, burning hot,
A passion, that is hard to stop!
A new journey, which then I embarked.
One that is filled with mysteries...
that my mind cannot fathom or understand...
One that is full of battles...
with losses and victories...
Then joy may fizzle away;
a smile that turned upside down,
But then a love,
A wondrous love from an invisible force
started to fill me; it started to invade my heart...
It became so real that I cried.
I am so touched and I began to thank Him.
I thank Him for giving me a heart,
one that can sense this love!
A love that encourages me when I am defeated;
A love that revives me when I thought I am dead;
A love that consoles me when my days became nights;
A love that empowers me when battles became overwhelming;
A love so strong, a love so selfless, a love so sweet,
One that I cannot reject...
It just kept coming, rushing into me...
My spirit, my heart... my soul...
MY TOTAL BEING...
I am just an empty shell without it...
It is more important that the blood that is running in me...
Nothing else can fuel my passion to live apart from it...
I love this LOVE,
A LOVE from the most selfless person on this EARTH!
He saved me, He pull me out...
PLEASE HOLD ON TO ME;
POUR MORE OF YOUR LOVE INTO ME;
TOUCH ME AND EMBRACE ME...
I WANT TO BE IN YOUR ARMS ALWAYS!
I LOVE YOU, MY LORD, MY ALL!
SHOCKED!
I just found out that my brother has not been attending church for the past few weeks... It really saddened me when I first heard from him about it... I really pray that I can be a light in my family... My dream will be to be able to impact and touch each and everyone of them... It will be an uphill task but I am sure that I can do it! Revival of DREAM!
It can be so easy for to fall away... even after we have ate of the good fruit! I really pray that God will preserve my spirit and my fire! I can really sense His heart beating in me... His love for me... His tears when I let Him down and His call when I am far... I do not want to harden myself to the state where I cannot love Him anymore.... I want to LOVE HIM FOREVER... Beloved LORD, please keep me in Your ARMS...
Something from my heart, written with my head:
The One I love is You.
For when I was still lost,
You chose to love me.
And when I was rotting,
You cleanse and watered me.
Then I came to You...
The day you touched my heart,
My spirit was birthed,
With new fire, burning hot,
A passion, that is hard to stop!
A new journey, which then I embarked.
One that is filled with mysteries...
that my mind cannot fathom or understand...
One that is full of battles...
with losses and victories...
Then joy may fizzle away;
a smile that turned upside down,
But then a love,
A wondrous love from an invisible force
started to fill me; it started to invade my heart...
It became so real that I cried.
I am so touched and I began to thank Him.
I thank Him for giving me a heart,
one that can sense this love!
A love that encourages me when I am defeated;
A love that revives me when I thought I am dead;
A love that consoles me when my days became nights;
A love that empowers me when battles became overwhelming;
A love so strong, a love so selfless, a love so sweet,
One that I cannot reject...
It just kept coming, rushing into me...
My spirit, my heart... my soul...
MY TOTAL BEING...
I am just an empty shell without it...
It is more important that the blood that is running in me...
Nothing else can fuel my passion to live apart from it...
I love this LOVE,
A LOVE from the most selfless person on this EARTH!
He saved me, He pull me out...
PLEASE HOLD ON TO ME;
POUR MORE OF YOUR LOVE INTO ME;
TOUCH ME AND EMBRACE ME...
I WANT TO BE IN YOUR ARMS ALWAYS!
I LOVE YOU, MY LORD, MY ALL!
It can be so easy for to fall away... even after we have ate of the good fruit! I really pray that God will preserve my spirit and my fire! I can really sense His heart beating in me... His love for me... His tears when I let Him down and His call when I am far... I do not want to harden myself to the state where I cannot love Him anymore.... I want to LOVE HIM FOREVER... Beloved LORD, please keep me in Your ARMS...
Something from my heart, written with my head:
The One I love is You.
For when I was still lost,
You chose to love me.
And when I was rotting,
You cleanse and watered me.
Then I came to You...
The day you touched my heart,
My spirit was birthed,
With new fire, burning hot,
A passion, that is hard to stop!
A new journey, which then I embarked.
One that is filled with mysteries...
that my mind cannot fathom or understand...
One that is full of battles...
with losses and victories...
Then joy may fizzle away;
a smile that turned upside down,
But then a love,
A wondrous love from an invisible force
started to fill me; it started to invade my heart...
It became so real that I cried.
I am so touched and I began to thank Him.
I thank Him for giving me a heart,
one that can sense this love!
A love that encourages me when I am defeated;
A love that revives me when I thought I am dead;
A love that consoles me when my days became nights;
A love that empowers me when battles became overwhelming;
A love so strong, a love so selfless, a love so sweet,
One that I cannot reject...
It just kept coming, rushing into me...
My spirit, my heart... my soul...
MY TOTAL BEING...
I am just an empty shell without it...
It is more important that the blood that is running in me...
Nothing else can fuel my passion to live apart from it...
I love this LOVE,
A LOVE from the most selfless person on this EARTH!
He saved me, He pull me out...
PLEASE HOLD ON TO ME;
POUR MORE OF YOUR LOVE INTO ME;
TOUCH ME AND EMBRACE ME...
I WANT TO BE IN YOUR ARMS ALWAYS!
I LOVE YOU, MY LORD, MY ALL!
Friday, June 17, 2005
I'M BACK!
Just got back from youth camp... WOW! Really had a tremendous time! Hearts were touched... people cried! NOW, Legs areaching, brain is melting down... therefore, I shall share more within the next few day. At this current moment, I am going to indulge in a good hot bath and a beautiful adventure in my mystical dreamland! ZzzZZzz......
I'M BACK!
Just got back from youth camp... WOW! Really had a tremendous time! Hearts were touched... people cried! NOW, Legs areaching, brain is melting down... therefore, I shall share more within the next few day. At this current moment, I am going to indulge in a good hot bath and a beautiful adventure in my mystical dreamland! ZzzZZzz......
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
Back to School... :)
Wow... I have to admit that I am very blessed to see so many people pouring their affection, care and concern over me for the past week or so! The road was indeed long and bumpy... but I have to thank God that I am still here... praising His name; confessing on His goodness. Friends at work, friends from church and even Jesus and the Holy Spirit... came and stood in the gaps for me during this bumpy period in life. Life is always challenging, never disheartening because of the encouraging and helping hands around me! Once again, THANK YOU. To those whom I don't even know or those whom I cannot figure out from their nicks, I thank you for your encouragement!
I just got back from a meeting! A wonderful meeting for a wonderful event! I am going away for two days... for A GOOD CAUSE! I will be helping out in CHCSA's youth camp, which will be from thursday to friday. It used to be 3 days but due the sheer voume of activities during this past few months and weeks, it will be 2 instead this round. I can still remember the last camp that I went for. I was given a honor... to be a leader of a group. I have to say that I was tremendously blessed... to see how the youth there were impacted... how touched they were! It was simply AWESOME! I thought I was there to bless... but I never thought that the blessings that I got from the camp can be far greater than the amount of blessings which I had given out. God is scary in a good sense! Hahaha... always overflowing, even in experiences and emotions!
I believe that this upcoming 2 days youth camp, which will be held in a secondary school, is going to be another resounding success! Once again, it a gruelling time- late night, bone-breaking activities (Due to the fact that I have not be exercising regularly), first time interactions, etc- but I know that God is going to be so real in these 2 days! I just cannot wait to get into the middle of all these fun! To be honest, I am REALLY tired now... have to wake up at 530am tomorrow morning because we have to reach Bedok at 7am! I have not pack, bath, etc... I just so excited with the fact that I can work with a great team of people again, Bro Mingjin, Sis Daryl, etc. This is my fourth youth camp! I have to admit that from the first youth camp up till the last one, it has been from GLORY to GLORY! I really cannot imagine the wonderful time I am going to have in a few hours time! We will be having around a 100 campers, highest ever compared to the previous few camps that averages around 20-30 youths, this time round and I pray that everyone of them will turn up. The whole event will end late on friday, thus I will be missing my first friday service in a long while... haha... going to be out of my comfort zone this weekend!
Going to prepare and bath now! God bless and continue to pray for strength to be upon me. God can indeed use the weak... He used and is going to use me tomorrow to touch the lifes of the students!! God bless!
Ps 47:6
"Sing praises to God, sing praises! Sing praises to our King, sing praises!"
I just got back from a meeting! A wonderful meeting for a wonderful event! I am going away for two days... for A GOOD CAUSE! I will be helping out in CHCSA's youth camp, which will be from thursday to friday. It used to be 3 days but due the sheer voume of activities during this past few months and weeks, it will be 2 instead this round. I can still remember the last camp that I went for. I was given a honor... to be a leader of a group. I have to say that I was tremendously blessed... to see how the youth there were impacted... how touched they were! It was simply AWESOME! I thought I was there to bless... but I never thought that the blessings that I got from the camp can be far greater than the amount of blessings which I had given out. God is scary in a good sense! Hahaha... always overflowing, even in experiences and emotions!
I believe that this upcoming 2 days youth camp, which will be held in a secondary school, is going to be another resounding success! Once again, it a gruelling time- late night, bone-breaking activities (Due to the fact that I have not be exercising regularly), first time interactions, etc- but I know that God is going to be so real in these 2 days! I just cannot wait to get into the middle of all these fun! To be honest, I am REALLY tired now... have to wake up at 530am tomorrow morning because we have to reach Bedok at 7am! I have not pack, bath, etc... I just so excited with the fact that I can work with a great team of people again, Bro Mingjin, Sis Daryl, etc. This is my fourth youth camp! I have to admit that from the first youth camp up till the last one, it has been from GLORY to GLORY! I really cannot imagine the wonderful time I am going to have in a few hours time! We will be having around a 100 campers, highest ever compared to the previous few camps that averages around 20-30 youths, this time round and I pray that everyone of them will turn up. The whole event will end late on friday, thus I will be missing my first friday service in a long while... haha... going to be out of my comfort zone this weekend!
Going to prepare and bath now! God bless and continue to pray for strength to be upon me. God can indeed use the weak... He used and is going to use me tomorrow to touch the lifes of the students!! God bless!
Ps 47:6
"Sing praises to God, sing praises! Sing praises to our King, sing praises!"
Back to School... :)
Wow... I have to admit that I am very blessed to see so many people pouring their affection, care and concern over me for the past week or so! The road was indeed long and bumpy... but I have to thank God that I am still here... praising His name; confessing on His goodness. Friends at work, friends from church and even Jesus and the Holy Spirit... came and stood in the gaps for me during this bumpy period in life. Life is always challenging, never disheartening because of the encouraging and helping hands around me! Once again, THANK YOU. To those whom I don't even know or those whom I cannot figure out from their nicks, I thank you for your encouragement!
I just got back from a meeting! A wonderful meeting for a wonderful event! I am going away for two days... for A GOOD CAUSE! I will be helping out in CHCSA's youth camp, which will be from thursday to friday. It used to be 3 days but due the sheer voume of activities during this past few months and weeks, it will be 2 instead this round. I can still remember the last camp that I went for. I was given a honor... to be a leader of a group. I have to say that I was tremendously blessed... to see how the youth there were impacted... how touched they were! It was simply AWESOME! I thought I was there to bless... but I never thought that the blessings that I got from the camp can be far greater than the amount of blessings which I had given out. God is scary in a good sense! Hahaha... always overflowing, even in experiences and emotions!
I believe that this upcoming 2 days youth camp, which will be held in a secondary school, is going to be another resounding success! Once again, it a gruelling time- late night, bone-breaking activities (Due to the fact that I have not be exercising regularly), first time interactions, etc- but I know that God is going to be so real in these 2 days! I just cannot wait to get into the middle of all these fun! To be honest, I am REALLY tired now... have to wake up at 530am tomorrow morning because we have to reach Bedok at 7am! I have not pack, bath, etc... I just so excited with the fact that I can work with a great team of people again, Bro Mingjin, Sis Daryl, etc. This is my fourth youth camp! I have to admit that from the first youth camp up till the last one, it has been from GLORY to GLORY! I really cannot imagine the wonderful time I am going to have in a few hours time! We will be having around a 100 campers, highest ever compared to the previous few camps that averages around 20-30 youths, this time round and I pray that everyone of them will turn up. The whole event will end late on friday, thus I will be missing my first friday service in a long while... haha... going to be out of my comfort zone this weekend!
Going to prepare and bath now! God bless and continue to pray for strength to be upon me. God can indeed use the weak... He used and is going to use me tomorrow to touch the lifes of the students!! God bless!
Ps 47:6
"Sing praises to God, sing praises! Sing praises to our King, sing praises!"
I just got back from a meeting! A wonderful meeting for a wonderful event! I am going away for two days... for A GOOD CAUSE! I will be helping out in CHCSA's youth camp, which will be from thursday to friday. It used to be 3 days but due the sheer voume of activities during this past few months and weeks, it will be 2 instead this round. I can still remember the last camp that I went for. I was given a honor... to be a leader of a group. I have to say that I was tremendously blessed... to see how the youth there were impacted... how touched they were! It was simply AWESOME! I thought I was there to bless... but I never thought that the blessings that I got from the camp can be far greater than the amount of blessings which I had given out. God is scary in a good sense! Hahaha... always overflowing, even in experiences and emotions!
I believe that this upcoming 2 days youth camp, which will be held in a secondary school, is going to be another resounding success! Once again, it a gruelling time- late night, bone-breaking activities (Due to the fact that I have not be exercising regularly), first time interactions, etc- but I know that God is going to be so real in these 2 days! I just cannot wait to get into the middle of all these fun! To be honest, I am REALLY tired now... have to wake up at 530am tomorrow morning because we have to reach Bedok at 7am! I have not pack, bath, etc... I just so excited with the fact that I can work with a great team of people again, Bro Mingjin, Sis Daryl, etc. This is my fourth youth camp! I have to admit that from the first youth camp up till the last one, it has been from GLORY to GLORY! I really cannot imagine the wonderful time I am going to have in a few hours time! We will be having around a 100 campers, highest ever compared to the previous few camps that averages around 20-30 youths, this time round and I pray that everyone of them will turn up. The whole event will end late on friday, thus I will be missing my first friday service in a long while... haha... going to be out of my comfort zone this weekend!
Going to prepare and bath now! God bless and continue to pray for strength to be upon me. God can indeed use the weak... He used and is going to use me tomorrow to touch the lifes of the students!! God bless!
Ps 47:6
"Sing praises to God, sing praises! Sing praises to our King, sing praises!"
Saturday, June 04, 2005
Blog, blog, blog...
Wow... I am glad that I have friends who actually check out my blog... to see how I am doing in my life... Haha... It is encouraging to see that... Knowing that I am indeed not alone on my journey called life.
Just thought of something... I recalled reading a book that has the following title, "Tuesday with Morrie". This gave me an inspiration to start something... something which will goes like that... "Everyday with God." I really wonder if I will be disciplined to actually update this project of mine as often as I can... I know that if I were to embark on this project... the encouragements which God gave me will be reflected on deeply before posting it online. This will indeed be one good way of keeping tabs on the lessons which God is trying to teach me... and maybe one day... haha... yeah... one faithful day, just like Pst Phil Pringle's "Leadership Files," it will be published into a book... haha... and just like Mitch Albom, I will be New York Times bestselling author! Haha...
Yeah... just came back from CG... was really tired... still roughing it out in the valley... trying to bring myself together! Just like I was sharing yesterday... I really felt the endless plunge into eternal darkness last night... but after opening up here... I felt so much better... like a heavy burden been lifted up from my shoulders... though things are still not perfect, I felt that Someone was actually reaching out to me... trying to grab me... to save me from this plunge!
I really do look forward to the day when I will share about my victory from this struggle which I am facing now, struggling to get myself back on the road God has built for me... It is too narrow to the point that I actually fell from it... into this valley which I am in now! haha... I don't blame Him, my God... He just wants to perfect me... to train me into a person who can balance and walk on this NARROW road which will He has intended me to be on.
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hate darkness... I hate the state which I am in right now!! This thorn... which is in my flesh... poking in areas which I wanna hide... digging in the parts of my life which I thought I have thrown away... argh....
2Cor 12:9
"And He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness." Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me."
Just thought of something... I recalled reading a book that has the following title, "Tuesday with Morrie". This gave me an inspiration to start something... something which will goes like that... "Everyday with God." I really wonder if I will be disciplined to actually update this project of mine as often as I can... I know that if I were to embark on this project... the encouragements which God gave me will be reflected on deeply before posting it online. This will indeed be one good way of keeping tabs on the lessons which God is trying to teach me... and maybe one day... haha... yeah... one faithful day, just like Pst Phil Pringle's "Leadership Files," it will be published into a book... haha... and just like Mitch Albom, I will be New York Times bestselling author! Haha...
Yeah... just came back from CG... was really tired... still roughing it out in the valley... trying to bring myself together! Just like I was sharing yesterday... I really felt the endless plunge into eternal darkness last night... but after opening up here... I felt so much better... like a heavy burden been lifted up from my shoulders... though things are still not perfect, I felt that Someone was actually reaching out to me... trying to grab me... to save me from this plunge!
I really do look forward to the day when I will share about my victory from this struggle which I am facing now, struggling to get myself back on the road God has built for me... It is too narrow to the point that I actually fell from it... into this valley which I am in now! haha... I don't blame Him, my God... He just wants to perfect me... to train me into a person who can balance and walk on this NARROW road which will He has intended me to be on.
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hate darkness... I hate the state which I am in right now!! This thorn... which is in my flesh... poking in areas which I wanna hide... digging in the parts of my life which I thought I have thrown away... argh....
2Cor 12:9
"And He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness." Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me."
Blog, blog, blog...
Wow... I am glad that I have friends who actually check out my blog... to see how I am doing in my life... Haha... It is encouraging to see that... Knowing that I am indeed not alone on my journey called life.
Just thought of something... I recalled reading a book that has the following title, "Tuesday with Morrie". This gave me an inspiration to start something... something which will goes like that... "Everyday with God." I really wonder if I will be disciplined to actually update this project of mine as often as I can... I know that if I were to embark on this project... the encouragements which God gave me will be reflected on deeply before posting it online. This will indeed be one good way of keeping tabs on the lessons which God is trying to teach me... and maybe one day... haha... yeah... one faithful day, just like Pst Phil Pringle's "Leadership Files," it will be published into a book... haha... and just like Mitch Albom, I will be New York Times bestselling author! Haha...
Yeah... just came back from CG... was really tired... still roughing it out in the valley... trying to bring myself together! Just like I was sharing yesterday... I really felt the endless plunge into eternal darkness last night... but after opening up here... I felt so much better... like a heavy burden been lifted up from my shoulders... though things are still not perfect, I felt that Someone was actually reaching out to me... trying to grab me... to save me from this plunge!
I really do look forward to the day when I will share about my victory from this struggle which I am facing now, struggling to get myself back on the road God has built for me... It is too narrow to the point that I actually fell from it... into this valley which I am in now! haha... I don't blame Him, my God... He just wants to perfect me... to train me into a person who can balance and walk on this NARROW road which will He has intended me to be on.
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hate darkness... I hate the state which I am in right now!! This thorn... which is in my flesh... poking in areas which I wanna hide... digging in the parts of my life which I thought I have thrown away... argh....
2Cor 12:9
"And He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness." Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me."
Just thought of something... I recalled reading a book that has the following title, "Tuesday with Morrie". This gave me an inspiration to start something... something which will goes like that... "Everyday with God." I really wonder if I will be disciplined to actually update this project of mine as often as I can... I know that if I were to embark on this project... the encouragements which God gave me will be reflected on deeply before posting it online. This will indeed be one good way of keeping tabs on the lessons which God is trying to teach me... and maybe one day... haha... yeah... one faithful day, just like Pst Phil Pringle's "Leadership Files," it will be published into a book... haha... and just like Mitch Albom, I will be New York Times bestselling author! Haha...
Yeah... just came back from CG... was really tired... still roughing it out in the valley... trying to bring myself together! Just like I was sharing yesterday... I really felt the endless plunge into eternal darkness last night... but after opening up here... I felt so much better... like a heavy burden been lifted up from my shoulders... though things are still not perfect, I felt that Someone was actually reaching out to me... trying to grab me... to save me from this plunge!
I really do look forward to the day when I will share about my victory from this struggle which I am facing now, struggling to get myself back on the road God has built for me... It is too narrow to the point that I actually fell from it... into this valley which I am in now! haha... I don't blame Him, my God... He just wants to perfect me... to train me into a person who can balance and walk on this NARROW road which will He has intended me to be on.
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hate darkness... I hate the state which I am in right now!! This thorn... which is in my flesh... poking in areas which I wanna hide... digging in the parts of my life which I thought I have thrown away... argh....
2Cor 12:9
"And He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness." Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me."
TIRED...
I am so tired... drained... lost... ZzzzZz..... new phase in life which I need to adapt... to conquer... to rule over! So many things are piling up... hmm... maybe not... but it seems like it! Haha... I am just not used to having so little time to myself... hmm... I really need a release man! Blogging is one way... yeah... I can SHOUT here... without bringing myself into any troubles... Haha... ARGH!!! Now is a time of testing... a test of my loyalty... whether I am for God or not... so many committments... so little time... no time for myself... no time for my own entertainment... yeah... as you can see... it is about ME, ME, ME and ME! Haha... I know that this is just a passing phase (Hopefully!) I feel so PACKED UP, SQUEEZED UP, BLOWING UP soon...
However, I will PRAISE... I will REJOICE... although I don't feel like it! So this is how it feels like... SACRIFICE OF PRAISE! ARGH!!! Trying to be happy when I am not... trying to shout praised even when I don't feel like it...
I feel like I am sliding down from a cliff... falling at a rate where I myself cannot find anything to grab onto... no branch or anything for me to pull myself up... to stop myself from this plunge! HOPELESS... HELPLESS... too tired to try... instead of trying, I may just as well "enjoy" this free fall... when I am weak... there may be a supernatural empowerment... which I am really looking forward too... I will not lose the hope that a supernatural intervention is on its way... when I am weak, indeed, I WILL be strong...
Psalms 23:4
"Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil; For You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me. "
However, I will PRAISE... I will REJOICE... although I don't feel like it! So this is how it feels like... SACRIFICE OF PRAISE! ARGH!!! Trying to be happy when I am not... trying to shout praised even when I don't feel like it...
I feel like I am sliding down from a cliff... falling at a rate where I myself cannot find anything to grab onto... no branch or anything for me to pull myself up... to stop myself from this plunge! HOPELESS... HELPLESS... too tired to try... instead of trying, I may just as well "enjoy" this free fall... when I am weak... there may be a supernatural empowerment... which I am really looking forward too... I will not lose the hope that a supernatural intervention is on its way... when I am weak, indeed, I WILL be strong...
Psalms 23:4
"Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil; For You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me. "
TIRED...
I am so tired... drained... lost... ZzzzZz..... new phase in life which I need to adapt... to conquer... to rule over! So many things are piling up... hmm... maybe not... but it seems like it! Haha... I am just not used to having so little time to myself... hmm... I really need a release man! Blogging is one way... yeah... I can SHOUT here... without bringing myself into any troubles... Haha... ARGH!!! Now is a time of testing... a test of my loyalty... whether I am for God or not... so many committments... so little time... no time for myself... no time for my own entertainment... yeah... as you can see... it is about ME, ME, ME and ME! Haha... I know that this is just a passing phase (Hopefully!) I feel so PACKED UP, SQUEEZED UP, BLOWING UP soon...
However, I will PRAISE... I will REJOICE... although I don't feel like it! So this is how it feels like... SACRIFICE OF PRAISE! ARGH!!! Trying to be happy when I am not... trying to shout praised even when I don't feel like it...
I feel like I am sliding down from a cliff... falling at a rate where I myself cannot find anything to grab onto... no branch or anything for me to pull myself up... to stop myself from this plunge! HOPELESS... HELPLESS... too tired to try... instead of trying, I may just as well "enjoy" this free fall... when I am weak... there may be a supernatural empowerment... which I am really looking forward too... I will not lose the hope that a supernatural intervention is on its way... when I am weak, indeed, I WILL be strong...
Psalms 23:4
"Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil; For You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me. "
However, I will PRAISE... I will REJOICE... although I don't feel like it! So this is how it feels like... SACRIFICE OF PRAISE! ARGH!!! Trying to be happy when I am not... trying to shout praised even when I don't feel like it...
I feel like I am sliding down from a cliff... falling at a rate where I myself cannot find anything to grab onto... no branch or anything for me to pull myself up... to stop myself from this plunge! HOPELESS... HELPLESS... too tired to try... instead of trying, I may just as well "enjoy" this free fall... when I am weak... there may be a supernatural empowerment... which I am really looking forward too... I will not lose the hope that a supernatural intervention is on its way... when I am weak, indeed, I WILL be strong...
Psalms 23:4
"Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil; For You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me. "
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